Heart Song The Hearts Truth

Why are you begging for sex? Whoever you m,essed up with wants nothing to do with you one more chance will never come again. You pretended to be more then you are. You are just fluff no substance. You tried to force a spiritual connection and you arent even intuned with the message of that connection. You need to go to therapy. Yourchildhood traumas should not be the decisionmakers in your connnections. You want someone to get in the mud with you which is normal but you want to use them to get out. Whats really sad is you are confident you will succeed. You would do better with someone you could control with YOUR money instead of using anohtersmoney and thinking you are in control. This connection you are fighting so hard for... why do you want it? You keep picking other connections which indicates its not what you keep trying to say it is. I dont know if its in your head or if you was gaslighted but there us no substance. I hear you have been crying and breaking th...

The Thoth zodiac sign is an Egyptian zodiac sign associated with the god of wisdom and learning, Thoth. People born under this sign are said to be wise, energetic, romantic, and courageous.  Dates: April 1–19 and November 8–17.  Associated traits: wise, energetic, romantic, courageous, inventive, enjoy learning, and excellent problem solvers. Associated symbols: ibis, baboon, scales, papyrus role, stylus, crescent moons, and pens. Thoth, the Egyptian god of wisdom and learning. Virgo, the sign ruled by the Moon and Mercury Life is leveling out and truth be told its not how I thought it would turn out. I thought my secrets was safe. I thought the people in my connections were to oblivious to notice each other let alone what I was up to. Someone gave them a cheat sheet and now they got me clocked. On top of having me clocked they are turning it around on me. They got they hands out and attitudes soaring. They still haven't figured out me close to the vest secrets, ...

You keep on rising out of the ashes of your life as others try to burn you at the stake of their own egos and ignorance. You have rekindled growth within and that changed mindset is propelling you to new summits in life.You longer are codependant. You are a bad ass who recognizes that somethimes if it is meant to be it will be. You won't stalk, lurk, gaslight,or catfish to get others to bend to your will. You have been conditioned to think like the status quo and that is not what you are meant to do or meant to be. You don't have to make a er your identity or a brand. You have seen that it can all be you and still not even be a large portion of who you are. You have inner beauty that shines in a aura that all are attracted to. I see you and that is why I see its time to speak up and tell you everything. I want a union with you. However you deem that to work I am ready to do it. I don't see it as necessary to tell anyone or even include them at this ti...

Someone used to just want your steak and eggs but now they see you are more then just a one dish type person. You are a buffet and they regret missing out on all you have. You had people (this person included) in your life that wanted to waste your life, energy and talents. You seperated quickly and cleanly from connections that meant little in the grand scheme of things. Did it hurt? Of course it hurt! Do you want to go back? Occasionally but your human who doesn't miss companionsip even if it was toxic alot. Escaping the pattern hurt a lot, but the new one you are weaving will not bind or tear at a persons soul. NO, blame from the past will be added to your new pattern healed strands and new lessons and blessings will be the thread and stitches of the future for you. Noone is going to be able to force you to stay in a connection with them. Lost or not they are not your responsiblity. You was not put on this Earth to be their personal God always solving issues ...

Bes was a minor Egyptian god who was the protector of children, pregnant women, and mothers. He was also associated with music, fertility, and war. Bes was often depicted as a short, muscular man with a large belly, a lion's tail and mane, and a cat-like nose and ears. He was thought to drive away evil spirits with his unruly beard, lion's mask, loud instruments, and wild dancing. Bes is a dwarf-like being with long arms. He is sometimes shown naked, and sometimes wearing a kilt or leonine skin and a feathered crown. Bes is known for his protective nature, and in some myths, he is associated with Horus, the falcon-headed god of kingship and the sky.   Big D energy coming thru load and clear. We gonna fix this and we gonna be a family!!! I don't know who you dealing with but they want you to know they want to get the right note with you and create a life that is the most beautifuly symphony. You are over arguements, you are over being held responsible for t...

The passage of time seems bleak. Where did all the years ago? What do I have now? I didn't hold my boundaries I wanted all the wrong things. Now I'm crying and I can't think straight. Right now all I can depend on is divine timing. I have been stalking trying to see if my manifestations have hit your life and caused trouble. I am even calling over and over trying to make someone spazz. I thought I had more time to put my plans into place. I feel so empty. I wanted to show someone who didnt want me; my all and it was rebuffed. I risked a lot for that want. I refused to accept that what I wanted was wrong for my chosen love. I thought my love would heal any rough parts in them yet, I neglected the rough parts in me. I refused to acknowledge the boundaries I saw before me becuase I deserve to have one thing I want. I tried to be the perfect partner. I tried to be who they wanted even if I got lost in the personnas. Now I am sitting back and trying to see wh...

You are walking away from this toxic family memeber, maybe even the whole family. Who needs enemies with fake ass fam like these folks? You gave them so many chances to prove they truly was as loving and as supportive as they protrayed to insignifcant people instead of to those who loved them. So if they couldn't speak life into you before it was even needed then why should you resurrect theirs becuase without YOUR energy theirs was bound to falter anyhow and you knew it. Yes there was many who tried to make you feel as if you was behaving like them, but that never was a consistent energy. You struggled to find the energy to fight becuase it was always a group against you and yet you failed to see it took many of them to overcome you. People made deals and gambled on tking you to the brink and you offing your self. For some reason they really thought you was that weak when you have held them up in deeper circumstnaces and did not fallow. I guess they have selec...

You are looking for a teacher. You feel lost and you feel someone might just be the angel to save you. Whoever you are looking at impresses you. You see them as loving and caring. You want to confide in them about the pain you have gone thru. You also want to know what's coming next in life and you think this Angel might have the answers. The way they are you dont get how anyone could not love them. They should be more well known because they should be heard. This person saved you whether they know it or not. You want to sit with them pick their brain and enjoy their presence. You know they are touched by the divine. You know that those come against them are destined to fall. Their presence is felt even from the distance. You just want to be closer to see how powerful it really is. Please realize this person is human too. They wont stay on your pedastal they walk among us truly living this experience. Whatever you are going through death will never be an answer....

You are hiding. You are going in straight hermit mode. You no longer are available to just anyone.You are lockinng for someone to be vulnerable with. You wan someone who gets you like noone else. You knw that with the right connection you can experience bliss. You also are aware that no connection is perfect and any connection needs work. You want to be the one your partner turns to no matter what. You want someone who is clean is every way especially phyiscally. No more connections that hold you back. No more connnections that you have to walk away from because they are so toxic. No more waiting for people to change. You are doing everything you can to put your best foot forward. You are learning to tust your intuition. Noone is about to be able to bite this new erison of you. You aren't looking for a role model becuase you are about to become one. The lessons you haven't learned are not for you t wrry over the ones you have learned from are all your expe...

The hour of the snake is 9:00 to 11:00 a.m., the time when the  Sun  warms up the Earth, and snakes are said to slither out of their holes. The month of the snake is the 4th month of the Chinese lunar calendar and it usually falls within the months of May through June depending on the Chinese to Gregorian calendar conversion.  I keep hearing this old church song... Trouble don't last always and it doesn't even the most miserable person can have a glimmer moment. You may have been experiencing a troublesome time but it is about to change. You are about to experience more joy and happiness the you anticipated. You will meet others who will not be glad for you although you have done nothing to incite their wrath they are prepared to project your way all the negativity they can musteer. You having new connections is the last thing anyone wants for you and you can't keep living in the world they think they run. You are just feeding their delusions of gran...

Im looking to the sky because like Tupac said, "Everything is going to be all right." Right now it feels like you are o a uphill battle and there is interference. I have been fighting for love do you know that. Specifically I am fighting for your love. I always knew a great love was out there for me. I had hopes it was you but you choose to remain stagnant and you are starting to rot in your stubbornness. You are out here behaving like a depraved leader. You took my breath away i thought you was the eye in the storm. My mistake you was the fulcrum to all the drama. I'm leaving. I wanted to smoke and pick your brain but i don't want really anything to do with you anymore your blind to your habits. I am tired of being in a groundhog day situation with you same shit all the time. You dont even fuck up in new ways. You act like you don't get it you aren't in charge. You are a beacon of darkness, lies and emotional abuse offering me up like im a nag a chips f...

You are my heart. I still worry about you even with circumstances as they are. I use to rub your back when we woul have serious convos. I thought i would have more time with you. I have been trying to connect with you but you wont sit still long enough to hear me. You want to feel more love just sit still im right with you. Anytime you need to talk I am still here. I won't judge you or interrupt. I won't ask intrusive questions. I want you to accept your soul famuly because they will echo the love I have for you. I know there was times in the past where you needed a break from me well no pressure now lol. You may not be feeling seen right now but please be reassured you are seen and cherished. Noone is talking negatively or bringing up up all your bad deeds waiting to pounce. You have Shea butter baby vibes and im so happy that you feel that energy deep inside. Do not be surprised if your next child reminds you of me. When it rains think of me. Im sorry love c...

Normally I am the hunter prepared for any type of prey. Usually I come after people becuase of what they have. I set my eyes on them and i always hit my shot. Yet, lately I just want to make my own. I want to be able to say I did it myself. I want to know that you know that means my money will be slower. I want to evolve and in my present circumstances I don't see the possiblity of healing. I spent a lot of time chasing our connection. I was so codependant terrified that if I didnt fix our connection there would be no connection to have. I knew i couldnt turn to my friends to find solace. Living in the moment wasnt going to save me when i was drowning in our connection. I needed time to be my best self and i allowed societies pressures to dictate how i made that happened. Progress was more important than growth and refuse to embrace the idea that the paradigm of our connection was always wrong. The lack of healthy choices in our connection trickled to other conne...

Someone isn't as fragile as you first thought. You thought because they was beautiful/ handsome they would be easy to take down but its been years and they still are around. You have tarninshed their reputation and decalred to anyone who would listen that this person was for the streets in everyway you could imagine. You talked about them so badly Only Fans and prostitutes alike felt the right to judge them. All because this person had the IT factor from a young age. You even leaned on this person used their wisdom to better your life and you was never apprective nor gave them credit to others. Now it seems like you need this persons help but you have burned every bridge that might have gotten you to them. Your stank behaviour has been your undoing. Instead of seeing this person as a blessing in your life you viewed them as a destructive force then went out of your way to prove this accusation. ONly for it all to be rpven to be lies. From their hair, to their body to ...

Something came in a flash and is leaving just as fast. You thought you had the game sewed up and you came to learn there is way mor to it. You didn't gain what you sought. You have lost the will to continue the fight you began so eagerly. Now is time to sit back and reap what you sewed there is no changing it now. You are going to be tossed better then a italian salad in a Nona's kitchen. Spirit is going to take their time. All that moon magic has a price. You looked to the skies and tried to ignore the star. Their is no solace for your choice. You felt you was the better choice. You didnt know enough. You could have had a ally. You thought you was stronger. You got fycked. Drinking is not going to help. Can you over come the storm heading your way no... but you can pick up he pieces afterward if you choose to. You aren't hearing any messages because you stopped listening like Saul and let envy enter your heart. If you only wanted to make a difference the...

This person feels no worries when they are with you. This person may have been your enemy in the past, but now they want to prove themselves to you. They have recognized that with you they can find healing. They fear looking you in the eyes you might catch the lies still floating in there. This person is aware you may never fully trust them, but that doesnt change that they want to be apart of your life. This person is looking for signs and syncronicity to come and make your life better. This person chooses to redeem themselves by being a true friend to you. This person is ok with not being in your life if that is your choice. They will not persue you if honoring your boundaries is all they can do then that is how they will honor you. Your friendship would be the icing on the cake, but this person is truly turning over a new leaf. So the change up will be apparent in all aspects of their lives. They dont have 100 percent confidence just yet but they are growing. This friend wil...

I have such high expectations of you and its not fair because it doesnt allow you to trulybe yourself. Yet i expect you to be perfect and noone can be that way. I want tobe there for you and I really dont know how to do that. I want to cater to you but instead i attack and undermine. Its like I am posessed everytime I deal with you and the worst parts of me come out and then I have to act like I meant to do all that cuzotherwise Im crazy for apologizing for being a dick all the time, Right now I'm a dummy I want to marry you and I am the worst. I keep pushing you away when all I want to do is pull you close. You are my comfort and understanding & I want to protect you and yet I am your worst enemy. I keep lying to you just to keep you close even though I know you would definitly be better off with out me. I know we knew each other in a past life and I know it indicates we had a chance for a connection now, but with my behavior I ruined things and I dont see us connectiing ...

You need to speak with your chest. If you want to propose you have to talk to the person you want to marry. Standing in the shadows just watching them solves what?? Stop trying to create situations and just pick up the phone and call. Someone is dealing with the law and that is one reason why they havent called. They are expereriencing Karma left and right. They dont want to bring that around you. Once all that is handled they want to come your way and ask you if they can play for keeps. This person can be in their late 30s or early 40s. They are very creative. They look innocent but can hwip some ass. They also are actually as nice as they come across. This person isn't coming to you in Ares/Athena energy this person is going to be your Hephaestus/Hestia some who knows the value of home, love, and loyalty. Its time for a romantic level up. I know that sounds kind of arogant, but it is the truth as you level up you need a partner who not only matches your fly but matches ...

I can't seem to make anything happen. I have been seeking peace and its hiding from me. I can't text you because I won't find the answers I require. I need to see you in person. I need to have physical connection with you. I am aware there are others out there who crave your energy as well. I know I could have had you but i wasn't authentic in my desires and actions. I moved to soon and assumed you would beg to make me happy. I didn't realize I was ugly in my actions and persona. The Gods above see my behavior and cursed me for it. Your ancestors has razed my mind and heart all that left is guilt. I have been able to dream and talk to you but the convo never goes how I want. Even in my dreams you are cursing me out. I'm thinking of calling you and asking you to pull my cards. Trust me I'm prepared to kiss your ass to get some help. I know full well that I can't wear a mask around you. I just don't know who the real me is so there might not be a...

  " Baby its a shame we have to go thru this . We don't even talk girl we don't even kiss. I never thought we would be breaking up like this but its over now. " ~ 112 Someone is realizing that what they once percieved about you was wrong. This whole idea they had of who you were and what you stood for has been shifted dramatically. This change has got them questioning everything and now they want to hang out and ask you about all the things you have revealed. You have this way at looking at things that is not the other side of things, but is a balanced and rich manner and it brings abundance of self and knowledge. You also make it happen no matter how and you don't compromise yourself to do it.  You are light hearted and and you are always seking more in life. You bring life to the darkness and it doesnt want to leave.