Heart Song The Hearts Truth

I want real relatonships. I want a real connection. I am not confident the world will give me a real chance, but I am going to snatch if I have to. I am trying to look at the storms of change as coming regardless, but with me I am finally happy I have found the safe space in myself. I know I cannot come back to some past connections due to all I have done. I have no right to have hope and yet I do It bubbles in me like a fountain. I am grasping at straws, but I know there is better in this world for me. The universe made me a promise and I am holding it to it. I have spent to much time messing things up and I have to fix it. All my efforts noone needs to know it, but me. I have learned to not define myself by others opinions. Change is coming are you as prepared as you appear cuz I know I am not. I want to come in and cause safety for as many as I can. I want to help as many I can prepare for healthier futures. Learning to think for myself in an enviroment that wa...

Boom now you are gone!! I don't know what you thought was ging to happen after you showed your ass. You wanted people to leave individuals in the dust so you could be the hero. You made threats and now you can't back step. You wrote checks your ass couldn't back up. You tried to make someone insecure and it flipped on you. You are the one depressed and wishing you was just like this person you have chosen as your nemisis. You are a liar and you wanted to have the swag of this person. You tried to claim a god touched individual and thought you was gonna be telling tales. All this is based on root chakra imbalance. Lust is your reasoning and guess what its not a good reason. Other peroples lust or your own I don't care you are so gluttonus you wanted to have what they had plus what you have been gifted by the UNIVERSE. That greed is gonna kick your butt. Trying to mess with the Chosen doesn't end well. You could have chose to be a miracle. You at...

Beavers use their natural gifts wisely to survive and improve their environment for their family. Beavers are hard workers who teach people to be productive and use available resources. Beavers teach people to be persistent and not limit their options. Beavers teach people to understand teamwork and appreciate each individual's talents. Beavers symbolize creativity, creation, cooperation, and harmony. In Christian symbolism, the beaver represents a willingness to sacrifice anything that hinders the ability to devote oneself to Christ. The beaver is an official symbol of Canada, representing Canadian sovereignty. In many Native traditions, the beaver is a powerful, vital, and respected being. For example, the Koyukon people call the beaver Noya'a, or Ggagga, which also means "Animal". You have stuck to your boundaries and someone is flabberghasted. You didn't just give them the cold shoulder you got your shit together and moved on. You are being stri...

I let them go. It wsn't pretty or easy but I stopped that connection. I will get rid of all signs of the connectio if that will reassure you. I don't want any reminders either. Divorice, break up whatever I will make sure its crystal clear I mean this. I dont really want to talk about my next steps but I know its necessary. I want to talk to you. I am waiting to hear from you. I miss you so very much. My soul hurts and I can't help, but cry at the pain that misssing you is causing me right now. I will admit I have messed up so bad I feel like will never get back to you healthy and a addition to your life not a burden. You don't just see your worth in this individual you see where you lack as well, but instead of shame you feel a rush to get to work. No hiding your flaws its gonna be about embracing and reshapeing. That pain I caused I am gong to do my damndest to heal, that grief to abate. I should have never allowed myself to get to a point of hurti...

Someone in your life is a nig goofy. They really thought God hated you becuase why would they be allowed toharmyou. They didn't understand they was a tool to shape you. They tried to ruin your life with sex and disease. This individual tried to move like you in order to steal credit for your life. THis individual is a whole codependant bitch but they feel they have the right to pressure you tbend to their will but they have no direction or ambition they just know they want what they dont have. There is rarely anyway way to gain knowledge without seeking it. Time and effort is how most knowledge is gained. Pillow talking and passion will not get you to a place in life where rubbing backs is how the big decisions are made. Wishing to be somewhere else won't wash away the sins of the past. You have got to learn to stand on your own. Codependacy is not healing. It might be time to be celebate and to work on some self love. You have to learn how to find happiness within.

Really you want to come at me on some bullshit? You want my person so bad you think fighting me is going to get their love? You feel that you money, sex or looks are what they truly want??? If that was he case why are they chasing me? You are all up in arms about some bull shit that you started. I am not chasing, anynone not even you. I got money to make and a legacy to make great. Baby you still on that bully shit that is played out. Its community or solo dolo living my dude. You are so insistant on giving the right answers you havent bothered to do the right thing You won't let anyone help you. You won't even accept compliments. You are to busy working hard and ignoring the obstacles others are trying to toss in your path. You are some peoples ideals and you have no idea because you rarely look up. Thankfully the universe know and they are going to send you love that is als power. You will thrive in this connection as you shed those that are false or weaki...

You feel like someone is your whole world. You would give anything for them. You see no wrong in them. You was willing to pour out everything for them. This person gave you butterflies. They made you feel safe and lucky. They kept saving you. You hoped they wanted what you wanted or was at least willing to keep up a facade with you. Anything they wanted no matter how degading you was willing to do to keep them attached. You just was empty and you couldnt figure out how not to feel that way but at least they helped you forget for a while. You have no back up plan for all they gave youand did for you. NO one you know can fill that void. If only you stopped playing games. You just wanted them to make it official. You wanted them to save you, to mark you as theirs (marriage) to want to be affectionate with you. Its time to let go. No one is happy. NOthing is saving this. You could read every rlationship book and sex book and it still wouldnt matter. At the end of th...

You don't feel like you come across as impressive. You are learning about love and its from somone you see as worthy of being looked up to. You experienced heart break and watching this person is somehow healing you. They have been hitting a lot of nails on the head and its helping you see clearer. You feellike they know what is around the river bend. They are your Grandma Willow. They are a loving individual and you adore that in them. You feel lower then them for some reason. You know that you have some shadow work to do. You didn't realize you could work on healing yourself that it is not just a wake up one day and bam new perspective new out look on life. You want to reach out to them. You want to break bread with them. YOu know they can help you heal your inner child. You also know if they deny you its totally deserved. You want to learn to be the most genuine version of yourself and that is hard you want to learn how this person does it. They aren...