Heart Song The Hearts Truth

You always wanted a balanced connection where you was seen and appreciated. You wanted love that emcompassed your whole world and yet you never found someone who wanted more then your heart. You sure as hell threw it around enough. Whats funny is you gained connections where the oppurtunity you desired was there, but you sabotaged it with your insecurity. You never took a chance because you thought there was always a better offer out there. The risk was losing your right now while looking for forever. You was strategic, but not with the right motives. Now you see you missed out on some good connections and that there isnt a chance for rebuilding those connections.You have learned that 3ed parties connections only lead to narissitic paradigms so you have gotten to a point you aren't looking for a healer in any connection no more bandaid relationships to keep your bleeding heart together. The time is now to heal alone to finally remove the rot fom your life.The cy

Are you as flexible as you think? Can you bend the knee and apologize? Can you tell the truth? Can you walk away if you dont get your way? Whatever was going on wasnt that innocent. Now you are kinda naked in the wind while changes occur. Stopping while you still have the ability to stop is the only way to halt this from going further. Things could have been prevented but being a menance was your goal. Right now you are vreating fake pages and troling the people you feel have left you out or left you behind while they moved on in life. You tried to keep these connections due to what you got by being linked. You cannot trick or bribe your way into their energy. You are willing to kiss ass to get these "piviliges". You want these connections badly. If you had good intentions I would encourage this pursuit, but you are in your ego. You see these connections severing their ties with you as a challange, but people do not have to stayed tied to you to be happy.

Im looking to the sky because like Tupac said, "Everything is going to be all right." Right now it feels like you are o a uphill battle and there is interference. I have been fighting for love do you know that. Specifically I am fighting for your love. I always knew a great love was out there for me. I had hopes it was you but you choose to remain stagnant and you are starting to rot in your stubbornness. You are out here behaving like a depraved leader. You took my breath away i thought you was the eye in the storm. My mistake you was the fulcrum to all the drama. I'm leaving. I wanted to smoke and pick your brain but i don't want really anything to do with you anymore your blind to your habits. I am tired of being in a groundhog day situation with you same shit all the time. You dont even fuck up in new ways. You act like you don't get it you aren't in charge. You are a beacon of darkness, lies and emotional abuse offering me up like im a nag a chips f

Always ask for the truth. Never date friends, If there is confusion walk away. Always have a back up plan. Do not allow somone to stop your shine. Accept praise it is not vanity. Do not feel alone you always have me. Allow me to help you step up to your highest self. You may not be the first doing something but I have faith you can be the best. Its time for you to love yourself more. Its ok to heal hurts you thought was already healed. Sometimes to reconnect withyourself and nature. You can change your ways. You will have people flocking to follow your lead. You are not only good to look at you are intelligent I am so proud of you. I mis hugging you too. I am still learning lessons even where I am but you being happy makes me joyful. I love knowing you are growing into such a wonderful person. Don't keep secrets they will be your downfall. Be your own standard. No more crying because of others. I wasn't planning on leaving as soon as I did but you m

I got mad at you for being on this little self love journey. I prefered when your only foucus was the sexual journey with me. I figured this would make you shut up. This would make you go back to the simp you used to be. I hate the waythey smell. I hate they don t really like being touched. I hate they are always trying to fight with me over nothing. I hate that they are only this way because of how they feel about me. I know you don't care abut my dilenmea As far as you are concered they can keep me. You are so above this situation now. It doesnt hurt you shoot you barely think of me. I can feel your intrest and your love fading away but im trapped i dont know how to get to you without causing drama that you refuse to be apart of but is bound to happen cuz i made a mess of things like usual. I truly want this connection with you. You make me feel young. Whatever fountain of youth you go to i want to go to as well. What do i have to do for you to forgive me

Someone wants to tell you... I miss us being closer. Music plays and I instantly think of you sometimes I hear your voice. I feel stupid cuz I lost you. You were my butterfly. I'll never get someone like you. I fucked up one time to many and lost out big time. It sucks I had to lose you to see that you move like I move. I won't lie I'm not sorry for what I did I'm just sorry it hurt you. I'm trapped in the darkness now. I see your eyes everywhere looking at me so sadly. We are no longer the same when did it change? Why must we be in seperation? Can I pretend to be someone else and stay in your energy? I will give you all the time I withheld from you in the past. I won't be a detriment to you. The lie that gets to me the most is the one I have to tell the world because you aren't in my life anymore. It's like everything is a karmic lesson. I can't even pray. I managed to break my own heart. #luckynumber2 #luckynumber3 #luckynumber7 You are ab

Everyone is counting your pockets becuase they know you are moving up in the world. You are smarter than a lot of people give you credit for including me. I'm thankful that you encourage me to be myself. You allowed me to see the sky is the limit for my dreams. You are to intent on moving forward whether its across the country, state, or even the city wherever its not far enough. I see you and now I'm choosing to not give you a cold shoulder i am just fearful of being hurt. I have experienced a lot of pain and i do not want to come even close to it again. I don't want to be shackled to another session of healing. Its a bunch of bs. Noone should experience such pain in the first place, Relationships should not be up hill battles. Also allowing interferances leaves a hole in the heart that is hard to mend. The lies and misinformation i enjoyed was becuase it was wrapped in gentleness. If you was aware I was a predator you would have never gave me a chance but im not tha