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Why are you begging for sex? Whoever you m,essed up with wants nothing to do with you one more chance will never come again. You pretended to be more then you are. You are just fluff no substance. You tried to force a spiritual connection and you arent even intuned with the message of that connection. You need to go to therapy. Yourchildhood traumas should not be the decisionmakers in your connnections. You want someone to get in the mud with you which is normal but you want to use them to get out. Whats really sad is you are confident you will succeed. You would do better with someone you could control with YOUR money instead of using anohtersmoney and thinking you are in control. This connection you are fighting so hard for... why do you want it? You keep picking other connections which indicates its not what you keep trying to say it is. I dont know if its in your head or if you was gaslighted but there us no substance. I hear you have been crying and breaking th...