Heart Song The Hearts Truth

I know that I never have told you how I felt about you. I know its been years and you think I forgot you but I fuck with you the long way. The way I feel about you has to be from the Universe. I have been watching you like I am a FBI agent. I don't know what move to make to come to you. I cant play chess, checkers, or monopoly with you I know what ever move I make you are going to see it coming a mile away. I know I need to just spit it out and tell you. You have inspired me to heal. I had so many childhood wounds that I never addressed but because of you I am learning how to face those things. I want to be like you and grow and heal. I beleive i can have love becuase you have taught me to love myself more in a healthy way. I would love a oppurtunity to sit down and talk I feel you would help me so much. You are freaking talented and im low key in awe. I am damaged. My brokeness causes me to hurt and use others and i don't want to be like that anymore. I never learned h

You make me weak. You and I will drip with finesse cuz we are gods. You'are my island baby and i will sacrifice for you. You maybe older than me but you make me feel young. Your path was hard and I thought you was stupid for walking it but now I see it was others putting the blocks in your way. You have unlimited retries because the Universe knows you are earnest in your endeavours. We didn't understand that noone we knew loved their partner like that . I just ask that as I take this leap of faith that you don't let me fall. I'm terrified. I turn to you in a crisis I might as well roll over instead of calling or texting. You are anything but childish. I see you and I love all that i see. I always have. I am as bad as you imagine actually probably worse but I have beeen doing my best to keep that from you. I dont know how to merge the two so I am not someone you fear. I cant believe you fear me now and don't trust me. It hurts to know when once

Imma stop smoking. Im checking out stock options I know something isn't right and I"m trying to prepare for it. I'm smart and I know that plans take time. I am making moves that is going to bless my legacy. Noone has done it like me so there is no lessson plans to study especially when it comes to love. You want long term love and it will come because people have no idea how lucky they are to know you and have you in there lives. A drug dealer in particular wants you and wants to know why cant they see the world as you do.They are trying to prove themselves to you. You see their indecisiveness and you are metting them where they are. If they want to wait then so be it they can wait tell hell freezes over and you wont be worried bout it because your not stuck this stagnacy you wont accept. This person whether the drug dealer or someone else they are sorry they hurt you. They want to haved some sexual healing. They know you have that je na sa qui. They a

You want to talk more. You are waiting to hear from your beloved. You might be holding on tight to your electronics just waiting. Your false twin kept you unbalanced, There was no duality between yall. You are so greateful that your connection is over. You arent going back you are seeking a new connection. You want to graw and transform and in your past that seemed to be undermined by anyone who knew you for too long. Your future connection will end in union and wedded bliss. Do not worry this love is built on eternal promises. You will be getting a call soon from someone hoping to connect. This call will be the one you have been waiting for they will tell you that you have been on their heart. This past energy is lacking confidence, they are frustrated with themselves. They are always self sabotaging due to ego and insecurity.Their jealousy is tangible. They play games and think you dont notice. They have been holding back and blame it on you when really its their tr

You haven't read everything. You are missing a important peace of information. Find it quickly. You might have a more experienced person assisting you in finding these missing things. Its ok to be vulnerable. You are awesome, you give people butterflies. You have taught people how to walk awy from connections that no longer serve them. People will be reaching out but its only to block you. You are so stern and you put your all in whatever you believe in. People love the authoritive vibe you carry. There are even somewho want to travel the world with you. You are unbothered. Those you have left behind feel emptyy without you. Some are hurting real bad but refuse to admit it. Everyone knows by now thsat you deserve better than you have recieved in the past. Those who caused you harm know now they never should have crossed you. The level up they thought they was gaining is yours and it will fund your interpdendance. Toxic family connections will finally be severed. You

You might be having to operate in deception in order to make it to thru this next little Tower coming your way. You might be dealing with a Leo or this will occur in Leo season. You have abundance coming your way like a river just gotta keep it to yourself. There will be those who come after you just because you are you and the more well known you become the more the hate will come your way as well. Like Paul Robeson you might get your very means of earning a income thwarted but keep pressing ahead because those above will rectify it in the end. No bragging and keep your plans hidden use subterfuge and deception if need be, but protect yourself. Don't let the strife of life tear you apart. You are capable of balancing out the situation in your favor. You might be called to do something you have no training to do like Dorie Miller when he stepped up that day at Pearl Harbor, but he succeeded just like you will. This person or situation will bring drama, but like Charles Drew you w

Someone is waiting for money to come in. A promotion was supposed to be heading your way and there has been some interferance. You may be looking at job sites preparing for moving to a better oppurtunity. There was to much drama at your workplace and you are just trying to work. You are teachiing folks, showing them new ways and folks are reaching out to you and desiring more from you. You may be under attack having suicidal thouhgt out of nowhere. Do not fret they are not your thoughts and emotions it is projection from foks who do not want to see you win. You know that you aren't perfect and aren't trying to be anyhing more than who you are. The people upset with you for healing they wanted you to dry in your tears. You make history just showing up. Your life has been shaped by ptsd and yet your still loving and kind. You have severed ties that were attempting to blow up your spot. What you have going is so beautiful and you make people think of you. People want to be in

Promises was all you gave me. I didn't check to see if anything you said held wait. I placed my faith in you and allowed myself to begin to fall in love but I didn't feel safe. You did't let me feel ok caring about you. It took some time but i figured out you had another motive. As I look at the future I fail to see you in it. I'm not going to fight you. I honestly have other things on my mind. I wish you would choose a life that i could fully be apart of all the time. Any magic you have been playing with to have me tied to you has been returned 10 fold. You wanted me to ride your toxic wave. You wanted me craving you at the cost of the peace of my mind. You wanted me to create a home for you in my heart. For what? Why should I provide a space for someoone whom doesnt appreciate their special space? Why should i be a safe space for a unsafe person? I admit them kisses is what got me in the first place, but we aren't in no kind of kissing status. I just can'

Someone tried to keep something hiddden.They felt the world was spinning just for them. Right now there is fighting as truths come out. Nothing is going their way. When every thing was always a win now there is offense and defense at all times. The emotions are running high, but a truth is coming . This truth brings so much abundance to you and noone can stop what is coming. You are thinking for yourself and nothing or noone is going to hinder that. Your health is getting better or you are getting over a cold. For some of you healing from a std scare has thrown you for a whirl. You arent in this world so figuring out the humans is just a lot sometimes especially cheating partners. Just keep healing and keep on forgiving and releasing. You are going to get to a point where you will sto worrying that you are on the right path. You will look up one day unable to imagine yourself doing anything else. Illicit paths will be offered more often becuase bringing you down will become a

I don't enjoy the way I feel. My fucking soul hurts. I don't feel unique in this situation. I feel like I have always been like this and there is no changing, but come to find out it was spell work. I have learned to protect myself. No longer will I accept interferace in my connections. There is one person I want to talk to and it hurts its been so long I almost forget what its like to kiss them. I want to be the shoulder they lean on and that's a issue when others are relentless with their watered down evil eye. I have been working on my soloar plexus chakra. I am no longer controlling, obsessive, and lacking in direction. I had to walk away from things that didn't sit well in my heart. Thats why I can't walk away from you. You are the best thing for me. You are my ideal mate. If you hadn't noticed I've been flirting with you. I suck at it but I want you to know i'm interested. I'm sorry I ghosted. I am coming back. I want to make a movie wi

Tell me how am I supposed to breath with no air? You are the air I breath. You are my soulmate my heart. You are a boss in your own arena. You created a lane and I want to get into it with you. Everything is always fresh and new with you. You inspire me to change on the outside and inside. You are my sunrise and sunset. Right now nothing feels real without you.You look like a god/goddess and I in awe of you. You are my sun and moon and everything between. If none of that existed you would still be my king/queen. I pray for you daily though. I want you to be happy even if its not with me. IN the past I was definitely a toxic lover and things were never smooth sailing for us. I want to change your perspective so that you will give us another chance. Right now I'm trying to get my health right mentally and physically. I owe myself that before anything else but ypu are never far from my mind. I want you to think of my words and believe in me I do not want to cause pai

 You are stepping away from karmic situationships. No more feeling triggered, no more trauma bonding, letting go of resentment, learning the lessons, letting go and loving you. The pain of learning these lesson has you separating from everyone. You are unsure who to trust so you just pulled back from everyone.  You have been searching for your version of paradise. It’s somewhere where you don’t have to keep fighting to protect your spirit. You want to be able to relax in lush grass and beautiful sunsets. You want a life with no drama.  You may have a pet that you find comfort in and they were a gift from the universe to help you find a different kind of assurance within.  Just like being a parent to children you have to give time and attention to your pet and in return they help encourage that inner calm to rein supreme. What are YOUR personal truths? Have you sat down and asked yourself. What will you fight over and what have you been wrong about? You may have been questioning if your

 You are surrounded by stars, but I’m not sure you realize you are the biggest star among them. You shine bright and you stand out. You are starting to see evidence of your Empress energy. You are no longer fighting to be relaxed you are just going with the flow. You have found that peace in your feminine energy  instead of the pressure of your masculine energy. The fruits of your labor are coming to fruition and you are starting to see it.  You used to fight so hard to make things come to pass and you had others fighting you to stop you from going down your path. The more you fought the less you was able to move forward. You put away your sword and your trying to use your words and you have found they cut even deeper then any fight could  cause. There are power in words use them cautiously, but figure out the balance and utilize it to your best ability.

  Someone is fighting  their addictions. At night they sit up and drink and smoke and think about you and curse life. They used to feel like they had the whole world in their hands. Nothing was outta reach and every step was sunshine and posh grass.  They see your not stuck thinking about them and that adds to their misery.  Their emotions have them caged in and their thoughts are all tinged with loneliness and heartbreak. While verbally they blame you they know it’s them and that’s what’s eating them up. 

  Someone is watching you. They want no distractions to bar them from seeing you. They may be depressed right now. They want a chance to reconnect with you. This person wants to drape you in elegance. If you had a connection they can’t deal your energy anymore. You have been on a pedestal in their mind but you want them to see you as down to earth you are not out of reach.  Someone hasn’t been generous in the past they was to busy being crafty and strong handed. This person is/was a hobo sexual using their body to have a home. Feeling empty because they was making deals w/theDevil. They admire your body, but they hate you. You manage to help this person be their best and they want that but not from You. You answer their life’s problems. If you are empathetic you Feel this persons energy so you catch  them before they even know where they are emotionally.  You may have walked away and this perso. Is a king for your energy. You look happier without them and they hate that. They want your

  Someone doesn’t admit their day starts with you. They are fighting their feelings wanting you to just listen to what they want to say to you. They are broken hearted and feel broken inside. They want to be like you, but their confidence is actually shakey. They know you have a light soul and theirs are dark. They may have used their body to survive, but they want to make a new way. They also wish they could start over with you. They know your connection was shaped by ptsd. They don’t know how they can be better, but they would like to try, not a lot though trying is hard work. If you accept this connection back in your life they will come back and make you miserable. No love, reciprocating nothing. You will pour in and get nothing in return but manipulation because they feel they deserve what you have.  They tried to study you and still couldn’t figure it out. They have accepted they can’t change , but they hope you will reconnect with them. It’s not your looks it’s your gifts they a

I want Everyone to know your mine. I am fighting my demons to get to you. I couldn't figure out why you thought I would grow up for you and  I refused to grow for myself but i see now you wanted me to grow for me. You really just wanted the best for me.  You are actually kinder than I gave you credit for. I'm moving to be closer to you. I am baffled on how you understand me when no one else does. I don't know if I'm gonna get it right this life time and it hurts so bad!! I don't feel good enough for you. I am a societal menace and I believe I dont owe apologies to anyone. I know you are my sun and I may not say it in the most pc or cultured way. I might never admit it, but I miss us being close. Will you let me put you on a throne? I know I'm flakey and I have left you hanging before, but I finally understand you are the total package.  I know you are scared to risk it all but i need you to ask yourself what do you want? I hope its me.  My heart is fragile I won

  You are avoiding narcissistic relationships because you are headed to new beginnings. You maybe journaling about things in your past so you can finally put it all to rest. You feel feel liberated as you grow and change. You may be feeling extra  attracted, flirting, and dating. Some of you might be hooking up with someone new. Beware that if you don’t investigate there maybe 3rd party interference. Don’t worry you will be getting what you need to progress as you move on. Yes, it could be the only way you receive closure. Yes, it hurts but you are gonna get the last laugh. 

Karmic Uncle- A uncle is trying to get in touch with his emotion. Trying to find the truth within. They are distant from you. A Pisces or Leo could could indirectly part of the connection. This Uncle is sending you messages, but you might be busy trying to balance something’s out you may feel he’s feel blind to. This Uncle is aware things aren’t perfect for you. They don’t truly care. They don’t want to see you happy. They can’t come to you though. They don’t know where you are, but they know you are seeking a deep connection with them or family but now you sense something off about them. 

 Someone is contemplating their money moves. This person may have a dog. At night when they are all alone they think about finances and someone they see as a star they also may spy on this star.  This person makes them smile. Whoever they are watching they want to move towards them. They find this person matches their inner drum beat. They may have been getting discouraging messages to keep them from moving towards their star but they are moving and it may have been slow but they speeding towards their desire.