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Sagittarius

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Karma is coming good and bad. You knew it was heading your way. You didn't care if certain individuals was happy if they couldn't attribute that happiness to you. You move so uniquely few suspected. Your health is poor right now. Your trying to stick your fingers in your ears to ignore what is happening, but its to persitant. You know exactly how its gonna go. You don't want to think about how you lost the postion you held so tightly onto. You are actually really smart you always adapted and it allowed you to win alot, but unfourunately this one the big one you lost. You have been living in your lower energy for to long. You don't feel wonderful, empathetic, inuitive, righteous or determined and I'm sorry do some shadow work and heal. Healing leads to so many lovely new things. You don't have to be numb anymore. You can have a open heart not a sensitive heart. Kindness wont leave you looking stupid. Kindness begats kindness. I would say reach out but yo

You are leading me towards eternal loneliness for the cost of love

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Sometimes you need to be careful what you wish for because felonious behaviour is on the rise. Someone wants that Romeo & Juliet love, but they seemed to forget Romeo was a fuck boy who literally was whining about Roslyn minutes before meeting Juliet. Fickle. No, I am not saying anything about love at first sight cuz I do believe in it but the whole point of the play was to teach about rushing into things and that is what you are being warned about. You wont be the Queen/King to a Karmic. This person is watching you.They know they have hurt you. You might be posting on a platform about it or maybe they just know. They are giving you the space to walk away or stay. Their throat chakra blocked jealousy, overly defensive, codependant, reclusive, you talk to much, tell lies, gossip, secretive, and shy. You need to get a amulet or ring or bracelet something you will never remove. Bless it and put it on. This person really wants to reconcile. They know that there is a

1,2,3...

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I keep hearing one, two, three, the devils after me... You already know how to defend yourself so your not worried about attacks from behind. You are so much more focused on the future and enjoying life. So much lost has already occured. Not just the things you cherished, but it seems to all just fall to the wayside. You are avoiding connections that lead you into compromising yourself. You have a path you want to be on and noone is going to discourage you. You have some connections coming your way that will be your suppoort and your encouragement. Do not think that these connetions aren't protected. These people have been sent towards you as gifts from the divine. All the obstacles that used to be barriers to your movement are falling to the wayside. Money, career, family, friends, whatever the hump you have to get over is literally dissappering like its never been a issue. Money is comijng in , family is healing, friends are supporting your world is changing f

Is it going to happen how i want it to???

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Yes! Karma is passing out rewards to you and all debt is paid. You was demoted by those in the 3d so Spirit exhaluted you in the 5d. All that humuliation happened for a reason. The days of finding solace in a bottle is over. You have found the delights in life are worth working for and you no longer are afraid to stand out. You have taken all the pieces of your life and sewed them up into a masterpiece. You are enjoying the fruits of your labor and you are learning that some of the joy is in the surprise. NO addiction is hoing to keep you bound!

A convo with Pop pop

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Always ask for the truth. Never date friends, If there is confusion walk away. Always have a back up plan. Do not allow somone to stop your shine. Accept praise it is not vanity. Do not feel alone you always have me. Allow me to help you step up to your highest self. You may not be the first doing something but I have faith you can be the best. Its time for you to love yourself more. Its ok to heal hurts you thought was already healed. Sometimes to reconnect withyourself and nature. You can change your ways. You will have people flocking to follow your lead. You are not only good to look at you are intelligent I am so proud of you. I mis hugging you too. I am still learning lessons even where I am but you being happy makes me joyful. I love knowing you are growing into such a wonderful person. Don't keep secrets they will be your downfall. Be your own standard. No more crying because of others. I wasn't planning on leaving as soon as I did but you m

I'm in lust with a stripper

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I got mad at you for being on this little self love journey. I prefered when your only foucus was the sexual journey with me. I figured this would make you shut up. This would make you go back to the simp you used to be. I hate the waythey smell. I hate they don t really like being touched. I hate they are always trying to fight with me over nothing. I hate that they are only this way because of how they feel about me. I know you don't care abut my dilenmea As far as you are concered they can keep me. You are so above this situation now. It doesnt hurt you shoot you barely think of me. I can feel your intrest and your love fading away but im trapped i dont know how to get to you without causing drama that you refuse to be apart of but is bound to happen cuz i made a mess of things like usual. I truly want this connection with you. You make me feel young. Whatever fountain of youth you go to i want to go to as well. What do i have to do for you to forgive me

What Family got to say

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We lied on you. We told your lovers and friends any and all negative things possible. From calling you for the streets to accusing you of being on drugs or an alcholic. We wanted the world to see us as your Savior. We wanted everyone to disregard how awesome you are and blessed you make us. Your knowledge and gifts were for us to hoard. If you had a blessing it was ours as well. Leaving you out made you work harder for our attention and love. We need you to let us back in your life. Like a crack head feenin for his next hit we crave you. Who is going to educate us. Who is going to give us free everything? You didn't even to learn things you just decided that is what you wanted to do and then did it. We hated it when you was happy. You look prettier, your energy is addictive and you thrive. You have walked away and you are so powerful that we know better to come at you disrepectully anymore. Your intution protects you from us. We did a lot of thing beind your back and had no sh

Love message

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edit  Not everything has a happy ending but I hope that for us there is one. I would love to rekindle our connection and show you geniune affection. You and i don't even need friends we are each others favorite person and I want to talk to you and you alone for ever. I love to hang withyou. Fun never has to end when we are together. All the walls that need to come down in our connectin will becuase we will take them down together. Together we can see every side of a situation. We are great as indiviuals, but we are an awesome dynamic. Togther we find balance. I will admit I've been stalking and I used to gaslight you. I never made you a priority and left you feeling incomplete. I will come to you on a less lustful tone. No more 3rd parties I promise. The wreck my life is because of my wandering eye and lack of self preservation. I didnt value myself so when others didn't I just brushed it off. I also had addictions to fill the holes that was in my soul. I was code

I'm working on me I promise.

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I need a partner not a liablity. I think you are perfect for me please. I have abandonment issues and I know that can be irritating in the long term of dealing with someone but its not all crying internally I promise. In the next little while you will see some changes and I hope that you aill accept the change. I know that I will have to kiss your ass but I'm not overthinking it. I see the innocence in your heart and i want to protect that at all costs. I want to pray more about us but I don't know what to say or who to even talk to. Do you pray for us? Do you pray that our love changes from the toxic pit that it is right now? I want you to feel safe and i know that i actually make youfeellike there is pie on your face. I apologize that i keep acting up. I dont want a superficial life with you and right now thats all we could have because I am scared to dig deep. I want to be with you so bad. I don't want nor need more lessons in love they hurt especially the ones I

The game has shut down...sorry

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I love the love you give me. I have a habit of overthinking when it comes to you. I dont want any beef with you I just kinda want to push you into making a choice any choice but honestly your silience is a answer too. I question on if we can even have a future its like we get 2wks amx and then shit goes wonky. I'm tired of putting on a brave face I miss you. My soul feels weak without you . I want to curl up in your arms feel your kisses and warm embrace. I dont like being stressed. I want forever and i want it with you . Why wont you actually listen to me insteads everyone around you telling you what I want? Are they in the relationship with me? Do i even talk to them about real stuff? Like how can surface level people understand something soul deep without being jealous and hating? They was never on your side or understood what you was talking bout, but the look in your eyes was enough to be like "oh word?? You arent allowed to have what i never experienced" and its n

I'm not scared anymore...

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I'm not scared anymore. I am heading your way and I'm walking upright instead of sneaking.  I don't want to fight you anymore.  I have been putting in work, but I allowed my lust to interfere with my heart. I turned you into this warrior and I am in awe, but I am also ashamed because you shouldn't have to be so hard. I used to let anything and everything get in between us.  You are of a royal priesthood. You deserve to be with only another royal. I am taking this time to learn myself. I kept losing myself in my connections and I held on tight to my facade. I don't want to do that anymore. I won't lose myself to you or anyone else again.  My family influenced me heavily in my interactions with you. I played games with you when I should have taken you seriously. I thought with you I would lose out on growing. I thought others would lead me to my ambitions I didn't know you could teach me to reach them on my own.  I didn'

I got you on my mind

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Someone gets your libido pumping. They have you throbbing and pining. Do they even know? Do they have any idea how you feel when they are away?  Your chemistry is insane in and out the room you KNOW each other in a way few can claim except in stories or movies. How many people can say they like, love, and desire their partner after months, years, or decades?  How many can keep having their first kiss?  You used to savor your connection it brought you solace and peace now you view it as a chain weighing you down. Where this connection used to make you feel like you could soar you have lost that and in you losing that they feel they have lost you.  Whether they tell you or not they can feel you. They call out to you in their soul and hear you respond.  They want to finally explore your bond and elevate your connection if you will find it in yourself to forgive them. They want marriage and grandbabies and flowers and long walks on the beach or woods it won't ma

Love is blind

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I’m hearing lovers and friends. “Tell me again that we’ll be lovers and friends “ so your hearing trust and believe and it’s very hard for you to trust or believe in the situation you find yourself facing. You have been looking for signs to make sure you are in the right path. You are a light bringer and you are bringing life to a part of yourself and those you’re connecting with are being influenced by example.  Your wisdom should be on shirts you have so many clever ways to explain life. You may feel like people are taking your advice and running. They are not appreciative and it hurts. You are protected from their jealousy and envy.  You need to be very careful right now you are blind to something that you already have all the information for. Until you acknowledge what you are ignoring your confidence will wilt, joy will be hard to find, your enthusiasm for the things in life that brought you happy will be missing, Your creativity will be blocked, balance in all areas of life will

Pure Cocoa??? Interesting

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  So, you are creating  a safe place to do some miracles. Ask for help from heaven. The art of pragmatic magic and the displacement between worlds is some heavy things to think on. You have been honoring the ancients. Learning to build the foundation that will sustain your activities so that you can create the life you want.  You have learned that everything around you can become your teacher. You let the world around you to show her the way. You approach learning with the innocence of a child. You can explore familiar things with the curiosity of an apprentice. You have put your emotions aside and have been communicating your observations and questions clearly. The secrets of the gods can be found by all individuals. Learn from them. Spread them. Drinking some pure cocoa is an ancient training method for deeper awareness by opening the heart. Commercial chocolates have harmful ingredients. Only pure cocoa can clear the capillaries and increase blood circulation. The teaching of the he

Family message

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 Brother- There is a brother out there who lives for money. They only see things in view of its value. They live a fairly empty life even though they may have a lot. They don’t feel like they have enough even though Spirit says they are abundant.  They don’t understand what abundance means. To them they need money, things, but the real abundance they seek is love, security in the home, and family connections.  They keep looking outward when they already have the answers within. They are trying to mend wounds they just realized they had.  This brother really wants to grow with you, but they have no idea how to stay in a healthy place with you. They see you as a whole different world that needs to be understood.  That isn’t their job they don’t get that they are overstepping. They feel like you are sending disses their way not seeing the broader picture of whatever method you using to heal. 

You are walking away...

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 Ashanti~ Over "Can't believe that its over baby, every bruise my heart you gave me. See we tried and we cried and its over babe." You want freedom, exploration, travel, and change. You need to pay attention to your intuition and inner wisdom as you connect with your angels. Continue on you path as you drive and determination will lead to success and fulfilment. Your progress, achievement, abundance, and success. You are dealing in Universal and Karmic laws of cause and effect. Its time to look at you chakras from your solar~plexus down to your Root chakra because they  need a hard look at, because they are in charge of your passion and you are not feeling anything at all. Whatever it is you want back is in the past and it needs to say there. If you are lacking direction, your self love is diminished, your questioning where you are in the world. You gotta find that spark. Passion is crucial for co-creation, creativity freedom and choice.  Spirit Message: I'm selfish~