Heart Song The Hearts Truth

You have lodt faithin yourself. You fell for someone who used you. You thoughtthat you could fuck them out of being a hoe and a trick. They pretended to be a leader but was a predator. They cheated and flaunted it in your face. You have had to go on a self healing journey. You feel as if noone will really want you for you. Your wondering if if you pretned to be something else like its been done to you maybe yyou will finally get chosen for forever not just right now. You just want tohave that forever typ love that makes people glow whenthey talk about their person even when mad their energy just gets bigger thatkind of love can move mountains. That kind of love need no valadation it just is. You thought you finally had you happily ever after. You found out after a sti scare that wsnt the case. Instead you had some beaitifully toxic love. You thought you was toroughbut this person snuck a whole other relationship ( not a randome person ) under your nose. This person may even h

I played games. I took chances. I had options. I gambled and I've lost. I hurt myself. I hurt you. I didn't think a seperation was going to happen. I didn't think our love couldnt handle anything. I din't think it was me. I really believed all this timeit ws your fault cuz all the people around me hated you and agreed with me that it ws your fault. There was no way i was going to acknowledge loving you. Tolet people know i saw you in a different light then they did. To let them know i admired you and wanted to be just like you would have made me lose my place in there heartrs i figured. Making a healthy choice in connection wsn't as important as the right fancial choice one that would benefit the whole family. My choices were limited into who would empty their pockets and comlain the least. For a time it was you. Various reasons made you stop but while i had you you made it work out. Now you won't even talk to me. I think you have me blocked too. I don

Someone is thinking of things in the past. Rewriting their memories to be happier. Trying to rewrite the story so it has a happier ending. All you desire is to go on adventures and to stop missing out on life. Possibly feeling like happy and you were just not meant to be together. Quick connections with no substance are no longer desired. Not knowing when to say no but claiming awaeness in connectiomns is your new self talk. Declaring to yourself there is a best friend, true love, adventure partner, sweetheart, partner in crime out there just waitung fir the first steps to be taken. This person might have numerous piercings. This person when you hug then you do not like to release them. When you are with them you feel fertile. You are freeing yourself from darkness and toxicness. Your throat chakra has been blocked preventing the truth from coming out but now your free and you can find a safe place embraced by harmony to thrive in. Learning to stand alone is ha

Fuck It! Your tired of feeling a certain type of way? Well we are tired of you lording over us. You aren't the Queen. This is what we think about. You wont meet us where we are we won't fight you. We have nothing in common and maybe that is for the best. In a few weeks your going to see how we really feel. Who cares if you love us. You still aren't giving enough. You want a love story well we know your going to get it no matter how we interfer. Somehow you keep over coming no matter the obstacle. You are so creative. We chose to ignore those gifts and make you feel shame for enjoying what you loved because we didnt love anything but materlisim. We didnt want you to overcome. You have no idea who any of us really are except we are your oops. We can't go back and fix whats been so severly damaged and i dont think its possible to start brand new. WE would love to wipe the slate clean now that we see you arent so bad after all. You are so unique we should have celeb

All the things you said running thru my head has me feeling I am not enough. You deserve more than I can give emotionally, finanancially,mentally and even physically. I have been sexually unwise and I have a STD/STI( sexually transmitted demon or incubus). I am connected to too many people sexually and I do not how to release those bonds. I like having so many people wanting me. I feel loved having so many people fighting for my attention. I didn't regonize real love. I feel if you love me you will keep doing for me. When you stop you don't love me. I know you have to live your life and being up my ass isn't part of your whole day. I promise you I am not closed off. I am just scared of you seeing to much or figuring out I am a fraud. I ran away in November because its just to much emotions to handle. I thought kepping things sexual was going to protect my heart, but I just fell even harder for you. I feel if I come forward to fast you will lose sight of what you are

People have no idea how lucky they are to have you in their lives. I'm quitting the street life just to keep you in my life. You are my childhood sweetheaart and I can't imagine a world without you in it especially mine. If we have soul ties then call me bound. Everyone is so quick to shit on what we have, but they dont understand what we have I can't disrespect you like I do everyone else cuz your me thats why its so effortless to love you loving you is loving me. Lots of people break up and cant come back years later there is to much pain and and dead issues that there just isnt energy to unbury. Yet for us it comes down to action. Communicating is our strongest glue and I have learned to love it. 444. You don't beat around the bush with me and you rarely lie. Yeah you with hold a lot, but in your mind what is the point in telling me if I cant help why worry me and I want to say to you I want to learn to help.I appreciate you trying to keep the weight off my shoulde

That one connection that dragged you thru the mud is over. That situation that had you wondering about your worth and if you deserved all that had happened to you and was it your fault is over. You got away. You survived. You overcame something no one that you would walk away from. 

Someone misses you. They recount your memories like someone going thru their comic book collection.  I keep hearing that song by Areosmith and it's just the beginning of the chorus." I don't want to close my eyes I don't want to fall asleep cuz I miss you babe and I don't want to miss a thang..."  Abundance of love is all this person dreams of when it comes to you, but they feel they have nothing worthwhile to offer. Inspire of their lack this person is willing to bust their butt to bring you happiness.  This person has watched your growth as you have triumphed over situations that would have caused others to go down a dark path.  You took a leap of faith on yourself and your glowing so beautifully and they can't help but admire you in all ways.  To know that they can lift you from where you are and set you among the stars is not just a wish, but a reality they are manifesting. They want to upend your world in a good way.