Its time to heal

 You wish you could change the past. There were moments of great Peace, but now it is bad so bad you want to die, but you keep trudging along. Its deeper than depression, but your just coasting along. You don't feel abundant you don't even feel abundant. You don't feel like a black sheep you feel  invisible and incomplete.

Your looking at empty connections, but wont leave them alone. You're tired of life's lessons. You don't know how to fully pull away from them. You are struggling with self love and self sabotage and once you heal from this you will be able to walk away. 

You don't have to stay in the energy of continual loss. Those hard lessons can lead you to the greatest answers possibly even your sweetest taboo. 

Fyi the person you feel NEEDY about you aren't healed enough to be there for them focus on yourself buddy. Back up and heal before coming towards someone its not their job to heal you or even show you how to heal. 

This is your journey. You cannot make them responsible for your emotions that is abusive honey. Do better be better.