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Play games with your mama not me!

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You want to come in telling lies. You want to have sex. You would willingly be a whore for me to get what I have cuz you're too lazy to put in work in something real that would be lasting for you. You didn't appreciate that they don't make them like me no more. You were to focussed on what I had and what others saw as valueable in me instead of seeing me. I tried to heal the wounds in you that others caused and you kept hurting me. So I walked away and you have the nerve to be begging for me back. I gave you all the freedom in the world and you bound me. You attacked me and had others join in at blocking my life. You dont see me, but you see my financial worth. Fuck you and your emotional, physical, and finacial abuse. Noone has time for someone with so much self hate that they project it on others. Go on and be with people who dont value you or themselves. Misery loves company and this person was throwing the biggest pity party. Spiritually attacking

Sekhmet

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Someone wants axcess to whats on your mind, what your plans are and who you are planning to do things with. They want to make your connection permanent. They feel all the turmoil and drama you both have overcome is definitely making you stronger and bringing you both together. They feel you always come back tgether due to the Universe having a higher plan for you both. This person has been forced to face some big truths and how they manage is the last test for coming together with you. This maybe a childhood sweetheart, but they haven't grown up with you. Something kept them stagnant and now they are rushing to try and finally grow up. You are so smart. Thru that itelligence you are seeing that it was never about you it ws laways others projecting their behavior on you. Your love and friendship could not be measured. You operated in love and goood faith and others shitted on your kindness, When you pull that away from people they are lost and thirstying for any in

4th house

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In astrology, the fourth house is associated with home, family, and heritage. It can also represent a person's relationship with their maternal figure and their outlook on domesticity. The fourth house is located at the base of the natal chart and is associated with the energy of Cancer. The Moon is the planet associated with the fourth house, but some say that Earth is a more logical choice because it represents our home. The fourth house can reveal a person's early home memories and experiences. The fourth house can represent a person's relationships with family, whether by blood or choice. The fourth house can rule over a person's overall domestic condition.The fourth house can represent the final outcome of a situation. Planets moving across the fourth house can encourage a person to invest in their infrastructure by creating more private spaces. Somethings arent changing no matter the new atmosphere because it is the people not the place. You want n

Scorpio

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You have wakened up and being unaware to all that is happening has gotten you caught up. You do not see yourself surving this pit you have gotten dragged into. NO rebirth after everything burns down you just see death and destruction. You had hopes of partnership and growth, but you disrupted other peoples happinness in order for you to obtain it. Ok so you was hurting and lost does that give you the right to attack others? Seperation and devestation are now all that will be on your plate. The hurt and triangulation you participated in you will now suffer a similar trauma. Love was yours and now it will flee from you just as you chose to flee from it. Think love bombing and ghosting.. that will be your new bread and butter. You have played the rule of the other and have found you enjoy it. Once you have a connection you dislike it and that is not ok for others to experience they are not mice and you arent a cat. You kept trying to show other people who they were but

I'm working on it

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You have the ability to see the potential in anything.Do you feel what I feel Is this rfighting for this. eal? The answers to all of lifes questions is YOU!! I know i am beyond toast in your eyes. I am worse then a fraud I am a failure because I never tried. I didn't see any value in a connection with you. I couldnt imagine being in love. I didnt take life seriously. I judged your age. You actually take very good care of yourself. tate. Its the best way I want to ptotect you from toxic lovers and be the loving entity you need. You are my comfort , understanding and I want to protect you. I want to marry you dummy. My soul awakens with you. My controlling, abusive behavior, my lack of direction and agressive nature was due to my solar plexus being blocked but I am working harder on being aligned. I seek more knowledge on connected with you. Your vibe scares me. We both need to meditate. Its the best way to quiet our minds. All I want to do is grw old with you. All my love is

Who is jealous??

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Someone is looking at your photos and hating. You are so beautiiful to them and you draw attention from others. They miss you and want to make memories with you. They are upset that others are getting what they feel is promised to them from you. This person knows their time with you is over. They know the lack of progress towards a healthy future is their fault. They feel like the passion is gone and you are sharing yourself with another. They are in so much pain they have turned inward and they are sad and don't want sepration. You were not recieving your needs in this connection and now that you have walked away this person is seething. They are telling every one they can how you left them, how you hurt them, but in all these tales nowhere are they telling people your accomplishments made them feel like crap, made them feel insecure and realization is forcing them to talk to their freinds. They are telling people you are moving on. You are not out there for them to reach out. Th

What you want to say

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I have my own feelings to sort out. I am still in love with you and yet I'm ready to walk away. I am tired of losing you to you. this relationship is rootless.  No where do I find solace.  I want to take a step forward to show you my forward movement. I am tired of both of being attackef. if you can't protect me then I guess I'll protect you.  Together we were Gods and yet you Zesus/Hera'd me. We need to gas this connection like Dat indica I like so much. Find a place where we will find like-minded ground and come back to a place of faith.  Like Aneese sings you are my sunny day. I don't like who I am when i turn against you. I hurt my self when I'm not with you. You completely complete me and I'm not the old me anymore.

Divine Feminines Younger sibling to Divine Feminine

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Fuck It! Your tired of feeling a certain type of way? Well we are tired of you lording over us. You aren't the Queen. This is what we think about. You wont meet us where we are we won't fight you. We have nothing in common and maybe that is for the best. In a few weeks your going to see how we really feel. Who cares if you love us. You still aren't giving enough. You want a love story well we know your going to get it no matter how we interfer. Somehow you keep over coming no matter the obstacle. You are so creative. We chose to ignore those gifts and make you feel shame for enjoying what you loved because we didnt love anything but materlisim. We didnt want you to overcome. You have no idea who any of us really are except we are your oops. We can't go back and fix whats been so severly damaged and i dont think its possible to start brand new. WE would love to wipe the slate clean now that we see you arent so bad after all. You are so unique we should have celeb

Divine Masculines male elder (father, uncle, brother, grandfather ) got something to say to Divine Masculine

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What are you doing with yourself? You got a lil bit of time to fix this mess. Your children need to see you being better. Be happy your feminine is connected to source. Not many are gifted that way. I messed up and made you feel unloved and it was wrong of me to not ever really fix it. I get why when I came to you the door of communication was shut. I gave you empty promises to stay connected not any effort and i apologize. You brought delight to my life i promise. You are my joy. I admit i was spying on yours and others connected ou you page like the grandkids and their mom(s) and your friends. Some of them blocked me but enough connected to give me more insight into your life. I still see you as a baby and that isnt fair. I really want a better relationship with you. I have proved fickle in the past but no longer. I was young when you was born and did not handle it well. I was scared I would hurt you and funny enough i managed to do just that. I want to fix this I just need you t

Career

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Your job feels like a illusion. It looks great on the outside but on the inside its chaos and back bititng. You are trying to do your lifes work and you keep getting blocked. Don't worry there is co-workers or even supervisors who see the merit of your work and will be supporting you as you continue to press on. You will be blessed due to your hard work and preserverance. Your energy makes people feel like they have always known you. Those who have known you and lost connection with you are willing to do anything to get back in your life. To have the privilige of looking you in the eyes and not being shunned from your presence again. You are a blessing to all who work with you. Your presence is minimal and that causes discontent. You take people from their comfort zone and they want you to meet them in their safe space instead of making them come to you. The days of people using you are over. You might be applying other places or looking for other avenues to make finances. T

i can fix this

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I'm coming for you. I am upset because I was counting on you to come to me. I see you over there being happier. I will step back if you dont want me. I am hoping that you do not ask that, but instead ask me to join you.I can't tell which way the tide is going to go in this connection. I know the way I have behaved in the past has shown me to be untrue, but can I just say give me a chance to prove that isnt me anymore? I won't let you be hurt by my pain anymore. I underestimated your intelligence and your need for knowledge and your connection to the divine that superseceds it all. Right now I am gearing up to kiss your ass literally and figuritively to pay you back for my ill will and false behavior. I promise I wont be fake about what I want out of this connection. I am having faith that I can have trust in you. I know deep in my soul that I want you to be mine. I want to help you raise kids whether that is mine, yours or ours i just want t ablood line legacy with yo

I don't know

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I have no idea which way to go. I can't sleep. When I do see you I always feel like it's spring. Your spirit is so beautiful you had to have been here before.  I was scared to lose you and had magic used on you. I now know that from my dreams I didn't have to do that we are meant to be and I should have trusted our connection.  I know the Gods are blessing you. I am not like you. I am wicked like a Dark Fae. I know I made you feel like you had to hide parts of yourself from me. I'm so sorry love. I want to ask you what our song should be.  I know I'm trying to brush all the bad away, but it's because I am broken and I feel like I have to hide from you. I love you and I can't say it.  I'm losing you.  I don't care what anyone thinks or says I have to fight for this. Why won't you just let me love you? Why won't I let me just love you?  You are  Wonderful, empathic, intuitive, righteous, and determined. 

I'm not scared anymore...

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I'm not scared anymore. I am heading your way and I'm walking upright instead of sneaking.  I don't want to fight you anymore.  I have been putting in work, but I allowed my lust to interfere with my heart. I turned you into this warrior and I am in awe, but I am also ashamed because you shouldn't have to be so hard. I used to let anything and everything get in between us.  You are of a royal priesthood. You deserve to be with only another royal. I am taking this time to learn myself. I kept losing myself in my connections and I held on tight to my facade. I don't want to do that anymore. I won't lose myself to you or anyone else again.  My family influenced me heavily in my interactions with you. I played games with you when I should have taken you seriously. I thought with you I would lose out on growing. I thought others would lead me to my ambitions I didn't know you could teach me to reach them on my own.  I didn'

it's over...

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  " Baby its a shame we have to go thru this . We don't even talk girl we don't even kiss. I never thought we would be breaking up like this but its over now. " ~ 112 Someone is realizing that what they once percieved about you was wrong. This whole idea they had of who you were and what you stood for has been shifted dramatically. This change has got them questioning everything and now they want to hang out and ask you about all the things you have revealed. You have this way at looking at things that is not the other side of things, but is a balanced and rich manner and it brings abundance of self and knowledge. You also make it happen no matter how and you don't compromise yourself to do it.  You are light hearted and and you are always seking more in life. You bring life to the darkness and it doesnt want to leave.

sweet messages from your person

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I used to let the way other people saw you color how I saw you. I made bad choices to please those people. I admit I tried to find you in other people.  I can't sleep. I miss you so much. These feelings won't go away and I've done to realize I don't want them to.  Folks sending you negt energy hating on how much I want you and not them. I should have been treating you right from the start.  When I come to you will you turn me away?  You knew it would come to this when we was children.  How did you have that insight?  Who taught you to see what is unseen and know what is unknown? 

Time is on your side

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No more triggered relationships. No more turmoil or feelings of resentment. You have finally let go and and turning your love toward yourself.  How do you know it's over? You know it's over because you stop looking back. You stop giving more chances. You have grown and transformed.  You have made your spirit team so proud embracing that self love journey. Your happier, letting go of codependent relationships and controlling behavior.  Now it's time to spend time with friends and enjoy your single life.  Live in the moment and have some fun it's not your job to be stationary just because your joy makes them feel some kind of way.  The time is now old cycles have ended and new ones are beginning.

You need to matter to you

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  You haven’t been taking care of your self. You have been doing to much and you feel run down, defeated, outta shape and aimless. You have lost that spark that made it easy to roll outta bed and jut live life, but you failed to remember your the light and the match. You create the spark and your capable of turning it into a proper fire that will burn for ages.  The scales of life has been tallied and you are balanced. Keep on a acknowledging what your aware of ignorance and taking on things we aren’t meant to poison us and then we have to begin healing all over.  All that stagnant energy is just waiting for the outlet you provide. The strength of any gambit depends on its players and the stakes. You’re the player and the stakes are your life so be ready to wrestle lions, tigers and bears.  Everything is waiting for you to not only choose it, but to grab it with both hands. Now be mindful not all your choices are good some start of good, but will lay you by the wayside later, other’s w

Karma

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 Karma is kicking someone’s butt. It maybe the middle of the week, but it’s not almost over it still feels like it’s just beginning.  Someone hasn’t closed out a cycle and until they do they can’t come towards you. This person is younger than you. They are set you you being utilized by them next.  This person maybe receiving messages on how messed up they were thru your connection or seeing shows that show the couple going thru the exact same issues and it’s eating at them.  This person doesn’t like being walked away from nor do they like the Universe reminding them that they aren’t as good of a partner as they think they are. This person wanted you to be the bad guy the “problem” in your connection.  You might be feeling pressure to fight demons you don’t even have.  This person has been projecting on you In hopes you and anyone else doesn’t see them for who they are. This person hasn’t grown up; matter of facet they refuse to grow up because people like you will always take care of t

Awakening

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  You are balancing the masculine and feminine in you finding balance and embracing your duality. You are finding that the more you utilize both sides of you in the right situations your gifts compliment each other.  You are finding that that feeling of not enough is gone. Your not perfect that doesn’t make you not enough and that realization has soothed your soul. No longer frustrated by feeling you don’t deserve connections, lacking confidence all that self sabotage and fear vs ego fights are in the past. You are not yet the butterfly you want to be but you aren’t the caterpillar you used to be. Right now your in your chrysalis stage you are fragile , but that’s because a lot is going on within.  A whole chemical change has begun. You changed your mind set and your body is reacting to those new demands on it. Little tiny changes that have had momental  effects on your whole life in a different better way. All that out dated thinking has been tossed to the wayside.  You are remixing t

spirit message

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  The Hija of Water consists of her feelings associated with the freedom of the child. She remembers the moments when she was given cups of chamomile tea every time she was sad. She knows the remedy she needs, although she may not be able to prepare it herself. Just as the sweet aroma of chamomile will calm anxiety and flourish the soul, the child calms his soul and allows himself to be comfortable with a joyful heart. She embraces her dreams and often lets herself down in her imagination. So, the message I'm getting is you went through a lot as a child. Moments when you wanted to cry and didn't feel safe enough to do it. You probably turned to snacks as a kid and drugs and alcohol as an adult to soothe the aches that never healed. People may have even tried to give you things to attach you to them as well as push you further into addiction. I feel like now you have learned how to heal yourself. You have been making better choices to handle your pain and frustration no longer b