Heart Song The Hearts Truth

You always wanted a balanced connection where you was seen and appreciated. You wanted love that emcompassed your whole world and yet you never found someone who wanted more then your heart. You sure as hell threw it around enough. Whats funny is you gained connections where the oppurtunity you desired was there, but you sabotaged it with your insecurity. You never took a chance because you thought there was always a better offer out there. The risk was losing your right now while looking for forever. You was strategic, but not with the right motives. Now you see you missed out on some good connections and that there isnt a chance for rebuilding those connections.You have learned that 3ed parties connections only lead to narissitic paradigms so you have gotten to a point you aren't looking for a healer in any connection no more bandaid relationships to keep your bleeding heart together. The time is now to heal alone to finally remove the rot fom your life.The cy

Are you as flexible as you think? Can you bend the knee and apologize? Can you tell the truth? Can you walk away if you dont get your way? Whatever was going on wasnt that innocent. Now you are kinda naked in the wind while changes occur. Stopping while you still have the ability to stop is the only way to halt this from going further. Things could have been prevented but being a menance was your goal. Right now you are vreating fake pages and troling the people you feel have left you out or left you behind while they moved on in life. You tried to keep these connections due to what you got by being linked. You cannot trick or bribe your way into their energy. You are willing to kiss ass to get these "piviliges". You want these connections badly. If you had good intentions I would encourage this pursuit, but you are in your ego. You see these connections severing their ties with you as a challange, but people do not have to stayed tied to you to be happy.

Message from your person: I'm working on myself. I have stepped out of the crazy and away from the ledge. I have some things I need to focus on. I have nothing to lie to you about. I won the lottery dealing with you. My girth is made to plant seeds in your earth. This aint no Romeo & Juliet bull shit connection. I am trying to prove myself to both of us. I want everyone to know you're mine. I knew you could hurt me so I ran from you. I flirted with others, but refuse to play games with them. My thoughts and prays werent with any one i was just raw dogging life. I had no good examples to follow so I created my own. Since I made my own rules how can I be bothered by the nonsense of our haters. Its like why focus on people who arent living day to day with me?? I am focused on you because you are someone who will bless my life daily. I can't be a god without my goddess. I had you and lost you. I want you back. Let's have adventures. In the past I didnt figure yo

Someone wants to tell you, I can weather any storm with you. I just want to put a lil excitement in your life. The world is scary, but knowing your in it keeps them sane. You make them feel lucky and lovely. You don't trigger them. That makes them feel so good. They wish you would reconnect with them. You can take care of yourself and they cant. They will never admit they did you wrong. Get in touch with feminine energy your most powerful in this energy. You have the ability to see the potential in anything. This spring this person wants to attempt to see you. They want to have the right to call you theirs. This person or people wants to work with you. They see how cool you are with the universe. They want your nourishing energy. They broke their own heart hurting you. You gave some of them wings and they only can soar because of you. Folks are mad because they won't get to continue in your energy in this lifetime or the next. They abused your boundaries. You are lettin

I hate when you raise your voice at me. I can't hear your words its just a rush of sounds my ears. On top of you being a ladies man I just didn't listen to myself and ended up somewhere that had me thinking I deserved this treatment. I felt I deserved to be left out. I thought I deserved to be depressed. I didn't realize my own self love would rescue me. I thought I loved me in the past, but I didn't I tolerated myself on occasion. I really hated myself. I felt I needed to put more work into myself becuase of what others told me. I didn't see the projections they was sending my way I took it all as heartfelt truths. I lived in the blackest of holes and gave anyone I precieved as being affected by me a wide berth to stay safe. I didn't realize people thought I was surpassing them I was just trying to survive. I spent so much time trying to avoid rejection I didn't force anyone to take accountablity for how they treated me. There was noone to turn to.

Something came in a flash and is leaving just as fast. You thought you had the game sewed up and you came to learn there is way mor to it. You didn't gain what you sought. You have lost the will to continue the fight you began so eagerly. Now is time to sit back and reap what you sewed there is no changing it now. You are going to be tossed better then a italian salad in a Nona's kitchen. Spirit is going to take their time. All that moon magic has a price. You looked to the skies and tried to ignore the star. Their is no solace for your choice. You felt you was the better choice. You didnt know enough. You could have had a ally. You thought you was stronger. You got fycked. Drinking is not going to help. Can you over come the storm heading your way no... but you can pick up he pieces afterward if you choose to. You aren't hearing any messages because you stopped listening like Saul and let envy enter your heart. If you only wanted to make a difference the

edit  Someone wants to take you out on a date. They want to get to know you on a different level. This person really wants to savor the moment with you because they feel every moment withyou is to fleeting. This person may hate sudden changes and the way you are moving now seems very sudden to them. You may have been a very people pleasing partner in the past and you no longer are doing that and your unconditional love feels very conditional. Your selflove has pushed your desire to be loved by certain individuals away. Being one with yourself has finnaly superceeded the need to hear about the so called love others had for you. You may have been heartbroken recent ly because of a connection. You had to not only seperate from the person but also from ypur emotions for a while becuse you felt you might drown. You went thru all the stages of loss and yet you still feel chained to those emotions. Until yu release and really go heal you cannot complete this transformation yoou are

Everyone is counting your pockets becuase they know you are moving up in the world. You are smarter than a lot of people give you credit for including me. I'm thankful that you encourage me to be myself. You allowed me to see the sky is the limit for my dreams. You are to intent on moving forward whether its across the country, state, or even the city wherever its not far enough. I see you and now I'm choosing to not give you a cold shoulder i am just fearful of being hurt. I have experienced a lot of pain and i do not want to come even close to it again. I don't want to be shackled to another session of healing. Its a bunch of bs. Noone should experience such pain in the first place, Relationships should not be up hill battles. Also allowing interferances leaves a hole in the heart that is hard to mend. The lies and misinformation i enjoyed was becuase it was wrapped in gentleness. If you was aware I was a predator you would have never gave me a chance but im not tha

I love myself more when im not around you. Im am more free. Being bound is no longer comfortable for my soul. I know better now. Some people do not deserve another chance with me and I know that with comfidence now. I know i deserve better than i was recieving from those around me. I know there are people who want to come back inot my life and that is something they will have to continue to deal with alone. Its not my problem. I tried to keep the door open and they refused to walk they, but now that the door is shut they are pounding on the door. I was good to them and they didn't acknowledge me. I will learn to keep my boundaries. If they try to make me feel guilty I won't listen. I have to learn to resist the pull of false connections. I have to remeber how empty they left me feeling. Promises of celbration won't pull me in. I have seen in the past that celebratory behavior only lasts for a season then I am put away until I am needed to solve another puzzle but when

I have no idea which way to go. I can't sleep. When I do see you I always feel like it's spring. Your spirit is so beautiful you had to have been here before.  I was scared to lose you and had magic used on you. I now know that from my dreams I didn't have to do that we are meant to be and I should have trusted our connection.  I know the Gods are blessing you. I am not like you. I am wicked like a Dark Fae. I know I made you feel like you had to hide parts of yourself from me. I'm so sorry love. I want to ask you what our song should be.  I know I'm trying to brush all the bad away, but it's because I am broken and I feel like I have to hide from you. I love you and I can't say it.  I'm losing you.  I don't care what anyone thinks or says I have to fight for this. Why won't you just let me love you? Why won't I let me just love you?  You are  Wonderful, empathic, intuitive, righteous, and determined. 

 You are surrounded by stars, but I’m not sure you realize you are the biggest star among them. You shine bright and you stand out. You are starting to see evidence of your Empress energy. You are no longer fighting to be relaxed you are just going with the flow. You have found that peace in your feminine energy  instead of the pressure of your masculine energy. The fruits of your labor are coming to fruition and you are starting to see it.  You used to fight so hard to make things come to pass and you had others fighting you to stop you from going down your path. The more you fought the less you was able to move forward. You put away your sword and your trying to use your words and you have found they cut even deeper then any fight could  cause. There are power in words use them cautiously, but figure out the balance and utilize it to your best ability.

 I want to drink and smoke and pick your brain. I need to know if you know we are meant to be as well? I stop letting you be the catalyst in my life and my spirit seemed to die. I have been acting childish like I didn’t know better. I resented how close you was to me, or that you knew me so well that I couldn’t get away with stuff.  I want you to look at me like Royalty.  I’m gonna take you in a date your eyes are going to be so big. I’m going to have you gasping with surprise cuz I got it like that. I feel like Ive always know when you start crying. I hope you are crying now cuz you hurt me walking bout I can’t come home when I want to.   I will fight you and who ever you are dating.  I even hate the rain now it makes me think of you waiting on me getting sadder and sadder which makes me madder like I have to keep my word when I say I am on my way.  When you finally accept you are mine I will be picking out your clothes. If I’m going to give you my heart you have to toe the line and j

 Karmic Auntie- This Auntie does not like your intuition. You manage to avoid all the spears she throws at you. You are good looking as well and they really don’t like that. You are flexible with your thinking quick witted. She thinks you feel your above her and others she cares for. Yet she feels like her heart goes out to you. To her you are the meaning of when pigs fly. You don’t make sense to her. This Aunt feels like you are just giving your gifts away. If she was you she would be rich and famous your doing things for free stupid child. 

 Overflow it's  coming that abundance you want is coming. That extra umph you need is here. Stop getting frustrated you have been putting in the work. You have let go of alot of connections that no longer serve you. You are seeking healing for yourself. No, longer trying to please others. You are taking care of yourself  mind, body, and soul. You aren't letting no-one sabotage this self love affair. Now if someone wants to be in your presence that they have to show you by action. Its all about timing. When the time is right Spirit will send you to your final first time Love. You got this!!! Its only solo for a little while longer. You are definitely showing the world what being a BLACK sheep means and your partner will be about that same energy. They won't try to hold you back or sabotage you. They will be your warrior. They won't take chances without discussing it. They will show you a love that goes back to the first moment of the very first love.   They won't put

 It's time to hang out with your peers. You need to relax with your peers and release the burdens you have been shouldering ( alone for most of you) It's time to begin living in the moment and have some fun. I am getting this is for All of you and especially for you single Aquas.  You have been seeking a unconditional love a  "not ordinary love"  and you have been letting other stuff fall to the wayside.  It's time for you to focus and put forth some effort into your dreams. Your Ancestors didn't die to be carrying your loads in they afterlife. They are willing to support and even fight, but this time they are asking you to step up as well. Make your voice known.  As long as you keep the faith you will receive the love you desire. Someone is hesitating about inviting you somewhere, but they are going to push past their fears and contact you. Thru mail, email, text... I'm not getting phone call they are too scared. You can't be scared too!!!  You both b

From your person ( friend/lover/ex), I stopped drinking.  I wanted to dream with you and then make them a reality. I love your f'ing vibe. Your love soothed my mind it was so easy to be with you. You are my butterfly. I want forever!!! I was fighting this connection,but the harder I fight the more I love you. I just need a opportunity to to tell you how I feel. I need you to hold me down. No one will be able to seperate us if you accept me back.  I just want to climb thru your windows and take you away from the pain you have suffered. My goal is to marry you. Im taking my time because I want to get it right. I see you growing and I love it. You are no longer suffering from depression.  I love seeing that smile of yours full of wonder and light.  Would you please come back???  I know I need to learn how to survive without you, but Imma say it now....I don't want to... ever. I spend all day and night thinking of you dreaming of you. Wishing all my hopes and desires for us come tr

You to Them: Hey, I don't want to demean you ever. I'm not your enemy, but I am over it! No more do I want " happily ever after " with you. You are part of my past that needs to heal. I am trying to get my head right mediating and exercising getting closer to my higher self,  I know I have to focus on my legacy, so I am taking better care of myself in all areas of my life if its toxic it HAS to go. I know there are haters, i don't choose to focus on that. No one can stop what the Divine has for me. Folks are acting like getting to me is easy as crossing the Serengeti. Just as hard as you use try to get to me, they have to work twice as hard. I learned a lot from dealing with you.  I want to go to Mexico. I just want to be far away from y'all drama. When I disappear it's cuz I/m trying to conserve my energy.  If I don't see any of you again in this lifetime, I wouldn't mind. I'm trying to have more than a average existence. Angel Numbers: 1212,2

To: them From you: Hey, I don't want to demean you, I'm not your enemy, but I am over it. No more do I want "happy ever after" with you. You are part of past that needs to heal. I am trying to get my head right meditating and exercising, getting closer to my higher self. I know i have to focus on my legacy taking better care of myself in all areas of my life. If it is toxic it has to go. I know there are haters in your life and mine, but I don't chose to focus on that. No one can stop what Divine has for me. Folks are acting like getting to me is as easy as crossing the Serengeti. Just as hard as you have to work they have to double that effort and many will still fall short.  I learned a lot from dealing with you. I want to go to Mexico as far away as i can get from you and your drama.  When I disappear it's because I am conserving my energy. if I don't see you or anyone we know again tell the maybe next life time. For you at least I wouldn't mind tha

 Are you in denial? Are you realizing that disliking someone over lies has only caused you to feel  or face rejection. That path you are doggedly sticking to will not put you on a good vibe that soothes your soul path.  You might be sad and in your thoughts. Your thinking hard even thinking about the past and how you wish your parents would stay together. You are experiencing BIG lessons. Lessons that are causing you depression because you won't stop playing games. You can't even enjoy music because its telling on you. Every songs lyrics seem to describe your behavior, past actions or relationships.  What you think is being done in the dark or in your heart will be  told to those who are spiritually connected. You maybe angry because you can't manifest, but thats cuz your hearts not in the right place.  If you don't want the lesson's spirit is handing out then you need to stop the behavior that is bringing out the lessons.  Stop calling out to the Divine to stop you

 This weekend someone is coming your way wanting to drape you in elegance. They are having you think about the pain in their past. It shaped them into the person they are now. That is the problem for them. They don't want to be who they are now. Change is coming and they want to accept it with open arms.  They are just scared it wont stick. They feel  confidence is key in healing this.  They feel like they are being chased to you. You impress them with your heart and kindness. You bring emotions to their lives. Without you they feel blank. They know what it is like to be alone and after meeting you they know they dont want to go back. They are trying to be respectful they want you.  They sense a death coming and a rebirth of who you are and they want to be part of it. You bring comfort and peace, the idea of home for them is you.