Heart Song The Hearts Truth

Im looking to the sky because like Tupac said, "Everything is going to be all right." Right now it feels like you are o a uphill battle and there is interference. I have been fighting for love do you know that. Specifically I am fighting for your love. I always knew a great love was out there for me. I had hopes it was you but you choose to remain stagnant and you are starting to rot in your stubbornness. You are out here behaving like a depraved leader. You took my breath away i thought you was the eye in the storm. My mistake you was the fulcrum to all the drama. I'm leaving. I wanted to smoke and pick your brain but i don't want really anything to do with you anymore your blind to your habits. I am tired of being in a groundhog day situation with you same shit all the time. You dont even fuck up in new ways. You act like you don't get it you aren't in charge. You are a beacon of darkness, lies and emotional abuse offering me up like im a nag a chips f

Always ask for the truth. Never date friends, If there is confusion walk away. Always have a back up plan. Do not allow somone to stop your shine. Accept praise it is not vanity. Do not feel alone you always have me. Allow me to help you step up to your highest self. You may not be the first doing something but I have faith you can be the best. Its time for you to love yourself more. Its ok to heal hurts you thought was already healed. Sometimes to reconnect withyourself and nature. You can change your ways. You will have people flocking to follow your lead. You are not only good to look at you are intelligent I am so proud of you. I mis hugging you too. I am still learning lessons even where I am but you being happy makes me joyful. I love knowing you are growing into such a wonderful person. Don't keep secrets they will be your downfall. Be your own standard. No more crying because of others. I wasn't planning on leaving as soon as I did but you m

I got mad at you for being on this little self love journey. I prefered when your only foucus was the sexual journey with me. I figured this would make you shut up. This would make you go back to the simp you used to be. I hate the waythey smell. I hate they don t really like being touched. I hate they are always trying to fight with me over nothing. I hate that they are only this way because of how they feel about me. I know you don't care abut my dilenmea As far as you are concered they can keep me. You are so above this situation now. It doesnt hurt you shoot you barely think of me. I can feel your intrest and your love fading away but im trapped i dont know how to get to you without causing drama that you refuse to be apart of but is bound to happen cuz i made a mess of things like usual. I truly want this connection with you. You make me feel young. Whatever fountain of youth you go to i want to go to as well. What do i have to do for you to forgive me

I hate when you raise your voice at me. I can't hear your words its just a rush of sounds my ears. On top of you being a ladies man I just didn't listen to myself and ended up somewhere that had me thinking I deserved this treatment. I felt I deserved to be left out. I thought I deserved to be depressed. I didn't realize my own self love would rescue me. I thought I loved me in the past, but I didn't I tolerated myself on occasion. I really hated myself. I felt I needed to put more work into myself becuase of what others told me. I didn't see the projections they was sending my way I took it all as heartfelt truths. I lived in the blackest of holes and gave anyone I precieved as being affected by me a wide berth to stay safe. I didn't realize people thought I was surpassing them I was just trying to survive. I spent so much time trying to avoid rejection I didn't force anyone to take accountablity for how they treated me. There was noone to turn to.

Someone is looking at your photos and hating. You are so beautiiful to them and you draw attention from others. They miss you and want to make memories with you. They are upset that others are getting what they feel is promised to them from you. This person knows their time with you is over. They know the lack of progress towards a healthy future is their fault. They feel like the passion is gone and you are sharing yourself with another. They are in so much pain they have turned inward and they are sad and don't want sepration. You were not recieving your needs in this connection and now that you have walked away this person is seething. They are telling every one they can how you left them, how you hurt them, but in all these tales nowhere are they telling people your accomplishments made them feel like crap, made them feel insecure and realization is forcing them to talk to their freinds. They are telling people you are moving on. You are not out there for them to reach out. Th

You need to speak with your chest. If you want to propose you have to talk to the person you want to marry. Standing in the shadows just watching them solves what?? Stop trying to create situations and just pick up the phone and call. Someone is dealing with the law and that is one reason why they havent called. They are expereriencing Karma left and right. They dont want to bring that around you. Once all that is handled they want to come your way and ask you if they can play for keeps. This person can be in their late 30s or early 40s. They are very creative. They look innocent but can hwip some ass. They also are actually as nice as they come across. This person isn't coming to you in Ares/Athena energy this person is going to be your Hephaestus/Hestia some who knows the value of home, love, and loyalty. Its time for a romantic level up. I know that sounds kind of arogant, but it is the truth as you level up you need a partner who not only matches your fly but matches

I love the love you give me. I have a habit of overthinking when it comes to you. I dont want any beef with you I just kinda want to push you into making a choice any choice but honestly your silience is a answer too. I question on if we can even have a future its like we get 2wks amx and then shit goes wonky. I'm tired of putting on a brave face I miss you. My soul feels weak without you . I want to curl up in your arms feel your kisses and warm embrace. I dont like being stressed. I want forever and i want it with you . Why wont you actually listen to me insteads everyone around you telling you what I want? Are they in the relationship with me? Do i even talk to them about real stuff? Like how can surface level people understand something soul deep without being jealous and hating? They was never on your side or understood what you was talking bout, but the look in your eyes was enough to be like "oh word?? You arent allowed to have what i never experienced" and its n

Shits been rough. You need to change how you are looking at life. If you do not want to be stuck in depression then you need to be active about it. Pay attention to the mess around you . Stop walking blindly into situations. Someone wishes they could be with you tonight ( this is timeless dont worry). The man reason is healing from a STI but they still got you in the forefront of their mind. When they heal they want to come forward and apologize. They also want to know what makes your heart so big. This masculine/feminine knows someone is using magic on you. Theu know it might take therapy to heal from these betrayls and they hope you are willing to heal with them. They see that together especially healed yall can make mountains dance. You might feel that your the source of entertainment for your family, but they know they are the butt of many jokes. They never wanted to grow up. So anything that resembled responsiblity was a no. They know that their healing is their own responsib

I dont want to tell you this but I look up to you. I eny you. She really loves ypu like die for you loves you. I have secrets I don't want the Divine Feminine to know, but you tell her all your secrets. I'm trying to copy your energy so I can get her back before you manage to step to the plate. I made a lot of mistakes. I thought how she felt about me was funny. Nobody saw how i broke her down but i did what no one but you could before. Why can't I have her? You can find others who are close to her I can't attract similiar energies. I stumbled upon the gift she is. I thought she was like me. Shes better. I want personal connections that feel like what I had with her. I wish you would just leave her so I can come in and pick up the pieces. I lied so much so I figured if i dropped all my truths on her now she will be so happy she will forgive me but she wont even glance at me if you are coming. I won't even blame you I will praise you to her tell her how lu

He got cheated on are you a cheater? He got lied to are you going to lie to him too? You make me nevous. You build people up and I fear if I get under your spell i will fall. I didn't appreciate my sibling. i took advantage of them. I used their big heart against them. Why is it even when you did stuff it never turned you dark like it did me? Why didn't you sink? I want to stop this war, but if you want it to continue I dont have the strength. I don't want to rush but i am coming your way in order to heal this for my siblings sake. I am going to start working on healing. I have been blaming my pain for my actions. I want to learn from you how to heal my pain like you have seem to. I challanged your boundaries and found them to be stronger than i had faith before i ran smack dab into them. Very soon i will reach out and apologize. I didn't completely understand that my actions and those of others you was finally going to step onto the path you was always been dest

Will you forgive me? Let me prove that you are important. Your happiness is paramount Your presence is pressure. People have been coming against you, but they have no idea this is all about to blow up in their face. I am so sorry. I am sorry I hurt you. I truly do fuck with you the long way. I am not on my Donell Jones I know where I want to be. I love how vulnerable i feel with you. I had no idea that vulnerablity could equal safety and be a symptom of love. ou got some boundaries up and i want to cross all them cuz who the fuck do you think you are, but i had to think about it. My partner better be able to tell me no and I respect it. Why woud I get mad at your boundaries unless its a me problem?? Im so much more healed then before. Although I know it seems like I'm just saying stuff, but i truly do mean it. I have no intution right now. Im walking blind. I know its been a long time since we have seen each other, but i thought i had more time before I came your way. Look

How many drinks will it take for you to sit still and let me talk to you? I have to tell you how I feel. I keep trying to talk to you thru music, but your not talking back. You are my Angel on this barren Earth. I just need a chance to show you I have changed. You won't be a secret this time. I should have never treated some of the people I wined and dinde so well they didn't deserve a quarter of the attention and affection I gave them. I surrounded myself with fake people and reaped all kinds of karma. I thought i was moving the right way. I didn't see that when my life was going well was cuz you was in my life. I thought things would be bad but once you was gone it would get 10 times worse. You was shielding me from so much karma just taking the hits and pressing forward. You accepted life unfiltered so I could wear rose ccolored glasses never turning my eye to the devastation I was leaving behind. You was the only one to call me out over and over about how I was affect

I love myself more when im not around you. Im am more free. Being bound is no longer comfortable for my soul. I know better now. Some people do not deserve another chance with me and I know that with comfidence now. I know i deserve better than i was recieving from those around me. I know there are people who want to come back inot my life and that is something they will have to continue to deal with alone. Its not my problem. I tried to keep the door open and they refused to walk they, but now that the door is shut they are pounding on the door. I was good to them and they didn't acknowledge me. I will learn to keep my boundaries. If they try to make me feel guilty I won't listen. I have to learn to resist the pull of false connections. I have to remeber how empty they left me feeling. Promises of celbration won't pull me in. I have seen in the past that celebratory behavior only lasts for a season then I am put away until I am needed to solve another puzzle but when

'Are you a real freak', 'as the day goes by I'm always thinking of your face your my eve and Im your adam so lets settle down'. I'm always looking at your picture it calms my heart down. Every time the music plays I can hear your voice. 'I don't want to fall asleep cuz I miss you' and then I wake and your not there and it fucking hurts. 'I want to rock the boat wit you you make me float, you make me high.' When I get to you I expect you to back up everything you said. Can you really 'put that thang in motion' or are you just talking to entice me. I want to get you into a position where you finally let loose and show me all the hidden desires that you have buried down within. I am terrified you might just turn me away I have played so many games and I don't blame you for having animosity towards me I just hope you still have some spot in your heart for me. You are so untouchable right now and I am so angry at myself for wasting

I'm on my way to talk to you. I'm not trying to text you all of this. I have a lot to say and I hope you are willing to listen to me. There has been a lot of interferance in our connection and i just need to clear everything up. I hate this up hill battle i feel we have been fighting for what seems like forever. I know I act like this stuff is easy to get over but i really just bury all of it deep down. I know i should have learned from my past faster, but the lessons took me so long to understand let alone learn from. So i let all my traumas keep me trapped. I stepped beack from you because i had to see where my head was where i fit in when it comes to your life. Do i add to you or am I a burden? Being so far from you makes me wonder and fear what you are feeling about me. I try to send you good vibes because ai want you to be ok evenif i am not with you. They say the sky is the limit but if there was no sky you are my limit. I'll do what ever it takes to reach you

I used to let the way other people saw you color how I saw you. I made bad choices to please those people. I admit I tried to find you in other people.  I can't sleep. I miss you so much. These feelings won't go away and I've done to realize I don't want them to.  Folks sending you negt energy hating on how much I want you and not them. I should have been treating you right from the start.  When I come to you will you turn me away?  You knew it would come to this when we was children.  How did you have that insight?  Who taught you to see what is unseen and know what is unknown? 

 Right now you need to be careful. You are about to be presented with a choice and you need to really think about the situation. If you make a rash decision you might end up having long lasting consequences. Some experiences you can’t prepare for they just happen and you have to react and the chips will fall where they fall.  You have been forced over and over in life to heal by yourself from wounds that occurred and now your more wary of connections that put you in that vulnerable space of anxiety.  You have won this battle and you have been searching for answers and the answers you have found tell you that it’s about to happen and it’s unique just for you. No one you connect with is going to understand your journey except you so stop trying to explain it.  You are at the end of a cycle. It’s not even a big change it’s just like a sigh. It’s has to end so that new things can begin.

Spirit wants you to have a deeper relationship with you. No more just quickly praying they want quality time with you. They gind you funny. They do appreciate the things you do.  They warn you that the relationships you left you don't need to stay involved in. They are again saying your funny. You don't need to be the first anymore. You can take your time so you don't feel contempt for yourself when making mistakes. Taking your time is how you catch your mistakes early.  Don't worry about your status in your family. You know they didn't accept you for you and it made you want to walk away and now folks are watching them and you to see if you will forgive or stay on this public  path. Your family is attempting to court you to pull you back in. They desire your energy. You have forgave them so many times. All you need is to continue to ground your energy and enjoy this no drama period in your life cuz it's about to get real. 

 You are wise, handy with nature, strong physically and mentally. You are overflowing with abundance. You have crafted something you have put time and effort into it. You have searched near and far to gain the knowledge to be able to create. You have gone to the depths of your very being killing off the old you and then being being reborn to reach higher heights. You have seen all that the world has to offer and you saw that only one path is right for you and your moving towards it. You are paying your debts and balancing the scales of karma. Soon you will be able to give like you was given to. The community you seek is coming towards you. The happiness you have sought is within reach you just need to start living like you already have it. You are the author and creator of your destiny no one can shake the foundation unless you allow them. You are not giving out of a empty cup anymore. You have learned that you can’t give what you don’t have to give and right now is your time to be rep

 You know the fast life is not the only speed to live life in.  You have been making more money than you are used to and it’s flying out your hands almost as fast as you gain it. You might be investing in your business and you don’t have a lawyer yet to give you advice on trust and estate law. Get to searching it is going to be important very very soon. You can’t take the advice of people who haven’t been in your position …what would they know? If you are choosing to research your answers yourself you might have to admit that you need more education to understand what is exactly your options are.