Heart Song The Hearts Truth

Its been time to induce soe trasformation in your life. Why you would keep putting it off is beyond me. You keep blocking out the noise and the people who are the cause. If it isn't about peace or money it isn't worth expending your energy. You have determined within yourself to not kowtow to others expectations and to find within yourself your truth. You have become your own angel. You chose your own lane and you found security and stableness. Now its time to teach others what you have learned and came across during your journey thru life. You have stories to tell start telling them. You have that speacial something that others have and it pushes them toward the spot light. I didn't say you wanted it I said its in you. You have spent so long trying to hide that light, ignoring when there was a dazzle in certain peoples facces. You had connections that were all quid pro quo and you never took more or complained when you got less.. Well the time for that crap is ov...

You might be constipated or maybe you are just acting shitty. You definitely got folks lusting after you. You have decided its in God's hands and you just aren't engaging. You especially have pulled back from connections by proxy you know his mom, her sister, their cousin... you have been getting bad vibes and moving accordingly. You have established that if your people don't have your backs they are the enemy. You have made your boundaries so clear that folks want to fight you and others to get to you. You have endured to much sabotage in your life. You don't have to take risk to just thrive. You have options it is time to start utlizing them. You are no longer in this paradigm of over giving to someone comfortable with only taking. You have found happiness and have grown and in that growing you have found joy. You are enjoying your new connections and striving to be the bright light you have always wanted to be. You are attracting blessings and ab...

Family ain't shit sometimes and sometimes you are the ain't shit person. You have been lying, cheating, deceiving and it is going to cause a lot of heart break.  Someone you thought was loving and kind has shown you their true colors and you cannot unsee it. They tried to turn you against someone who never meant you any harm. They wanted you stick to their side and fight their fights.  This person tried to keep their foot on your kneck with guilt. You really thought you knew them and you are pissed because you see you was lied to.  Who ever you kept your eyes on has proven time and time again to not give up. You tried to post them and learnt they wasn't the one nor the two. You tried to paint them as demon and your false halo fell off.  Now you are sitting there listening to music trying to drown out he voices in your head. Your root chakra is blocked. You have been negative, cynical, possibly not eating, bouts of greed and you are definitely insecure....

Fast life isn't the only speed. Taking your time is how you make history. Rushing it will only lead to disaster. When you are right in front of the things that matter you miss because you are looking too far ahead. You are missing alignment and that is why every thing feels dull. Sometimes it takes taking care of your outside to notice the inside needs work as well. That is not a bad thing. Work on healing. Do not look out ward for the ok. Its in you. When you mess up you ae given an oppurtunity to look back and make better choices. Regret is par for the course stop beaating yourself up and do something different. No one should have to protect themselves from your pain or insecurities. Yes, you owe people apologies and some connections you just need to release. You burnt the bridge and there is no going back. You are just going to have to watch them flourish from afar. Your fear of showing the real you maybe justified but shutting people out is how their perspective of you...

Ypu coming out as tough and deired by those who know how to appreciate a good person. You doubted your own presence, your place in this world and its time to remember. You are a leader. There will be many who copy but they will never be able to compare. You see folks and have see who needs to be in your camp and who needs to get the fuck on. You don't have time to be played with. Can't nobody come back trying to kiss your ass. You are not going to miss out cuz of some lust. You are creating a new reality. There will be many crying as you move on. You are not just a piece of meat its time to see yourself as abundance personnafied. You are more then your suface level apperance. They gonna be calling begging you for one more chance. You will respond to some and thats ok you're under construction still changing up the game. Your change up though these people won't be able to hanfle becuase they wont be able to be apart of your 'glow up'. The...

You are finally going to recieve what you need. No longer will you live in want. You are moving up in finace and learning when to have closure. You are finally looking out for your intrests. You are not looking at options you have your nose to the grindstone. Jut minding your business is helping you to elevate in a way being nosey was never going to. You might be about to run into a soulmate. Not necessalriy a love connect but definitely a heat connect. You will have a partnership of sometype that will put you in that King or Queen of Pentacles energy. This new energy you will be operating in will not leave you lacking affection. You have discrenment now and you an tell the real from the fake. No more facades in this piece. Either they show who they are from the beggining or they can kick rocks. You have no time , space or energy for stagated energies encased in a felsh suit. You have learned from many a situation that love is not all that matters. Love being unco...

Sitting back thinking about the past and how you could have avoided some of this karma. You didn't have to tbe in this postion. You didnt have to do all those things, cause all those scenes... Your mask is slipping and you can no longer hide how rotten you have become. You will no longer be able to lie, cheat, or steal. Every attempt to gain will be made plain to any victim you target. The pain you are experiencing is due to your actions. There is consequences for everything and and payment is due. You can't stalk or gaslight your way to a better path. Financial pitfalls, emotional ruin and menatal exhaustion (altimizers?) its all your just due. You earned all you have reaped. You was ungrounded and that led to failure, laziness, and chaos. All you want is love, but all you give is selfishness. You desire affection and yet you give babrberous behavior. Its time for it to end. One way or the other Spirit says its stops now. Death and taxes are inevitable I h...

Karma is coming good and bad. You knew it was heading your way. You didn't care if certain individuals was happy if they couldn't attribute that happiness to you. You move so uniquely few suspected. Your health is poor right now. Your trying to stick your fingers in your ears to ignore what is happening, but its to persitant. You know exactly how its gonna go. You don't want to think about how you lost the postion you held so tightly onto. You are actually really smart you always adapted and it allowed you to win alot, but unfourunately this one the big one you lost. You have been living in your lower energy for to long. You don't feel wonderful, empathetic, inuitive, righteous or determined and I'm sorry do some shadow work and heal. Healing leads to so many lovely new things. You don't have to be numb anymore. You can have a open heart not a sensitive heart. Kindness wont leave you looking stupid. Kindness begats kindness. I would say reach out but yo...

I keep hearing one, two, three, the devils after me... You already know how to defend yourself so your not worried about attacks from behind. You are so much more focused on the future and enjoying life. So much lost has already occured. Not just the things you cherished, but it seems to all just fall to the wayside. You are avoiding connections that lead you into compromising yourself. You have a path you want to be on and noone is going to discourage you. You have some connections coming your way that will be your suppoort and your encouragement. Do not think that these connetions aren't protected. These people have been sent towards you as gifts from the divine. All the obstacles that used to be barriers to your movement are falling to the wayside. Money, career, family, friends, whatever the hump you have to get over is literally dissappering like its never been a issue. Money is comijng in , family is healing, friends are supporting your world is changing f...

You are getting a taste of your own medicine. This is a lesson and once you learn it the happiness you sought will be just around the corner. Accepting your truth so it can no longer be weaponized against you. Do not let your past addictions keep you shackled to this situation. Go to where you can find peace and regroup if you need to, but its time to face this situation head on so you canfinally be happy. You have declared if they can't let you be happy they need to leave you alone. You know you cannot do the healing you need alone but you sure as hell can't do it in a unsafe enviroment. You need T.L.C. You want reasssurance that you are loed and wanted. Not lusted, not seen as a finacial advantaged just wanted. You want to be seen for the assest you truly are not as a burden. You want to learn your talents and you want the space to foster them to see if you can make something great and yours out of them. This isn't something you want in the future you want this now...

Your money is in a few pots but you are making it wor for you. Having many hats is why you make the big bucks. You are lonely and crave your soulmate. You have returned to sender all the low vibe energy trying to be sent your way. You are learning to bend when its needed. You want to closer to each other. They are sorry they keep hurting you. Noone else makes them feel so vulnerable. They are doing their best to be better for you by being better for themselves. No more lying. No more drama. They choose you thats why they are still around, but they have learned to choose themselves first. The past has taught lessons that have freed them where it used to shackle them. They miss looking into your eyes. Everytime you walk away they have to acknowledge they could just eat you up. They are trying to be slick and hold on to you. They like it when you dominate them. They like it you are a switch. They wish they could swoop you up. You are the reason for transformation in thei...

Someone is waiting for money to come in. A promotion was supposed to be heading your way and there has been some interferance. You may be looking at job sites preparing for moving to a better oppurtunity. There was to much drama at your workplace and you are just trying to work. You are teachiing folks, showing them new ways and folks are reaching out to you and desiring more from you. You may be under attack having suicidal thouhgt out of nowhere. Do not fret they are not your thoughts and emotions it is projection from foks who do not want to see you win. You know that you aren't perfect and aren't trying to be anyhing more than who you are. The people upset with you for healing they wanted you to dry in your tears. You make history just showing up. Your life has been shaped by ptsd and yet your still loving and kind. You have severed ties that were attempting to blow up your spot. What you have going is so beautiful and you make people think of you. People want to be in...

edit  Not everything has a happy ending but I hope that for us there is one. I would love to rekindle our connection and show you geniune affection. You and i don't even need friends we are each others favorite person and I want to talk to you and you alone for ever. I love to hang withyou. Fun never has to end when we are together. All the walls that need to come down in our connectin will becuase we will take them down together. Together we can see every side of a situation. We are great as indiviuals, but we are an awesome dynamic. Togther we find balance. I will admit I've been stalking and I used to gaslight you. I never made you a priority and left you feeling incomplete. I will come to you on a less lustful tone. No more 3rd parties I promise. The wreck my life is because of my wandering eye and lack of self preservation. I didnt value myself so when others didn't I just brushed it off. I also had addictions to fill the holes that was in my soul. I was code...

I have such high expectations of you and its not fair because it doesnt allow you to trulybe yourself. Yet i expect you to be perfect and noone can be that way. I want tobe there for you and I really dont know how to do that. I want to cater to you but instead i attack and undermine. Its like I am posessed everytime I deal with you and the worst parts of me come out and then I have to act like I meant to do all that cuzotherwise Im crazy for apologizing for being a dick all the time, Right now I'm a dummy I want to marry you and I am the worst. I keep pushing you away when all I want to do is pull you close. You are my comfort and understanding & I want to protect you and yet I am your worst enemy. I keep lying to you just to keep you close even though I know you would definitly be better off with out me. I know we knew each other in a past life and I know it indicates we had a chance for a connection now, but with my behavior I ruined things and I dont see us connectiing ...

You are free to move on just dont come back. I dont think we are over, but if thats how you feel so be it. I can't tolerate a controlling, obsessive person with a lack of direction and who is fucking aggresive. Who do I look like being abused becuase you cant get contol of your solar plexus? You are learning not to be a hater, but bro that envy is loud and wrong. I'm your partner not your competion. I'm looking to fall in loved damn near everyday with my ace. With you I feel like I'm growing and then stagnancy. I fear you might leave me though, but I am working on that its a me thing not a you thing my fear of abandonment is trauma. You have been the fulcrum to the next stage in my life. I want to be your butterfly. I want to go within and change for the better. I know your leaving me though. I never imagined it would go like this. I never prepared for this. I acted like a child with no home training. I deserve so much bad in my life especially from you. If you let...

Promises was all you gave me. I didn't check to see if anything you said held wait. I placed my faith in you and allowed myself to begin to fall in love but I didn't feel safe. You did't let me feel ok caring about you. It took some time but i figured out you had another motive. As I look at the future I fail to see you in it. I'm not going to fight you. I honestly have other things on my mind. I wish you would choose a life that i could fully be apart of all the time. Any magic you have been playing with to have me tied to you has been returned 10 fold. You wanted me to ride your toxic wave. You wanted me craving you at the cost of the peace of my mind. You wanted me to create a home for you in my heart. For what? Why should I provide a space for someoone whom doesnt appreciate their special space? Why should i be a safe space for a unsafe person? I admit them kisses is what got me in the first place, but we aren't in no kind of kissing status. I just can'...

Someone tried to keep something hiddden.They felt the world was spinning just for them. Right now there is fighting as truths come out. Nothing is going their way. When every thing was always a win now there is offense and defense at all times. The emotions are running high, but a truth is coming . This truth brings so much abundance to you and noone can stop what is coming. You are thinking for yourself and nothing or noone is going to hinder that. Your health is getting better or you are getting over a cold. For some of you healing from a std scare has thrown you for a whirl. You arent in this world so figuring out the humans is just a lot sometimes especially cheating partners. Just keep healing and keep on forgiving and releasing. You are going to get to a point where you will sto worrying that you are on the right path. You will look up one day unable to imagine yourself doing anything else. Illicit paths will be offered more often becuase bringing you down will become a ...

Something feels off. Something feels fake. You are trusting your heart and its paying off. You have learned to hold your boundaries and now people are doing whtever they can to be in your arms friends, family and ex-lovers as well as new all justling to be safe withyou. All know being loved by you is being blessed by the Gods. Not many know how to deal with you but many are trying to study you so they can come back not all of those bold students understand you will still see right thru them so if they arent earnest no amount of learning will gain them reentry. You have learned how to put on a happy face even when the world was falling down around your ears.You have learned to see beyond the rose colored glasses of the masses. You are not returning negative energy you are just moving beyond it. You are not wasiting tears on this situation what is over and done is finito as far as you are concerned. You are 10 steps ahead of the game emotionally. Who ever is trying to put the wool...

Your person is in deep pain and they are making really bad choices.  Looking to you to give them atonement for the chaos they are creating in their wake.  Your wavering on walking away because you don't see sunshine at the end of this storm just more gray skys.  The amount of change that has to go into making this work is staggering.  Running away will be your counterparts suggestion and yours will be to stand, but really what's best for both of you? 

I got shit to do.  I gotta focus and you are a distraction.  I never had you and now that your gone I've lost a opportunity to have you so fuck it and you!  Except you are on my mind every night, all night. I cannot even hold you while you cry in your dreams because I turned my back on you in the flesh and in the spirit world.  I was in my masculine energy and buried any trace of my feminine energy because it made me feel weak. You have always been my sunrise. You loved me at my worse. I even stopped loving me I can't understand how you do it. I know you used to ask me what I liked to see you in and it's your dresses. You seem so soft and vulnerable. I know you are not vulnerable in the least, but you just ooze feminity like Gaia in Captain Planet. When it came to you I always knew it was you. I just didn't want it to be you. If I had a better example at home maybe I would have done better by you. I hope you would have gotten a better me because I know in any univers...