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No one can touch my life like you do. I could search for all eternity long and still find none like you

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You keep on rising out of the ashes of your life as others try to burn you at the stake of their own egos and ignorance. You have rekindled growth within and that changed mindset is propelling you to new summits in life.You longer are codependant. You are a bad ass who recognizes that somethimes if it is meant to be it will be. You won't stalk, lurk, gaslight,or catfish to get others to bend to your will. You have been conditioned to think like the status quo and that is not what you are meant to do or meant to be. You don't have to make a er your identity or a brand. You have seen that it can all be you and still not even be a large portion of who you are. You have inner beauty that shines in a aura that all are attracted to. I see you and that is why I see its time to speak up and tell you everything. I want a union with you. However you deem that to work I am ready to do it. I don't see it as necessary to tell anyone or even include them at this ti...

You take my air

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Someone used to just want your steak and eggs but now they see you are more then just a one dish type person. You are a buffet and they regret missing out on all you have. You had people (this person included) in your life that wanted to waste your life, energy and talents. You seperated quickly and cleanly from connections that meant little in the grand scheme of things. Did it hurt? Of course it hurt! Do you want to go back? Occasionally but your human who doesn't miss companionsip even if it was toxic alot. Escaping the pattern hurt a lot, but the new one you are weaving will not bind or tear at a persons soul. NO, blame from the past will be added to your new pattern healed strands and new lessons and blessings will be the thread and stitches of the future for you. Noone is going to be able to force you to stay in a connection with them. Lost or not they are not your responsiblity. You was not put on this Earth to be their personal God always solving issues ...

Leo

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So sick and tired of being bound. Tired of feeling inadequate, of self sabotage, of ego trips and frustrations. So many things cloaked in Darkness preventing healing and causing spiritual insecurity.  Lack of clarity and  only seeing lies for truth is burdening you. You thought that your peers was on the same mission as you and now you are realizing they was on a mutual mission it was just against you. You chased after people and situations  that seemed made for you. Only to find out that they were like mirages false once you got close to them.  You have figured it out and now you are seeking clarity. You want to grow out of this stagnant energy and have a foundation that endours. You want to speak to people who pour into you. You want to learn more you thirst for knowledge.  You are about to start seeking some knowledge that is going to set you on your forever path. Do not allow anyone to use lust to overstep your boundaries. Charm is ok when it's genuine. Trus...

Hawthorn the illusionist

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All cards on the table I am scared to take a chance. I don't have a strategy and I cant hide behind facades and games.Im so scared. I can't use sex, I cant use money. What do I do? I cheated or at least involved more people than you in our connection. I just want to get you back in my arms so I can love on you like you deserve. I didn't show my true self to you. I didn't give us a chance. I want to come towards you but someone else might get to you first and tell you all I did behind your back. You may never look at me th same. I am truly despicable and I have the nerve to want more with you. I know I can't and never will be able to give you all you need. I will always be spread thin and always putting you at the bottom of my list not because you are the least but because you will always be the last I have energy for. i owe so many people time and I just keep short changing you. If I was you I would run and never look back. All I am goi...

How did you know that I hate you??

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Whats do you do that makes you do unique? How do you just know and keep on moving forward thru life 5 steps ahead.  How are you so grounded? Life sucks and you have the nerve to walk thru life like the Universe loves you.  You have nothing to your name no fame and yet you have the nerve to walk around the world like the Universe favors you. You act like the sun shines just to make your day better.  I want only rain and storms and disaster for you!! How dare you survive and thrive. You wake people up, you educate them you teach them to heal themselves. You are a menace.  God touched , reincarnated royalty whatever your excuse is for being you ... I don't like it. I know you have done nothing to make me feel this way but I feel like you will steal my family from me.  You have this can do attitude and this inner confidence that it's all gonna work out for you in the end. It's like you have some special  information no one else has. Peop...

I have healed from you. I am sorry I can't come back to you.

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You told someone it's not your job to show them what's deep inside them. You are not their counselor. You have found a way to stand on your own two feet. You are getting used to your intution and to not ignore that gut feeling. You stepped away from people who you saw that your connection was dead with and you are moving toward healthy connections. You will not be around people who put you into competion. Bankrupt individuals have no place in your life. You want connections that make you dig deep and they do as well and together you come out stronger. You will recognize those who do not have ill will to you. You want to create a paradise well do not let your past hold your back. No matter who comes from the past who claim to want your time. Make them prove it. Especially the ones who open their mouth to say God sent them to you cuz they may not be lying they are a test you can only fail by dealing with them. Kiss asses are about to be all up in your face. ...

Capricorn

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Not everyone has a old soul. You are different and its time to accept that instead of compete. Its time to apologies and move on. Staying mad gets you nowhere and gains you nothing but a ulcer. You have figured out that this course of action has kept you in a state of sadness for way to long. You have had so many other avenues of life you could have aimed your intelligence towards but you kept yourself small and let your focus be aimed in the wrong direction. If you want to refocus your attention you will feel a resurrugance of youth and vigor. You can learn to be more then you have been lead to believe you are,The threats against your life do not have to be something to fear. You have somethings to work on your attitude puts the ick in peoples mouth, but you do not deserve any of the truama you have expeirenced you just can and will learn not every situation couldnt be avoided some of them just needed you to walk away. You are to fertile to be letting just anythin...

Cancer

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I don't feel abundant. I dont have the words to save myself. I cheated in life to get thngs moving quicker. I wish i had told the truth. I shouldnt have tried to set you up. What I had with you wasnt worth it. I stopped playing on your phone. Yes, i want to sleep with you but that isnt the point I just want to see why everyone falls for you. My jealousy over you made me keep walking away. I wish you would call me my sexual health isnt the best and i know you could help me. Did my bad friendship push you away? Did my attacking your business keep you away? Why did you walk away how or what did you find out that turned you away? I apologized. I didn't change a thing but i said sorry. I thought you liked me for me??? I stopped spying i swear. I stopped lying about you. I just miss your love and support. I miss listening to muisc and singing with you. The 90s were lit for us remember? I have to confess i never showed you all of me. Its to late to fix ths connection isnt it. ...

Should I move ???

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You are safe first and foremost. Anyone who is triggered by your peace and happiness cant have axcess to you.They cant piss on your dreams. Start speaking your truth. The syncrincites is speaking to you. The hurdles are almost all gone. You have one person whose loyalty is divided and will try to stop you. They will try to introduce negativities ( negative activities) into your life to distract you but you have survived all these karmic lessons you won't fall in the trap. You might need a lawyer for whatever decisions your making. Its ok o talk to those you truat about your situation. Whomever is trying to cause destruction in your life is about to recieve their just desserts. They're actually watching you hoping all goes bad. Their spiritual protection is gone and folks is wanting to know why you arent around. This person or people they can't understand how you got out of all the traps they set for you. This person has projected so much negativity to...

1,2,3...

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I keep hearing one, two, three, the devils after me... You already know how to defend yourself so your not worried about attacks from behind. You are so much more focused on the future and enjoying life. So much lost has already occured. Not just the things you cherished, but it seems to all just fall to the wayside. You are avoiding connections that lead you into compromising yourself. You have a path you want to be on and noone is going to discourage you. You have some connections coming your way that will be your suppoort and your encouragement. Do not think that these connetions aren't protected. These people have been sent towards you as gifts from the divine. All the obstacles that used to be barriers to your movement are falling to the wayside. Money, career, family, friends, whatever the hump you have to get over is literally dissappering like its never been a issue. Money is comijng in , family is healing, friends are supporting your world is changing f...

what does your pet have to say?

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Your pet wants to spend more time with you. They remeber you used to do more with them. You have been working with them to change their behaviors and with more attention they assure you they will finally get it. The more attention they receive the easier it is for lessons to stick in their minds. It may seem like their behavior is sabotage like but its actually in reaction whatever energy you are putting in the atmosphere. Youwant good behaior then you gotta be good to. You can't have a day where you are ignoring your pet. They don't understand the cold shoulder its either you love them or you hate them. For better or worst they are codependant on you so reward their obsession. When you push them away they are hurt. They feel as devestated as if you died . They are actively mourning every time you send them away angerily. Your pet loves you so very much don't forget that when life gets busy just like your human relationships you have to make a effort.

why is this happening?

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Your heart has been set free. Your abuser/s can no longer axcess you. They can try to apply their version of pressure but it aint gonna work. They have no idea the bloodline they fucking with. They been praying to God asking HIM to curse you like a whole ass weirdo. This/ese abuser/s has/ve the nerve to cry about the lost of this connection. They will say they have been abused and thats why they behave as they do. Anything they can do to get back in your good graces they will do. They are willing to let you attack them. They know they would have been safe with you. You gave them wings and made them feel special. They are a trickster/s don't believe them.They are going to come back saying the sweetest things. They will tell you they are fighting their demons. That they want to finally deleve into who you are. They will proclaim they want your happiness above all else while behind the scenes they are undermining you. You being in a happy relationship made them sick with jealousy....

Libra

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Your money is in a few pots but you are making it wor for you. Having many hats is why you make the big bucks. You are lonely and crave your soulmate. You have returned to sender all the low vibe energy trying to be sent your way. You are learning to bend when its needed. You want to closer to each other. They are sorry they keep hurting you. Noone else makes them feel so vulnerable. They are doing their best to be better for you by being better for themselves. No more lying. No more drama. They choose you thats why they are still around, but they have learned to choose themselves first. The past has taught lessons that have freed them where it used to shackle them. They miss looking into your eyes. Everytime you walk away they have to acknowledge they could just eat you up. They are trying to be slick and hold on to you. They like it when you dominate them. They like it you are a switch. They wish they could swoop you up. You are the reason for transformation in thei...

Who admires you

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This person feels no worries when they are with you. This person may have been your enemy in the past, but now they want to prove themselves to you. They have recognized that with you they can find healing. They fear looking you in the eyes you might catch the lies still floating in there. This person is aware you may never fully trust them, but that doesnt change that they want to be apart of your life. This person is looking for signs and syncronicity to come and make your life better. This person chooses to redeem themselves by being a true friend to you. This person is ok with not being in your life if that is your choice. They will not persue you if honoring your boundaries is all they can do then that is how they will honor you. Your friendship would be the icing on the cake, but this person is truly turning over a new leaf. So the change up will be apparent in all aspects of their lives. They dont have 100 percent confidence just yet but they are growing. This friend wil...

What Family got to say

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We lied on you. We told your lovers and friends any and all negative things possible. From calling you for the streets to accusing you of being on drugs or an alcholic. We wanted the world to see us as your Savior. We wanted everyone to disregard how awesome you are and blessed you make us. Your knowledge and gifts were for us to hoard. If you had a blessing it was ours as well. Leaving you out made you work harder for our attention and love. We need you to let us back in your life. Like a crack head feenin for his next hit we crave you. Who is going to educate us. Who is going to give us free everything? You didn't even to learn things you just decided that is what you wanted to do and then did it. We hated it when you was happy. You look prettier, your energy is addictive and you thrive. You have walked away and you are so powerful that we know better to come at you disrepectully anymore. Your intution protects you from us. We did a lot of thing beind your back and had no sh...

I'm working on me I promise.

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I need a partner not a liablity. I think you are perfect for me please. I have abandonment issues and I know that can be irritating in the long term of dealing with someone but its not all crying internally I promise. In the next little while you will see some changes and I hope that you aill accept the change. I know that I will have to kiss your ass but I'm not overthinking it. I see the innocence in your heart and i want to protect that at all costs. I want to pray more about us but I don't know what to say or who to even talk to. Do you pray for us? Do you pray that our love changes from the toxic pit that it is right now? I want you to feel safe and i know that i actually make youfeellike there is pie on your face. I apologize that i keep acting up. I dont want a superficial life with you and right now thats all we could have because I am scared to dig deep. I want to be with you so bad. I don't want nor need more lessons in love they hurt especially the ones I ...

You are a bright light

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All the things you said running thru my head has me feeling I am not enough. You deserve more than I can give emotionally, finanancially,mentally and even physically. I have been sexually unwise and I have a STD/STI( sexually transmitted demon or incubus). I am connected to too many people sexually and I do not how to release those bonds. I like having so many people wanting me. I feel loved having so many people fighting for my attention. I didn't regonize real love. I feel if you love me you will keep doing for me. When you stop you don't love me. I know you have to live your life and being up my ass isn't part of your whole day. I promise you I am not closed off. I am just scared of you seeing to much or figuring out I am a fraud. I ran away in November because its just to much emotions to handle. I thought kepping things sexual was going to protect my heart, but I just fell even harder for you. I feel if I come forward to fast you will lose sight of what you are ...

Aquarius/Karma

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In astrology, the karma of Aquarius is said to be about innovation, progress, and finding a purpose. Aquarians are also said to be influenced by a fascination with other cultures and abstract thinking, but sometimes feeling like they don't fit in.  Some say that Aquarians' karma includes: Innovating, Finding a purpose for themselves and others, Speaking for the powerless, Learning the value of intimate connections, and Avoiding going overboard with protest and rebellious tendencies.  The principle of karma is based on the idea that what is sent out energetically will eventually come back around. Each astrological sign is said to have its own unique teachings in the cycle of life.  During the Age of Aquarius, karma and revelation are said to play a key role in driving societal change. For example, public figures and corporations may face karmic consequences for their actions If anyone asked you if you thought you was perfect you would say no, but noone wants ...

I want...

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You need loving pretty young thing. I'm watching your every move online. When we are together our souls just vibe. I want you to take everything off next time I see you. I want to give you bliss. I love that your shorter than me.  Everyone is going to hate when they see us together. We are going to be partners not enemies. I don't have to worry about you doing me wrong.  I can't stop your tears right now. I am in the middle of things I don't want you apart of. I understand how precious you are so I have to protect you.  You are my best friend, true love, adventure partner, sweetheart, partner in crime. I will love you forever. You are more than I could ever need.  I am getting better for me to be right when it's time for us. Has anyone ever told you that you are the embodiment of a god/goddess ?  I love that you rub my back when it hurts. I love that you actually want to grow old with me. No...

18+ from Him

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I love watching you masturbate.  I love when you touch yourself and you say my name.  Shit is so fucking hot it makes me hard as fuck.  I am charging towards you.  I gotta get my hands on you I need to make you mine again.  I know I should be spewing love talk, but this is all lust I need to make you curl around my dick as I stroke deep in you.  I want to fuck your mouth and then I wanna make you cum in as many ways as possible. Do you orgasm from nipple play?  Well we are about to find out.  Next time I see you just start taking your clothes off I'll get the message.  Ugh I got burnt.  I didn't know.  I wouldn't have brought it to you if.... I'm not right.  I'm really fucked up right now.  If anything I'm gonna corrupt you along with burn you.  I'm so fucking rude.  You deserve better from me but I can't seem to give you that.  All I give you is tears and stress, loneliness,anger and dick.  I'm heartle...