Heart Song The Hearts Truth

You are my heart. I still worry about you even with circumstances as they are. I use to rub your back when we woul have serious convos. I thought i would have more time with you. I have been trying to connect with you but you wont sit still long enough to hear me. You want to feel more love just sit still im right with you. Anytime you need to talk I am still here. I won't judge you or interrupt. I won't ask intrusive questions. I want you to accept your soul famuly because they will echo the love I have for you. I know there was times in the past where you needed a break from me well no pressure now lol. You may not be feeling seen right now but please be reassured you are seen and cherished. Noone is talking negatively or bringing up up all your bad deeds waiting to pounce. You have Shea butter baby vibes and im so happy that you feel that energy deep inside. Do not be surprised if your next child reminds you of me. When it rains think of me. Im sorry love c

Normally I am the hunter prepared for any type of prey. Usually I come after people becuase of what they have. I set my eyes on them and i always hit my shot. Yet, lately I just want to make my own. I want to be able to say I did it myself. I want to know that you know that means my money will be slower. I want to evolve and in my present circumstances I don't see the possiblity of healing. I spent a lot of time chasing our connection. I was so codependant terrified that if I didnt fix our connection there would be no connection to have. I knew i couldnt turn to my friends to find solace. Living in the moment wasnt going to save me when i was drowning in our connection. I needed time to be my best self and i allowed societies pressures to dictate how i made that happened. Progress was more important than growth and refuse to embrace the idea that the paradigm of our connection was always wrong. The lack of healthy choices in our connection trickled to other conne

Move toward your higher purpose. Your thoughts are manifesting quickly and thru reality you are seeing your 5d dreams come true. Reassurance that the Universe understands your fears and concerns. It's ok to let go and release it to your guides so you can heal. You have been paying attention to your relationships. 'Walking away should be hard, but your making it easier day by day," is your mindset when it comes to certain relationships. You are accepting you haven't always stood up for yourself for a long time and didn't always walk away from circumstances that didn't serve you. You may have gotten swept up by the vibe back in the day, but now you are not letting anyone redirect your flow. Your learning to laugh as you walk away from relationships that no longer serve you. You are not giving out retries. You are ready for love and the Universe hears. The Universe is aware you haven't been smiling down to your soul for a while and that won't do. You a

Whatever you are doing behind closed doors to make money is about to be exposed. You are in need of therapy playing in grave yard dirt thinking that was going to help you. You came against someones elses family and thought you was gong to win. You underestimated the spiritual hitters in their family. You are going to be more then breathless. You choose not to think foryourself and now you are caught up in some shit. Your health issues are fixable just go to the doctor and take your dang pills. Lots of people take medication for a variety of reasons. You don't have to lie about your health. I don't get why you are so determined to destroy someones wealth and abundance while undermining their wisdom and empathy. You could have took all ths energy you are using to study people to actually go to school. Your toxic habits will be the death of you. Instead of doing anything to get into folks business not even they actual lifes just their bidness is going to blow back on you.

Something came in a flash and is leaving just as fast. You thought you had the game sewed up and you came to learn there is way mor to it. You didn't gain what you sought. You have lost the will to continue the fight you began so eagerly. Now is time to sit back and reap what you sewed there is no changing it now. You are going to be tossed better then a italian salad in a Nona's kitchen. Spirit is going to take their time. All that moon magic has a price. You looked to the skies and tried to ignore the star. Their is no solace for your choice. You felt you was the better choice. You didnt know enough. You could have had a ally. You thought you was stronger. You got fycked. Drinking is not going to help. Can you over come the storm heading your way no... but you can pick up he pieces afterward if you choose to. You aren't hearing any messages because you stopped listening like Saul and let envy enter your heart. If you only wanted to make a difference the

I have such high expectations of you and its not fair because it doesnt allow you to trulybe yourself. Yet i expect you to be perfect and noone can be that way. I want tobe there for you and I really dont know how to do that. I want to cater to you but instead i attack and undermine. Its like I am posessed everytime I deal with you and the worst parts of me come out and then I have to act like I meant to do all that cuzotherwise Im crazy for apologizing for being a dick all the time, Right now I'm a dummy I want to marry you and I am the worst. I keep pushing you away when all I want to do is pull you close. You are my comfort and understanding & I want to protect you and yet I am your worst enemy. I keep lying to you just to keep you close even though I know you would definitly be better off with out me. I know we knew each other in a past life and I know it indicates we had a chance for a connection now, but with my behavior I ruined things and I dont see us connectiing

You are free to move on just dont come back. I dont think we are over, but if thats how you feel so be it. I can't tolerate a controlling, obsessive person with a lack of direction and who is fucking aggresive. Who do I look like being abused becuase you cant get contol of your solar plexus? You are learning not to be a hater, but bro that envy is loud and wrong. I'm your partner not your competion. I'm looking to fall in loved damn near everyday with my ace. With you I feel like I'm growing and then stagnancy. I fear you might leave me though, but I am working on that its a me thing not a you thing my fear of abandonment is trauma. You have been the fulcrum to the next stage in my life. I want to be your butterfly. I want to go within and change for the better. I know your leaving me though. I never imagined it would go like this. I never prepared for this. I acted like a child with no home training. I deserve so much bad in my life especially from you. If you let

How many drinks will it take for you to sit still and let me talk to you? I have to tell you how I feel. I keep trying to talk to you thru music, but your not talking back. You are my Angel on this barren Earth. I just need a chance to show you I have changed. You won't be a secret this time. I should have never treated some of the people I wined and dinde so well they didn't deserve a quarter of the attention and affection I gave them. I surrounded myself with fake people and reaped all kinds of karma. I thought i was moving the right way. I didn't see that when my life was going well was cuz you was in my life. I thought things would be bad but once you was gone it would get 10 times worse. You was shielding me from so much karma just taking the hits and pressing forward. You accepted life unfiltered so I could wear rose ccolored glasses never turning my eye to the devastation I was leaving behind. You was the only one to call me out over and over about how I was affect

I love myself more when im not around you. Im am more free. Being bound is no longer comfortable for my soul. I know better now. Some people do not deserve another chance with me and I know that with comfidence now. I know i deserve better than i was recieving from those around me. I know there are people who want to come back inot my life and that is something they will have to continue to deal with alone. Its not my problem. I tried to keep the door open and they refused to walk they, but now that the door is shut they are pounding on the door. I was good to them and they didn't acknowledge me. I will learn to keep my boundaries. If they try to make me feel guilty I won't listen. I have to learn to resist the pull of false connections. I have to remeber how empty they left me feeling. Promises of celbration won't pull me in. I have seen in the past that celebratory behavior only lasts for a season then I am put away until I am needed to solve another puzzle but when

'Are you a real freak', 'as the day goes by I'm always thinking of your face your my eve and Im your adam so lets settle down'. I'm always looking at your picture it calms my heart down. Every time the music plays I can hear your voice. 'I don't want to fall asleep cuz I miss you' and then I wake and your not there and it fucking hurts. 'I want to rock the boat wit you you make me float, you make me high.' When I get to you I expect you to back up everything you said. Can you really 'put that thang in motion' or are you just talking to entice me. I want to get you into a position where you finally let loose and show me all the hidden desires that you have buried down within. I am terrified you might just turn me away I have played so many games and I don't blame you for having animosity towards me I just hope you still have some spot in your heart for me. You are so untouchable right now and I am so angry at myself for wasting

Hey, You are on my mind at night. You haunt my dreams. This craving for another person is not what I am used to. I have been asking the universe for patience as I have been having some arguments with myself due to a unwillingness to face the man in the mirror.  I have this emptiness inside and I don't know how to fill it a f it makes me feel incomplete. I feel sluggish and unproductive.  Please don't let this connection slip away. You bring out the best in me.  This space we are in where we don't speak where we aren't connected feels so imbalanced.  I am leaving my person. I know that is the biggest issue. Not to say my behavior isn't one as well. I am just saying that I know that is the biggest issue between us.  I know I can't talk my way back into your heart and life. My actions need to line up with where you are and I can't plateau either I have to keep growing.  I know now I didn't do right by you. I am sorry I should've known better.  Sidebar:

No more triggered relationships. No more turmoil or feelings of resentment. You have finally let go and and turning your love toward yourself.  How do you know it's over? You know it's over because you stop looking back. You stop giving more chances. You have grown and transformed.  You have made your spirit team so proud embracing that self love journey. Your happier, letting go of codependent relationships and controlling behavior.  Now it's time to spend time with friends and enjoy your single life.  Live in the moment and have some fun it's not your job to be stationary just because your joy makes them feel some kind of way.  The time is now old cycles have ended and new ones are beginning.

 Someone has been secretly admiring you. They want to romance you. They want to flirt and cuddle. Nourish you and help you grow. This connection won’t be the runner chaser situation your used to being in. No more trauma pain from abandonment situations. You won’t be left if anything you will be doing the leaving.  You may not feel comfortable going out meeting new people and conversing, but that is what you are meant to do so don’t be surprised when you are called to uplift others in conversation.  None of this has to be done by flirting just being yourself will drawn people to you. You have been thinking you are in that on my own thing  vibe and it’s time to recognize who you are because other people see it. 

  You are shining in the midst of this forest of emptiness. Someone is coming to help pull you out, but only to tie you to them. They have tattoos and long hair. This person has their heart blocked against any potential love. They see how powerful you are and that your light comes from within. You are a mermaid torn between land and water or a better way to say it is you are torn between your 3d self and your 5d.  Where do you want to live? 

You to Them: Hey, I don't want to demean you ever. I'm not your enemy, but I am over it! No more do I want " happily ever after " with you. You are part of my past that needs to heal. I am trying to get my head right mediating and exercising getting closer to my higher self,  I know I have to focus on my legacy, so I am taking better care of myself in all areas of my life if its toxic it HAS to go. I know there are haters, i don't choose to focus on that. No one can stop what the Divine has for me. Folks are acting like getting to me is easy as crossing the Serengeti. Just as hard as you use try to get to me, they have to work twice as hard. I learned a lot from dealing with you.  I want to go to Mexico. I just want to be far away from y'all drama. When I disappear it's cuz I/m trying to conserve my energy.  If I don't see any of you again in this lifetime, I wouldn't mind. I'm trying to have more than a average existence. Angel Numbers: 1212,2

  Someone feels like you give them wings and they soar because of you. They lied to you often, but you always forgive them. Only now the issue  is you have walked away. This person knows you had your reasons, but they miss you. This separation is hard.  You always understood even if you didn't agree. This person is realizing they don't truly know how to survive without you in their life. They know they trigger you with their behavior, but you make them lucky. the world is scary, but they know having you in their life kept them sane.  They just want to come back. They will put excitement in your life if you let them.  You are the thought that lulls them to sleep at night, but then they fall asleep and have to fight their demons.  No more hoes and tricks for them, but they are confused because they didn't want to grow for themselves so they don't get why they should grow up for you, but they want you to risk it all with /for them.  They might even propose because they rea

 Right now you are making healthy choices in love and life. Practicing self-love, self- care, being happier is paramount  to you for you and those you care for. You are avoiding self-absorbed, narcissist, one sided relationships. You are avoiding love damaged people who react badly to receiving genuine love.  You have walked away from addictions or people who seemed addicting to be around. No more obsessions or being treated like a possession. You are releasing any urge to be controlling as things are slowly coming to fruition for you. As you hang out in this energy of freedom o not forget that sometimes you need to put your feet on solid ground. Write out your blueprints plan your foundation then soar. You have been getting downloads where change is becoming a consistent subject matter. You are going to have to make the changes Spirit is asking of you, but you  got this. 

 Are you in denial? Are you realizing that disliking someone over lies has only caused you to feel  or face rejection. That path you are doggedly sticking to will not put you on a good vibe that soothes your soul path.  You might be sad and in your thoughts. Your thinking hard even thinking about the past and how you wish your parents would stay together. You are experiencing BIG lessons. Lessons that are causing you depression because you won't stop playing games. You can't even enjoy music because its telling on you. Every songs lyrics seem to describe your behavior, past actions or relationships.  What you think is being done in the dark or in your heart will be  told to those who are spiritually connected. You maybe angry because you can't manifest, but thats cuz your hearts not in the right place.  If you don't want the lesson's spirit is handing out then you need to stop the behavior that is bringing out the lessons.  Stop calling out to the Divine to stop you

 Someone feels like you give them wings and they soar because of you.  They have lied to you more than often, but you have often forgiven them right now thought the issue is you are walking away not giving them an opportunity to even ask for forgiveness again and they feel abandoned. This person knows you had your reasons, but they miss you the separation is hard. You always understood what they were going thru even if you didn't agree with their choices. This person is learning they don't truly know how to survive without you in their life. They know they trigger you with their behavior, but you make them feel lucky, so they keep coming to you even though they know it hurts you. The world is scary having you in the world kept them sane.  They just want you to come back. They will put excitement into your life if you let them. You are the thought that lures them to sleep at night, but then they fall asleep and have to fight their demons.  No more tricks for them, but they are c

 Someone knows you are a tarot reader and they think you are pulling cards on them. They don't know you don't have to pull cards. If Spirit wants you to know your gonna hear it. Thru music, tv, a book, etc. They don't want you to cry because of them. They want you to experience happiness even if its without them. The lessons they have learned because of this  may have hurt, but they taught them so much. They know they lack more than they have to offer.  They don't want just a one night stand they want you to themselves forever. They are trying to figure out the when and where they can sex you to get you to give in to them and they can dump their burdens on you.  Without you in their life they have felt cocooned. They are realizing that their childhood trauma have affected this relationship. They realize they need YOU not someone like you., but actually you and its hard for them to wrap their mind around. They really didn't see you. Every time they try to leave you t