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First House

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In astrology, the first house is the most personal part of a birth chart and is associated with the self. It's also known as the house of self. The first house is defined by the rising sign, or ascendant, and is ruled by Mars, the planet of action, energy, and anger. The first house can provide insight into a person's outward In astrology, the first house is  the most personal part of a birth chart and is associated with the self . It's also known as the house of self.   The first house can provide insight into a person's outward appearance, traits, characteristics, outlook, and sense of expression.   The first house can provide clues to how a person's personality may evolve in the future. When planets in the sky transit into the first house, goals are manifested, and new projects, ideas, or perspectives take form. The rising sign is the sign whose characteristics a person adopts at birth and expresses naturally. For example, a Capricorn rising person is thought...

Aries Moon

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Don't you see me? I am waiting here for your love. I am not trying to push, but I want it bad! I am willing to do so much just give me the oppurtunity. If you give me the oppurtunity I would be so happy. If I was so honest with myself I want to marry you. I know being with you would be a new adventure everyday. I've done some things and I am facing the consequences. Good or bad I am facing all my karma and I am ok with it because I deserve it. It doesn't matter I am coming back to you with my heart in my hands hoping you take it back and hold it safe for me. I can't change my past but my future is set and I'm moving toward it. I have a confession that might make you turn away fromme. I had a baby(babies) I don't know yet if I am responsible but until I do I am owning my responsiblity and Ihope it wont push you away. I have a lot to tell you and yet I still won't be able to divulge my full truth. My truth wil set me free but it might ma...

You are more perceptive than you think

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Someone wanted to be out there in the streets. They thought you was gonna be so head over heels in love that no matter they did you would just keep on being forgiving and letting them back into your life. They shoved others in your face, bragged about how they never did for you, demeaned and bullied you and they have the nerve to be mad that you want nothing to do with them. You was supposed to be the ride or die. You was supposed to be crying, weeping and begging for the crumbs of their attention. You was supposed to be weak, permissive and loyal. Now they see you as a liar. You can't just walk away unless you never cared. You never really cared because you can't put real emotions aside the way you are doing so easily. They are literally having withdrawals without axcess to your energy. Some maybe sick, some might be experiencing mental breakdowns just really emotionally imbalanced. Which is exactly what they wanted for you to experience. All the pain you experienced in thi...

Virgo/ Artha

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In Vedic astrology, Artha is a concept that refers to the material security and economic prosperity of a person and those they are responsible for. Artha is associated with three houses in a birth chart: the second, sixth, and tenth houses. The sixth house is ruled by Virgo, which is the sign of health and routines. You miss the way someone effected your life. Your in pain now and there is no way to reconnect.You thought copying someone else would gain you the happiness you saw in them. You saw love as a attack or gloating and it was just how someone is. You felt alone and thought copying someone who you percieved was happier was going to get you the same joy. You are unable to check on them to see if you are winning finally.It bothers you more because you know they are not checking for you. They have seperated from you and they are moving forward as one who doesn't want to be attached to karmic energy does. You was meant to build a legacy instead you have splinter...

Play games with your mama not me!

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You want to come in telling lies. You want to have sex. You would willingly be a whore for me to get what I have cuz you're too lazy to put in work in something real that would be lasting for you. You didn't appreciate that they don't make them like me no more. You were to focussed on what I had and what others saw as valueable in me instead of seeing me. I tried to heal the wounds in you that others caused and you kept hurting me. So I walked away and you have the nerve to be begging for me back. I gave you all the freedom in the world and you bound me. You attacked me and had others join in at blocking my life. You dont see me, but you see my financial worth. Fuck you and your emotional, physical, and finacial abuse. Noone has time for someone with so much self hate that they project it on others. Go on and be with people who dont value you or themselves. Misery loves company and this person was throwing the biggest pity party. Spiritually attacking...

Sekhmet

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Someone wants axcess to whats on your mind, what your plans are and who you are planning to do things with. They want to make your connection permanent. They feel all the turmoil and drama you both have overcome is definitely making you stronger and bringing you both together. They feel you always come back tgether due to the Universe having a higher plan for you both. This person has been forced to face some big truths and how they manage is the last test for coming together with you. This maybe a childhood sweetheart, but they haven't grown up with you. Something kept them stagnant and now they are rushing to try and finally grow up. You are so smart. Thru that itelligence you are seeing that it was never about you it ws laways others projecting their behavior on you. Your love and friendship could not be measured. You operated in love and goood faith and others shitted on your kindness, When you pull that away from people they are lost and thirstying for any in...

4th house

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In astrology, the fourth house is associated with home, family, and heritage. It can also represent a person's relationship with their maternal figure and their outlook on domesticity. The fourth house is located at the base of the natal chart and is associated with the energy of Cancer. The Moon is the planet associated with the fourth house, but some say that Earth is a more logical choice because it represents our home. The fourth house can reveal a person's early home memories and experiences. The fourth house can represent a person's relationships with family, whether by blood or choice. The fourth house can rule over a person's overall domestic condition.The fourth house can represent the final outcome of a situation. Planets moving across the fourth house can encourage a person to invest in their infrastructure by creating more private spaces. Somethings arent changing no matter the new atmosphere because it is the people not the place. You want n...

Scorpio

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You have wakened up and being unaware to all that is happening has gotten you caught up. You do not see yourself surving this pit you have gotten dragged into. NO rebirth after everything burns down you just see death and destruction. You had hopes of partnership and growth, but you disrupted other peoples happinness in order for you to obtain it. Ok so you was hurting and lost does that give you the right to attack others? Seperation and devestation are now all that will be on your plate. The hurt and triangulation you participated in you will now suffer a similar trauma. Love was yours and now it will flee from you just as you chose to flee from it. Think love bombing and ghosting.. that will be your new bread and butter. You have played the rule of the other and have found you enjoy it. Once you have a connection you dislike it and that is not ok for others to experience they are not mice and you arent a cat. You kept trying to show other people who they were but...

Sagittarius

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Someone see's you are dangerous. You was out to get them and they got away from you. You acted unjust towards them and they finally figured out it was you.For a long while they had it in their heart to defend you and mend your circumstances pourling love and understanding into you and you used their naiveity against them repeatedly. You caused ending in their life with no remorse. You wanted them to rely on you and see you as a savior. You saw this person as a healing little shit and you couldn't have them changing peoples perseption of you. They might not put ypu on a pedastal if they see you as undeserving and less then stellar to be around. You was exposed to be a fraud and you blame this person with other worldly energy. You now see that you could have done things differently you needed this person and if you hadn't set out to cloak this person in negativity things would have turned out differently. You and your legacy had the chance to level up and...

sagittarius

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I just want to chill with you. Watch some comfort shows with you. I'm dying but I will fix this for my kids. I will be a guardian angel. I will make up for it all. I will find joy in being a protector. Stepping away from the mortal coil is getting easier day by day. I actually am happier knowing my time is near. I am tired . I can't keep on this path. I want out. When it rains I think of you and i feel regret. As if God is showing me you crying. I owe you especially. I shouldn't have gathered people to be against you. I am not surprised you turned your back on me but it still hurt me because you dig yur heels in. I guess you see pass face value connections that played on your inexperience in life. I came for you and you was nowhere near prepared. Right now I am fighting my demons. Im shrinking within. Could we just sit and talk I have so many questions. No matter how old you were you always had answers for me. Insightful and witty. I utilized as many of your talents a...

Will i get the money i need to make my dreams and goals a reality

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You are at the end of this cycle of want and proverty. This journey has long and dificult. You have sought to be the top of what ever postion you are in puttting forth your best efforts to give what is required and it hasn't gotten you where you want to be. Don't fret though someone is coming to offer you help. Be wary of those that are only offering help with strings attached. Some will come in offering assistance to have a reaon to say they helped you stand on your feet. Thee will be one person who comes to you with geniune intent to support you and there might even be potential for love for some of you in this connection as well. You have lost alot on your path towards your destiny. You suffered a lot of unlawful and unjust things in a lot of your connections and the time of victimhood is over. You have stepped into the role of a overcomer. You have set down and started seeking the distance within and found your safe space and begin to build with a healt...

Scorpio

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Whatever you are doing behind closed doors to make money is about to be exposed. You are in need of therapy playing in grave yard dirt thinking that was going to help you. You came against someones elses family and thought you was gong to win. You underestimated the spiritual hitters in their family. You are going to be more then breathless. You choose not to think foryourself and now you are caught up in some shit. Your health issues are fixable just go to the doctor and take your dang pills. Lots of people take medication for a variety of reasons. You don't have to lie about your health. I don't get why you are so determined to destroy someones wealth and abundance while undermining their wisdom and empathy. You could have took all ths energy you are using to study people to actually go to school. Your toxic habits will be the death of you. Instead of doing anything to get into folks business not even they actual lifes just their bidness is going to blow back on you....

Taurus

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You feel left behind. You wanted to feel like someones desert. You wanted to be devoured every night. You wanted intelligence in a partner, someone who worked hard, a homebody someone who understood you. If this individual was a freak that worked as well especially if they was willing to make a video. This person would taste delicious. While you are desiring all this you realized you needed to work in the inner you. The person you desire you aren't right for; realizing patience is a virtue and you need to work on yourself was such a level up. You have been just sitting waiting for change to come and it won't you need to grind. Wishing that this was a story that could be started over again. Emotions are overwhelming at the moment. You just want them to wait while you figure things out. You can be a sweet individual and their love will be the cherry on top of your life. The idea of being loved by this person is what is making you strive for better. Its ok to acknowledge ...

virgo

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Something came in a flash and is leaving just as fast. You thought you had the game sewed up and you came to learn there is way mor to it. You didn't gain what you sought. You have lost the will to continue the fight you began so eagerly. Now is time to sit back and reap what you sewed there is no changing it now. You are going to be tossed better then a italian salad in a Nona's kitchen. Spirit is going to take their time. All that moon magic has a price. You looked to the skies and tried to ignore the star. Their is no solace for your choice. You felt you was the better choice. You didnt know enough. You could have had a ally. You thought you was stronger. You got fycked. Drinking is not going to help. Can you over come the storm heading your way no... but you can pick up he pieces afterward if you choose to. You aren't hearing any messages because you stopped listening like Saul and let envy enter your heart. If you only wanted to make a difference the...

Finito

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No more retries. #Gameover There is literally no way to win this battle. Your mental healthy is a concern, but it is your concern I cannot an will not make it my priority. I have to focus on me eventually and I choose now. Your the kind of person drunk at work. Just dangerous for no other reason then selfishness. The messed up part is I used to think you was the only person in the world who understands me. We used to hold hands, look at the stars, and dream. I left because I felt like you didn't appreciate my gifts or even your own. For a moment though I was swept up in your vibe. I want your heart, but not as tainted as it as right now. Go fucking heal. Walking away should be hard but your making it easier day by day. The happiness of my soul as this connection dies is uplifting and saddening as well. I shouldn't feel lighter and happier, but that is how I feel. I shoould be sad, and mourning, but the death of this connection is destined. I am meant to be manuevoring li...

Karmic Masculine to Divine Feminine

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Its over over ain't it? You should've cheated on me. You was faithful to a ideal. I wasn't honest with you. I even had a baby on you but you don't know yet. I did't know you was meant to be my kingdom mate. I tore you down for no reason. If you give me a chance I would dig deep for you. I will give you the sex life you deserve. I was selfish. I felt safe but never made you feel safe. I have nothing to offer you but struggle love becuase I dont want to work hard. I have so many bad things happening I hope you are still covering me. I tried to destroy the joy you had. I wanted to have you clingy on me. I didnt understand not all women are like that. I can't pop up on you. I can't be intimate with you. I just want you to love me. I really want to prove my love thru sex. I just know you will fall back in love if i pull out my tricks. I will do and say anything to get you back to me. I need you. My life is in shambles and noone wants to save me. I ain'...

Divine Feminines female elder (sister,mother,aunt, grandmother) got something to say to Divine Feminine

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I never let up on you. There was no safe happy place for you with me. I did everything but put my hands on you. I pretended to work harder than I was to carry on my relationships. I want to take credit for how you turned out although I am not fully sure if i have anything to do with who you are. I can't stand to be around you. You maybe blood, but I'd switch you for someone else. You may have walked away, but noone knows that so I will tell them I walked away due to disrespect. How can you prove what I let few witness and fewer understood what was actually occuring. I act like a masculine being emaculated instead of just a sad jealous woman. I should have appreciated the gift of having you in my life instead I resentated you. I was so trapped in my personal illusions that i couldnt feel sympathy for you. I even practice magic against you. I dont see you as a extension of me your alien. Did i ever tell you i hate it when you touch me? I mean i know you know, but I want to...

You are a bright light

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All the things you said running thru my head has me feeling I am not enough. You deserve more than I can give emotionally, finanancially,mentally and even physically. I have been sexually unwise and I have a STD/STI( sexually transmitted demon or incubus). I am connected to too many people sexually and I do not how to release those bonds. I like having so many people wanting me. I feel loved having so many people fighting for my attention. I didn't regonize real love. I feel if you love me you will keep doing for me. When you stop you don't love me. I know you have to live your life and being up my ass isn't part of your whole day. I promise you I am not closed off. I am just scared of you seeing to much or figuring out I am a fraud. I ran away in November because its just to much emotions to handle. I thought kepping things sexual was going to protect my heart, but I just fell even harder for you. I feel if I come forward to fast you will lose sight of what you are ...

I swear I am trying

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I've put in so much work and have nothing to show for it. At least with a job your 401k will pay out eventually. I 've been trying to stay low key but i want to play for keeps with you. Noone knows how I feel about you about us because i refuse to discuss you. I want to contact you but you have me blocked. I thought by now you would unblock me and be forgiving. I see you for who you really are when before i thought you was a totally different person. I thought walking away would make both our lives happier. I know time is up. I messed up a lot and you should've left me long ago. We were promised a lifetime ago that we werent to be togther. I want to dedicate my heart to you. I want a fufilling life you. I want to create a healthier legacay for both of our families. As frustrated I am i am so focused on you and making life what you always deserved. I want to see you soon. I want to protect you from getting hurt anymore. I know i want to dream with you and create a new...