Heart Song The Hearts Truth

You want to come in telling lies. You want to have sex. You would willingly be a whore for me to get what I have cuz you're too lazy to put in work in something real that would be lasting for you. You didn't appreciate that they don't make them like me no more. You were to focussed on what I had and what others saw as valueable in me instead of seeing me. I tried to heal the wounds in you that others caused and you kept hurting me. So I walked away and you have the nerve to be begging for me back. I gave you all the freedom in the world and you bound me. You attacked me and had others join in at blocking my life. You dont see me, but you see my financial worth. Fuck you and your emotional, physical, and finacial abuse. Noone has time for someone with so much self hate that they project it on others. Go on and be with people who dont value you or themselves. Misery loves company and this person was throwing the biggest pity party. Spiritually attacking

Right now you are about to make a decision that is going to changed the path you are on and you feel completely justified in your movements. Youknow you aint been the best but you aint been the worse so the karma you are getting is deserved and you are accepting it. I mean really its not something you can run from. Ypu played the game of flesh and lost badly. You didn't get the connection didn't make it to your happily ever after becuase you couldn't ever get on the same page with this person for to long. You even tried magic to fix it ( prayers are magic too). Problem was you ws cheating at work and when you was out with friends and they was doing similar things. Their ws never integrity for long periods of time. I am not going to say their is no remorse but there is more blame and disappointment then anything. You see it now and you refuse to stay in a karmic cycle you deserve to be happy.

They have kept us apart long enough. I have done enough research to know you are the real deal. I see a abundant life with you. I run these streets but you run my sheets. There is something you dont see coming and Im excited you arent expecting it. I ambuilding something big for us. I am going to need your help. Karma has been kicking my ass. You have a way of doing things that make me want to cater to you. I want to give you gatorade when your tummy aches. I want to take a social media break with you just shut it all off and immerse ourselves in each other. You are going to ruin my surprise though. You are so in the know with the spirit you might "hear" my plans before I even make them. I didnt confess my love and that is why I missed out on you and why I'm trying so hard to make my way back. I know I can't do this without you. I am no longer hesitant. I see the simliarites in our life. You are unexpected blessing andI'm not planning on letytin

You are safe first and foremost. Anyone who is triggered by your peace and happiness cant have axcess to you.They cant piss on your dreams. Start speaking your truth. The syncrincites is speaking to you. The hurdles are almost all gone. You have one person whose loyalty is divided and will try to stop you. They will try to introduce negativities ( negative activities) into your life to distract you but you have survived all these karmic lessons you won't fall in the trap. You might need a lawyer for whatever decisions your making. Its ok o talk to those you truat about your situation. Whomever is trying to cause destruction in your life is about to recieve their just desserts. They're actually watching you hoping all goes bad. Their spiritual protection is gone and folks is wanting to know why you arent around. This person or people they can't understand how you got out of all the traps they set for you. This person has projected so much negativity to

Your heart has been set free. Your abuser/s can no longer axcess you. They can try to apply their version of pressure but it aint gonna work. They have no idea the bloodline they fucking with. They been praying to God asking HIM to curse you like a whole ass weirdo. This/ese abuser/s has/ve the nerve to cry about the lost of this connection. They will say they have been abused and thats why they behave as they do. Anything they can do to get back in your good graces they will do. They are willing to let you attack them. They know they would have been safe with you. You gave them wings and made them feel special. They are a trickster/s don't believe them.They are going to come back saying the sweetest things. They will tell you they are fighting their demons. That they want to finally deleve into who you are. They will proclaim they want your happiness above all else while behind the scenes they are undermining you. You being in a happy relationship made them sick with jealousy.

You a go getter and you arent appreciated. You are tired of codependant connections. You are tired of being stepped on and its time to sartt applying the lessons you have learned. Learning to hold your tongue and not wast your enerhy has been such a big step in your heealing. You are no longer a liar, chedater, or theft but you are still connected to those in this energy. You cant move on till you let go. Its time to go back to school. You are thirsting for knowledge its there at your finger tips. You ar not in a mental prison unless you want to be. You hold the keys to your mental cell. Its ok to let go of false connnections and. embrace thereal. The only way for Karma to not kick your ass is to be working with karma. All your past behavior has to go. Either change or get left behind by time. You can have the connections where you will be safe. Once you become a safe person to be around. Stop being so materlistic YOU are the reason you arent married not anyone else.

I have my own feelings to sort out. I am still in love with you and yet I'm ready to walk away. I am tired of losing you to you. this relationship is rootless.  No where do I find solace.  I want to take a step forward to show you my forward movement. I am tired of both of being attackef. if you can't protect me then I guess I'll protect you.  Together we were Gods and yet you Zesus/Hera'd me. We need to gas this connection like Dat indica I like so much. Find a place where we will find like-minded ground and come back to a place of faith.  Like Aneese sings you are my sunny day. I don't like who I am when i turn against you. I hurt my self when I'm not with you. You completely complete me and I'm not the old me anymore.

I need a partner not a liablity. I need you to understand if you come back. Your insecurities cannot and will not stop me from growing. With you there was always a piece missing and I was always waiting for it to fall in place. We just kept moving forward with no actual change or growth in our connection. I had no bliss with you because you never wanted it with me. At this point in time i am ready to throw hands with you rather than be with you. Youmake me feel horrible about myself. I choose bad habits inorder to cope with hw much I hated how weak I felt because of you. Forget the knees make you weak kisses they are lies. I have meditated and prayed and i'm trying to model a better mindset and behavior to myself. I know longer will compromise with you or anyone like you. I am beautiful inside and out and you can't take that from me anymore. No more insecurites about my hair, body, or skin tone. You won't be the reason why I hate me. This particular door is locke

I need a partner not a liablity. I think you are perfect for me please. I have abandonment issues and I know that can be irritating in the long term of dealing with someone but its not all crying internally I promise. In the next little while you will see some changes and I hope that you aill accept the change. I know that I will have to kiss your ass but I'm not overthinking it. I see the innocence in your heart and i want to protect that at all costs. I want to pray more about us but I don't know what to say or who to even talk to. Do you pray for us? Do you pray that our love changes from the toxic pit that it is right now? I want you to feel safe and i know that i actually make youfeellike there is pie on your face. I apologize that i keep acting up. I dont want a superficial life with you and right now thats all we could have because I am scared to dig deep. I want to be with you so bad. I don't want nor need more lessons in love they hurt especially the ones I

Maybe I just want you to show me your focused. Your not listening to me anymore becuase I steered you toward Karmic partners. You found a extra ordinary love and i convinced you to walk away from it. I wanted a connection like you found. I wanted to be as happy as your feminine was and I hated her for finding that joy in my chikd. I know when you figure this all out you will walk away. You will recognize my jealousy and envy caused stumbling blocks in yor life. I abused you for not being my divine masculine and being better to this divine feminine then most men treat any women. I understand that you see she kept me close until she could safely pull away. I figure she finally felt strong enough. She told me about my gossiping ways I didnt understand she clearly understood my actions and reasoning. I want to heal things if you both will allow me. I dont wnat to lose you. I know i have to learn to keep my hands out your pockect its been selfish of me and encouraging you to neglect the

I am sorry. I put to much attention towards making a profit and failed to put any effort towards you. I chose to go towards other things instead of chasing you. I neglected to see the fabulous person you was and instead chose to see the persona others projected on you. I chose to be in the streets in others sheets when i had you at home waiting to make me happy. I thought i was glorius . I didn't realize it was your shine reflecting off me. Once you left my life just was up and down it was like consistancy abandoned me. I left a stable person and introduced chaos into their life and judged when i had no room to judge. I started arguements to cover my behavior. I felt that making you feel small would boost me and keep me feeling like a god/ddess instead of like the unworthy bug you revealed me to be. I didn't want to face my darkness then you came in and lit every fake part up. I hadn't realized how much was fraudulant about the life I was leading. Being with you made m

Someone tried to keep something hiddden.They felt the world was spinning just for them. Right now there is fighting as truths come out. Nothing is going their way. When every thing was always a win now there is offense and defense at all times. The emotions are running high, but a truth is coming . This truth brings so much abundance to you and noone can stop what is coming. You are thinking for yourself and nothing or noone is going to hinder that. Your health is getting better or you are getting over a cold. For some of you healing from a std scare has thrown you for a whirl. You arent in this world so figuring out the humans is just a lot sometimes especially cheating partners. Just keep healing and keep on forgiving and releasing. You are going to get to a point where you will sto worrying that you are on the right path. You will look up one day unable to imagine yourself doing anything else. Illicit paths will be offered more often becuase bringing you down will become a

Winter time a relationship will be coming to a end. Someone no longer wants to play for keeps. To many people have been involved in this situation and it had gone no where fast. These people are sending you messages trying to get your attention to get back into your energy. Just keep blocking and moving forward. Don't listen to the pleas becuase they aren't genuine. Soon as you bolster this person or people up they will abandon you again. You have torn between two groups your whole life but you was put there by people why didnt want you on either side. You was just a excuse for two or more sets of evil people to prove their dominance in a battle that didnt exist. You have become the reason you get up in the morning. You realized having a outside reason eventual fell off foryou either due to adhd or vibes.Its not perfect you still get down in the dumps and gloomy occasionally but over all you like you more and that changes so much of your life perspective. You have loved

How many drinks will it take for you to sit still and let me talk to you? I have to tell you how I feel. I keep trying to talk to you thru music, but your not talking back. You are my Angel on this barren Earth. I just need a chance to show you I have changed. You won't be a secret this time. I should have never treated some of the people I wined and dinde so well they didn't deserve a quarter of the attention and affection I gave them. I surrounded myself with fake people and reaped all kinds of karma. I thought i was moving the right way. I didn't see that when my life was going well was cuz you was in my life. I thought things would be bad but once you was gone it would get 10 times worse. You was shielding me from so much karma just taking the hits and pressing forward. You accepted life unfiltered so I could wear rose ccolored glasses never turning my eye to the devastation I was leaving behind. You was the only one to call me out over and over about how I was affect

People have no idea how lucky they are to have you in their lives. I'm quitting the street life just to keep you in my life. You are my childhood sweetheaart and I can't imagine a world without you in it especially mine. If we have soul ties then call me bound. Everyone is so quick to shit on what we have, but they dont understand what we have I can't disrespect you like I do everyone else cuz your me thats why its so effortless to love you loving you is loving me. Lots of people break up and cant come back years later there is to much pain and and dead issues that there just isnt energy to unbury. Yet for us it comes down to action. Communicating is our strongest glue and I have learned to love it. 444. You don't beat around the bush with me and you rarely lie. Yeah you with hold a lot, but in your mind what is the point in telling me if I cant help why worry me and I want to say to you I want to learn to help.I appreciate you trying to keep the weight off my shoulde

I'm on my way to talk to you. I'm not trying to text you all of this. I have a lot to say and I hope you are willing to listen to me. There has been a lot of interferance in our connection and i just need to clear everything up. I hate this up hill battle i feel we have been fighting for what seems like forever. I know I act like this stuff is easy to get over but i really just bury all of it deep down. I know i should have learned from my past faster, but the lessons took me so long to understand let alone learn from. So i let all my traumas keep me trapped. I stepped beack from you because i had to see where my head was where i fit in when it comes to your life. Do i add to you or am I a burden? Being so far from you makes me wonder and fear what you are feeling about me. I try to send you good vibes because ai want you to be ok evenif i am not with you. They say the sky is the limit but if there was no sky you are my limit. I'll do what ever it takes to reach you

 You are wise, handy with nature, strong physically and mentally. You are overflowing with abundance. You have crafted something you have put time and effort into it. You have searched near and far to gain the knowledge to be able to create. You have gone to the depths of your very being killing off the old you and then being being reborn to reach higher heights. You have seen all that the world has to offer and you saw that only one path is right for you and your moving towards it. You are paying your debts and balancing the scales of karma. Soon you will be able to give like you was given to. The community you seek is coming towards you. The happiness you have sought is within reach you just need to start living like you already have it. You are the author and creator of your destiny no one can shake the foundation unless you allow them. You are not giving out of a empty cup anymore. You have learned that you can’t give what you don’t have to give and right now is your time to be rep

 You are not accepting empty offers anymore. You are only accepting that which you have made yourself. You have survived often being poisoned by those close to you and though you have built up a immunity you still choose to do things yourself.  You might be bonding with a pet more or you are looking to get a pet. It’s your spirit looking to bond with another being while you become more balanced. Like a animal finds peace in the midst of wild places so must you find peace in the wild parts of you. You can be the Emperor or Empress of yourself  if you get out of that slow moving knight energy and move pass being leader of a kingdom and be a leader of nations. Recognize the strength within you.   It’s ok for you to step towards challenges versus being overwhelmed by them and having to figure out the problem as it occurs. It’s time for preventative fighting and protecting and the way to start is to know what you really are fighting for. Then why must you fight? Once you have those answers

 The battles you have been defending yourself against are slowly ending. You are about to experience peace after so many years of unrest. You may have been confused on the out look of a relationship, just keep on doing what you are doing and you will be surprised that the relationship you desire will appear where you least expect.  Right now is a time for you to ask yourself why you are not jumping into things feet first.  The opportunity to see where you might not be as prepared or balanced and gaining wisdom from learning to apply that knowledge to practical purpose is now. You have all the maps, Apps,  gps and hand written instructions to get you to your life and you have your heart desires to learn 

You have been feeling defeated like you was stuck in a battle and you was surrounded; down to your last weapon and no one near to have your back. You have started praying looking for a answer because you don’t want to keep wrestling with the monster holding you back from your cups.  You will look up and see that the answers are coming your way. You have worked hard strived to get to this point and the abundance you seeked is flowing towards you. Your cups are going to be over flowing just keep being patient. You are strongly getting repaid for what you have put into the world. Brace your self abundance is on the way.