Heart Song The Hearts Truth

Play more with me. You are always working. Your kids are my loves. I am terrified of you but i love you. I am doing my best to be a better pet. I see how upset I am making you. If you get a new job i mwill miss you. I need new hugs. I make you sad I am so sorry. My breed has a part in my behavior. Its time for me to go see the vet I am a teenager now. I am ready to do big pet things. I will still do baby stuff, but i am growing up. Lets play! You are changing. I dont know what is different I love you so much!!!

Your heart has been set free. Your abuser/s can no longer axcess you. They can try to apply their version of pressure but it aint gonna work. They have no idea the bloodline they fucking with. They been praying to God asking HIM to curse you like a whole ass weirdo. This/ese abuser/s has/ve the nerve to cry about the lost of this connection. They will say they have been abused and thats why they behave as they do. Anything they can do to get back in your good graces they will do. They are willing to let you attack them. They know they would have been safe with you. You gave them wings and made them feel special. They are a trickster/s don't believe them.They are going to come back saying the sweetest things. They will tell you they are fighting their demons. That they want to finally deleve into who you are. They will proclaim they want your happiness above all else while behind the scenes they are undermining you. You being in a happy relationship made them sick with jealousy.

Someone wants to be codependant on someone. You have addictions and an obsession and your hope is that this person can help you. Playing in spell work got you trapped in your own cage and you want out. You are miserable and your possessive , contolling nature has been unmasked and others can see the real you. You have been blocked from what ever or whomever you are obsessing over and Spirit is trying to tech you restraint. Your plans of seduction was laughable. Did you not realize you never had that kind of hold on this person? You may have saw marriage in the future, but that was never the deal. Im hearing that was never going to make it on the list. For some reason you thought that this person had blinders on when really they were just letting you dream big and didn't deflate those little balloons of happiness for you. Why are you angry at them for going along wit your delusions? You choose to ignore every word coming out of their mouth about someone else just

Something is coming and you arent expecting it. You are prepared like a Queen or King on a chessboard. You are dominating someone who thought they had a upper hand. Your love for self saved you from being dragged down to the level emed by your opps. Someone will use love to rebind you to their downfall. They will say all the right things. You know their games though. This is still a checker game to them. You have changed and therefore the rules no longer apply. If you are mirrors of each other they need to clean theirs because you refuse to reflect back the same image they want to project. What thry want to hide you show with pride because those wounds are scars now healed with hard work and tears. What is missing for them you cannot replace. You cannot use your tools they wont fit their pieces.Like inventors of old they must design tools inique to their need. You have learned to stand on your own. It is time for them as well. Your love is not enough to save anyone

Your money is in a few pots but you are making it wor for you. Having many hats is why you make the big bucks. You are lonely and crave your soulmate. You have returned to sender all the low vibe energy trying to be sent your way. You are learning to bend when its needed. You want to closer to each other. They are sorry they keep hurting you. Noone else makes them feel so vulnerable. They are doing their best to be better for you by being better for themselves. No more lying. No more drama. They choose you thats why they are still around, but they have learned to choose themselves first. The past has taught lessons that have freed them where it used to shackle them. They miss looking into your eyes. Everytime you walk away they have to acknowledge they could just eat you up. They are trying to be slick and hold on to you. They like it when you dominate them. They like it you are a switch. They wish they could swoop you up. You are the reason for transformation in thei

edit  Know when to celebrate and kow when you are celebrating with enemies. Not all victories are meant to be shared. Someone is wishing illness on you because that is literally the only way they can see to stop you from winning. Everyday you can't post, record, speak is a day they think they have it in the bag. You might have stopped posting for a week or two had someone congraulating themselves thinking they had you beat. Inreality you was fixing something or starting a new endeavour but what ever it was when you popped back up and started daring them to attack you they doubled their efforts but they ar seeing even less awards from these attacks then they recieved when doing half the work. Your elevating and they cant stop you. Sabotage is all i hear. Cyber attacks towards your every electronic to prevent your work. Nothing stuck. if your wifi acted up you found a work around. If you couldnt type you wrote, if you couldnt write a poem you wote a essay instead. Just polis

Your light intrigues my shadow side. You make me feel powerful and "connected" even though we are just being us.  I am no longer conflicted about you and I. I know what I have to do for you. All I can do is walk away.  The fighting is done.  I quit.  I see you on this self love journey and I know I can't join you.  My boundaries are bad and I always fail to acknowledge yours.  I hide the parts of me that you want to see in favor of the parts of me that drive you further away. It's like there is a war going on within me and at this moment I don't know who is winning.  I even taking from work; so I'm just messing up every where. I went back to a ex or two.  I just want to be numb and not feel anything because I can't feel you.  I'm tired of using people to have what I need. I don't want to be addicted to things in my life or even people. Especially people who hated on you for just loving me.  Right now if I have to be alone so be it.  Ok,  I'm ly

 I want to drink and smoke and pick your brain. I need to know if you know we are meant to be as well? I stop letting you be the catalyst in my life and my spirit seemed to die. I have been acting childish like I didn’t know better. I resented how close you was to me, or that you knew me so well that I couldn’t get away with stuff.  I want you to look at me like Royalty.  I’m gonna take you in a date your eyes are going to be so big. I’m going to have you gasping with surprise cuz I got it like that. I feel like Ive always know when you start crying. I hope you are crying now cuz you hurt me walking bout I can’t come home when I want to.   I will fight you and who ever you are dating.  I even hate the rain now it makes me think of you waiting on me getting sadder and sadder which makes me madder like I have to keep my word when I say I am on my way.  When you finally accept you are mine I will be picking out your clothes. If I’m going to give you my heart you have to toe the line and j

You may need to work on your base and sacral chakra.  You have been busting your butt, not having the time to be lazy, bored, confused, experiencing doubt in self and tiredness there just doesn’t seem to be enough hrs in the day.  The Sun is washing away your sorrow and shadows. Your self destructive attitude and doubts are fading with the quickness. You are creating. You have created a who new life and world your going to have to walk confidently into this new world. Your creativity might feel like it’s ebbing and flowing sporadically with Carnelian in your corner. Carnelian will breath new life into you so you can breathe new life into your projects.  

  Someone doesn’t admit their day starts with you. They are fighting their feelings wanting you to just listen to what they want to say to you. They are broken hearted and feel broken inside. They want to be like you, but their confidence is actually shakey. They know you have a light soul and theirs are dark. They may have used their body to survive, but they want to make a new way. They also wish they could start over with you. They know your connection was shaped by ptsd. They don’t know how they can be better, but they would like to try, not a lot though trying is hard work. If you accept this connection back in your life they will come back and make you miserable. No love, reciprocating nothing. You will pour in and get nothing in return but manipulation because they feel they deserve what you have.  They tried to study you and still couldn’t figure it out. They have accepted they can’t change , but they hope you will reconnect with them. It’s not your looks it’s your gifts they a

  You are balancing the masculine and feminine in you finding balance and embracing your duality. You are finding that the more you utilize both sides of you in the right situations your gifts compliment each other.  You are finding that that feeling of not enough is gone. Your not perfect that doesn’t make you not enough and that realization has soothed your soul. No longer frustrated by feeling you don’t deserve connections, lacking confidence all that self sabotage and fear vs ego fights are in the past. You are not yet the butterfly you want to be but you aren’t the caterpillar you used to be. Right now your in your chrysalis stage you are fragile , but that’s because a lot is going on within.  A whole chemical change has begun. You changed your mind set and your body is reacting to those new demands on it. Little tiny changes that have had momental  effects on your whole life in a different better way. All that out dated thinking has been tossed to the wayside.  You are remixing t

 Many people are unaware that Duke Ellington was a dairy farmer before becoming a Jazz musician. He also was known for his humor and wisdom.  So a lot of people have this idea of who he is in their head and that is of a man with one joy in life and was stoic to boot. Spirit is telling me that you are like the Duke you have talent in a lot of areas and people seem to keep trying to box you in because they see you one way. Everytime that happens you feel suffocated. Not because they don't believe in you but because they dont get that is only a part of you if you fully focused on that one area the rest of you would suffer. Please do not walk away from ALL of the things that make you happy just because you focusing on one talent would make lots of other people happy.  You have been gifted a ability to take the rain and make stars or at least that's how others view you.  You expose all in the pursuit of being grounded in all aspects of your life. You are sensitive, but full of hope

 You don’t believe in unconditional love, you think people use emotions as weapons. Passion is all good, but without wisdom it only leads to destruction and you avoid any calamity like the plague.  You have so many people claiming to like you , but they really are energy vampires only wanting to be around you when your happy, but they all scatter when you need to build yourself up.  You spent a lot of time trying to figure out what you was doing wrong to lose so many friends.  It affected your confidence the way you felt about yourself. You held back your gifts second guessed all support leaving yourself feeling stuck and stagnant.  You have been so hurt by everyone you are guarded against everything even love.  That’s how they want it to be. You closed off from the world would satisfy all of them. Unfortunately for them you will be growing gaining momentum.  Your going to get a surprise that love you thought was impossible is coming.

  You are avoiding narcissistic relationships because you are headed to new beginnings. You maybe journaling about things in your past so you can finally put it all to rest. You feel feel liberated as you grow and change. You may be feeling extra  attracted, flirting, and dating. Some of you might be hooking up with someone new. Beware that if you don’t investigate there maybe 3rd party interference. Don’t worry you will be getting what you need to progress as you move on. Yes, it could be the only way you receive closure. Yes, it hurts but you are gonna get the last laugh.