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Play games with your mama not me!

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You want to come in telling lies. You want to have sex. You would willingly be a whore for me to get what I have cuz you're too lazy to put in work in something real that would be lasting for you. You didn't appreciate that they don't make them like me no more. You were to focussed on what I had and what others saw as valueable in me instead of seeing me. I tried to heal the wounds in you that others caused and you kept hurting me. So I walked away and you have the nerve to be begging for me back. I gave you all the freedom in the world and you bound me. You attacked me and had others join in at blocking my life. You dont see me, but you see my financial worth. Fuck you and your emotional, physical, and finacial abuse. Noone has time for someone with so much self hate that they project it on others. Go on and be with people who dont value you or themselves. Misery loves company and this person was throwing the biggest pity party. Spiritually attacking

Sekhmet

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Someone wants axcess to whats on your mind, what your plans are and who you are planning to do things with. They want to make your connection permanent. They feel all the turmoil and drama you both have overcome is definitely making you stronger and bringing you both together. They feel you always come back tgether due to the Universe having a higher plan for you both. This person has been forced to face some big truths and how they manage is the last test for coming together with you. This maybe a childhood sweetheart, but they haven't grown up with you. Something kept them stagnant and now they are rushing to try and finally grow up. You are so smart. Thru that itelligence you are seeing that it was never about you it ws laways others projecting their behavior on you. Your love and friendship could not be measured. You operated in love and goood faith and others shitted on your kindness, When you pull that away from people they are lost and thirstying for any in

4th house

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In astrology, the fourth house is associated with home, family, and heritage. It can also represent a person's relationship with their maternal figure and their outlook on domesticity. The fourth house is located at the base of the natal chart and is associated with the energy of Cancer. The Moon is the planet associated with the fourth house, but some say that Earth is a more logical choice because it represents our home. The fourth house can reveal a person's early home memories and experiences. The fourth house can represent a person's relationships with family, whether by blood or choice. The fourth house can rule over a person's overall domestic condition.The fourth house can represent the final outcome of a situation. Planets moving across the fourth house can encourage a person to invest in their infrastructure by creating more private spaces. Somethings arent changing no matter the new atmosphere because it is the people not the place. You want n

Scorpio

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You have wakened up and being unaware to all that is happening has gotten you caught up. You do not see yourself surving this pit you have gotten dragged into. NO rebirth after everything burns down you just see death and destruction. You had hopes of partnership and growth, but you disrupted other peoples happinness in order for you to obtain it. Ok so you was hurting and lost does that give you the right to attack others? Seperation and devestation are now all that will be on your plate. The hurt and triangulation you participated in you will now suffer a similar trauma. Love was yours and now it will flee from you just as you chose to flee from it. Think love bombing and ghosting.. that will be your new bread and butter. You have played the rule of the other and have found you enjoy it. Once you have a connection you dislike it and that is not ok for others to experience they are not mice and you arent a cat. You kept trying to show other people who they were but

You are leading me towards eternal loneliness for the cost of love

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Sometimes you need to be careful what you wish for because felonious behaviour is on the rise. Someone wants that Romeo & Juliet love, but they seemed to forget Romeo was a fuck boy who literally was whining about Roslyn minutes before meeting Juliet. Fickle. No, I am not saying anything about love at first sight cuz I do believe in it but the whole point of the play was to teach about rushing into things and that is what you are being warned about. You wont be the Queen/King to a Karmic. This person is watching you.They know they have hurt you. You might be posting on a platform about it or maybe they just know. They are giving you the space to walk away or stay. Their throat chakra blocked jealousy, overly defensive, codependant, reclusive, you talk to much, tell lies, gossip, secretive, and shy. You need to get a amulet or ring or bracelet something you will never remove. Bless it and put it on. This person really wants to reconcile. They know that there is a

The path of temptation is family led

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Somone refuses to admit they intentionally lead their family member down a path of destruction. That they triangulated the whole family to gaslight and enable this family member into maintaing their bad behavior becuase the goal was noble( in their eyes). If this family member had died finally their family would have nice things to tell others about them. The level of barely disguised hate however cleverly hidden stood out to the ones who want to protect this poor (well they had a hand in their own destruction so maybe nieve?) soul. You was one of those protectors due to you wanting to just be there for them. You want to talk to this person about what their family has been involved in. The problem is you can't force them to discuss, but you can be there for them. You don't have to have words you just have to be kind. Your person is waking up to the deception and games being played in their name by family in hopes o

Cancer - Vedic

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You are still sitting on your throne, but you are weaponless to defend yourself. You are dressed for the part, but its who you are not what your trying to be. You spend to much time pouring out into others and not enough pouring into yourself. You are trying to get out of a contract that has you feeling less then royal. This contract has not brought the abundance and happiness you anticipated. You see others celebrating and you are trying to stack and it seems as if things are slipping between your fingers. You want to celebrate but dont feel its the right time. You aren't the karmic but you are not their soulmate either. You are always over sensitive and argumenative. You have been trying to stimulate a change and its not happening. You stink to someone. You are overly depressed. You have left a lot to be desired in your connections. Your looking for miracles and they are not coming. You are realizing you have no vibe and you have been hiding in others identie

being in touch can hurt

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You want to talk more. You are waiting to hear from your beloved. You might be holding on tight to your electronics just waiting. Your false twin kept you unbalanced, There was no duality between yall. You are so greateful that your connection is over. You arent going back you are seeking a new connection. You want to graw and transform and in your past that seemed to be undermined by anyone who knew you for too long. Your future connection will end in union and wedded bliss. Do not worry this love is built on eternal promises. You will be getting a call soon from someone hoping to connect. This call will be the one you have been waiting for they will tell you that you have been on their heart. This past energy is lacking confidence, they are frustrated with themselves. They are always self sabotaging due to ego and insecurity.Their jealousy is tangible. They play games and think you dont notice. They have been holding back and blame it on you when really its their tr

Man i dunno

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You are running and not looking back to get away from a certain connection. This person is codependant and is only holding on to the connection in order to have a come up. They have undealt childhood traumas and refuse to deal with their abandonment issues. You are trying to be in a lighthearted energy. You are a seeking a new light a new oppurtunity to adapt and change your mindset and that is beautiful. Like a butterfly you have a way of bringign newness just being. You just want to heal. You seeking abundance and trying to have a healty mindset in the midst of all the upheaval of ssevering this connection. You have gratitude from the lessons that have come with the connection. You just want bliss. You just want to heal from the heartbreak this connection has called you. You want freedom from the high levels of toxicity you want a relationship not a addiction. If this was a engagement or a marriage you are trying to end it as amicable as possible. You may eve

kicked the habit that is you

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Normally I am the hunter prepared for any type of prey. Usually I come after people becuase of what they have. I set my eyes on them and i always hit my shot. Yet, lately I just want to make my own. I want to be able to say I did it myself. I want to know that you know that means my money will be slower. I want to evolve and in my present circumstances I don't see the possiblity of healing. I spent a lot of time chasing our connection. I was so codependant terrified that if I didnt fix our connection there would be no connection to have. I knew i couldnt turn to my friends to find solace. Living in the moment wasnt going to save me when i was drowning in our connection. I needed time to be my best self and i allowed societies pressures to dictate how i made that happened. Progress was more important than growth and refuse to embrace the idea that the paradigm of our connection was always wrong. The lack of healthy choices in our connection trickled to other conne

angel numbers

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Responsibility and teamwork. Your angels are happy with the achievements you have made in life in the past. They are proud of you because of the effort you have been putting into your work. ~920 You are balanced, harmonious, and peaceful in all areas of your life. Keep the faith & stand strong in your personal truths. ~222 Your life will become more interesting. You will be adventurous, and you'll find interest in things that were previously boring. However for you to enjoy these benefits, you must find the truth that fits you.

working my way towards you

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Someone is not feeling confident. They do not feel like you will allow them to getto know you. They are all in their feelings completely unsure how to come to you. They are begginning to have hope. The bad in their life is starting to dissapate. With this change in their emotional weather they are trying to not let their world go topsy turvey. In being more in tune with their emotions they are acknowledging they will always be Royal. If there is a masculine involved someone is upset with them. You had no more hope and then they came along and lifted you. ooooh. This masculine wants to know are you still down? They want to give you all their time. They have taken the time to get to know them selves so they will not lose themselves in you or anybody else. They see how much they are like you and they want to embrace you but at this moment they know there is no forward movement is the postion they are involved in. This masculine is striving to kearn to wear their heart on their slee

General Message

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Someone is waiting for money to come in. A promotion was supposed to be heading your way and there has been some interferance. You may be looking at job sites preparing for moving to a better oppurtunity. There was to much drama at your workplace and you are just trying to work. You are teachiing folks, showing them new ways and folks are reaching out to you and desiring more from you. You may be under attack having suicidal thouhgt out of nowhere. Do not fret they are not your thoughts and emotions it is projection from foks who do not want to see you win. You know that you aren't perfect and aren't trying to be anyhing more than who you are. The people upset with you for healing they wanted you to dry in your tears. You make history just showing up. Your life has been shaped by ptsd and yet your still loving and kind. You have severed ties that were attempting to blow up your spot. What you have going is so beautiful and you make people think of you. People want to be in

Dueces

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I need a partner not a liablity. I need you to understand if you come back. Your insecurities cannot and will not stop me from growing. With you there was always a piece missing and I was always waiting for it to fall in place. We just kept moving forward with no actual change or growth in our connection. I had no bliss with you because you never wanted it with me. At this point in time i am ready to throw hands with you rather than be with you. Youmake me feel horrible about myself. I choose bad habits inorder to cope with hw much I hated how weak I felt because of you. Forget the knees make you weak kisses they are lies. I have meditated and prayed and i'm trying to model a better mindset and behavior to myself. I know longer will compromise with you or anyone like you. I am beautiful inside and out and you can't take that from me anymore. No more insecurites about my hair, body, or skin tone. You won't be the reason why I hate me. This particular door is locke

Distant family or Friend message to Divine Masculine

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Someone told us to watch you. What made you change up? Was it really Divine Feminine? You don't need that nerd. All you need to do is grind a little harder. Kiss some ass and you might get aead faster. You don't need her. If you set your sight higher you could get it. Stop telling her everything! She knows way to much without your assistance. Everything we have done to stop her from reconnecting with you and everything doesn't stop either of you. We know that its a pointless battle but we still try. We just wont be happy seeing you two together. We don't like that she encourages you to be yourself. You lost is you mallable and we need you that way to control your money, your addictions, your connections.

Divine Feminines female elder (sister,mother,aunt, grandmother) got something to say to Divine Masculine

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You need help or something? You already know how she feels. You can feel her in your soul. I hoped you would devestate her and leave her broken. I was hoping you would give her something incurable you know bring her down to where she belongs. Why should her heart heal? Mine never did. You know what come on over here I'll put this grown woamn on you and you wont want her anymore. I need someone to pick me over her!!!I'm going to make a move on you that child doesnt know what to do with a real man. I dont see my age I think I'm young and more desirable. I watched you walk away from that child to your destruction and i cheered. All the bad luck i couldnt create for her i wished on her. Losing you was just the creme of the crop. I laughed at all your dalliances because they cut her to the core. When you fought i hoped you would yell to trigger her. All the kind things you would do for her made me sick. Why was she getting a doting lover and i had noone? I wish you was my ma

I'm sorry but i fucks with you the long way

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Will you forgive me? Let me prove that you are important. Your happiness is paramount Your presence is pressure. People have been coming against you, but they have no idea this is all about to blow up in their face. I am so sorry. I am sorry I hurt you. I truly do fuck with you the long way. I am not on my Donell Jones I know where I want to be. I love how vulnerable i feel with you. I had no idea that vulnerablity could equal safety and be a symptom of love. ou got some boundaries up and i want to cross all them cuz who the fuck do you think you are, but i had to think about it. My partner better be able to tell me no and I respect it. Why woud I get mad at your boundaries unless its a me problem?? Im so much more healed then before. Although I know it seems like I'm just saying stuff, but i truly do mean it. I have no intution right now. Im walking blind. I know its been a long time since we have seen each other, but i thought i had more time before I came your way. Look

Boom Boom Shake SDhake

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I'm feeling a little insecure right now. I don't feel like I have enough to give. I hate feeling that way. I don't know how to get past it. I tried to think about it and I keep hitting a brick wall. I want to talk to you. You have this perspective that makes everything clear. I know if I explain my past and my present you can guide me to my future. Once i have that info I will be in alignment. I know right now you don't want me in your energy. You are teaching me to take care of myself. I didn't see the real you a lot of people didnt see the real you and you have forced us all to go within and now many of us see with new eyes now. Your inner beauty blossoms out of you like a fragrant flower. I don't have to dig to see anymore you are the up to my down beat. I dream of touching you from the inside out I want to heal you. I want to be your comfort. You have given me so much and I see you are all I need and pleasing you in every way is how I will show you.

you are my bestie

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People have no idea how lucky they are to have you in their lives. I'm quitting the street life just to keep you in my life. You are my childhood sweetheaart and I can't imagine a world without you in it especially mine. If we have soul ties then call me bound. Everyone is so quick to shit on what we have, but they dont understand what we have I can't disrespect you like I do everyone else cuz your me thats why its so effortless to love you loving you is loving me. Lots of people break up and cant come back years later there is to much pain and and dead issues that there just isnt energy to unbury. Yet for us it comes down to action. Communicating is our strongest glue and I have learned to love it. 444. You don't beat around the bush with me and you rarely lie. Yeah you with hold a lot, but in your mind what is the point in telling me if I cant help why worry me and I want to say to you I want to learn to help.I appreciate you trying to keep the weight off my shoulde

I swear I am trying

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I've put in so much work and have nothing to show for it. At least with a job your 401k will pay out eventually. I 've been trying to stay low key but i want to play for keeps with you. Noone knows how I feel about you about us because i refuse to discuss you. I want to contact you but you have me blocked. I thought by now you would unblock me and be forgiving. I see you for who you really are when before i thought you was a totally different person. I thought walking away would make both our lives happier. I know time is up. I messed up a lot and you should've left me long ago. We were promised a lifetime ago that we werent to be togther. I want to dedicate my heart to you. I want a fufilling life you. I want to create a healthier legacay for both of our families. As frustrated I am i am so focused on you and making life what you always deserved. I want to see you soon. I want to protect you from getting hurt anymore. I know i want to dream with you and create a new