Heart Song The Hearts Truth

You are at the end of this cycle of want and proverty. This journey has long and dificult. You have sought to be the top of what ever postion you are in puttting forth your best efforts to give what is required and it hasn't gotten you where you want to be. Don't fret though someone is coming to offer you help. Be wary of those that are only offering help with strings attached. Some will come in offering assistance to have a reaon to say they helped you stand on your feet. Thee will be one person who comes to you with geniune intent to support you and there might even be potential for love for some of you in this connection as well. You have lost alot on your path towards your destiny. You suffered a lot of unlawful and unjust things in a lot of your connections and the time of victimhood is over. You have stepped into the role of a overcomer. You have set down and started seeking the distance within and found your safe space and begin to build with a healt

Whatever you are doing behind closed doors to make money is about to be exposed. You are in need of therapy playing in grave yard dirt thinking that was going to help you. You came against someones elses family and thought you was gong to win. You underestimated the spiritual hitters in their family. You are going to be more then breathless. You choose not to think foryourself and now you are caught up in some shit. Your health issues are fixable just go to the doctor and take your dang pills. Lots of people take medication for a variety of reasons. You don't have to lie about your health. I don't get why you are so determined to destroy someones wealth and abundance while undermining their wisdom and empathy. You could have took all ths energy you are using to study people to actually go to school. Your toxic habits will be the death of you. Instead of doing anything to get into folks business not even they actual lifes just their bidness is going to blow back on you.

You feel left behind. You wanted to feel like someones desert. You wanted to be devoured every night. You wanted intelligence in a partner, someone who worked hard, a homebody someone who understood you. If this individual was a freak that worked as well especially if they was willing to make a video. This person would taste delicious. While you are desiring all this you realized you needed to work in the inner you. The person you desire you aren't right for; realizing patience is a virtue and you need to work on yourself was such a level up. You have been just sitting waiting for change to come and it won't you need to grind. Wishing that this was a story that could be started over again. Emotions are overwhelming at the moment. You just want them to wait while you figure things out. You can be a sweet individual and their love will be the cherry on top of your life. The idea of being loved by this person is what is making you strive for better. Its ok to acknowledge

Something came in a flash and is leaving just as fast. You thought you had the game sewed up and you came to learn there is way mor to it. You didn't gain what you sought. You have lost the will to continue the fight you began so eagerly. Now is time to sit back and reap what you sewed there is no changing it now. You are going to be tossed better then a italian salad in a Nona's kitchen. Spirit is going to take their time. All that moon magic has a price. You looked to the skies and tried to ignore the star. Their is no solace for your choice. You felt you was the better choice. You didnt know enough. You could have had a ally. You thought you was stronger. You got fycked. Drinking is not going to help. Can you over come the storm heading your way no... but you can pick up he pieces afterward if you choose to. You aren't hearing any messages because you stopped listening like Saul and let envy enter your heart. If you only wanted to make a difference the

No more retries. #Gameover There is literally no way to win this battle. Your mental healthy is a concern, but it is your concern I cannot an will not make it my priority. I have to focus on me eventually and I choose now. Your the kind of person drunk at work. Just dangerous for no other reason then selfishness. The messed up part is I used to think you was the only person in the world who understands me. We used to hold hands, look at the stars, and dream. I left because I felt like you didn't appreciate my gifts or even your own. For a moment though I was swept up in your vibe. I want your heart, but not as tainted as it as right now. Go fucking heal. Walking away should be hard but your making it easier day by day. The happiness of my soul as this connection dies is uplifting and saddening as well. I shouldn't feel lighter and happier, but that is how I feel. I shoould be sad, and mourning, but the death of this connection is destined. I am meant to be manuevoring li

Its over over ain't it? You should've cheated on me. You was faithful to a ideal. I wasn't honest with you. I even had a baby on you but you don't know yet. I did't know you was meant to be my kingdom mate. I tore you down for no reason. If you give me a chance I would dig deep for you. I will give you the sex life you deserve. I was selfish. I felt safe but never made you feel safe. I have nothing to offer you but struggle love becuase I dont want to work hard. I have so many bad things happening I hope you are still covering me. I tried to destroy the joy you had. I wanted to have you clingy on me. I didnt understand not all women are like that. I can't pop up on you. I can't be intimate with you. I just want you to love me. I really want to prove my love thru sex. I just know you will fall back in love if i pull out my tricks. I will do and say anything to get you back to me. I need you. My life is in shambles and noone wants to save me. I ain'

I never let up on you. There was no safe happy place for you with me. I did everything but put my hands on you. I pretended to work harder than I was to carry on my relationships. I want to take credit for how you turned out although I am not fully sure if i have anything to do with who you are. I can't stand to be around you. You maybe blood, but I'd switch you for someone else. You may have walked away, but noone knows that so I will tell them I walked away due to disrespect. How can you prove what I let few witness and fewer understood what was actually occuring. I act like a masculine being emaculated instead of just a sad jealous woman. I should have appreciated the gift of having you in my life instead I resentated you. I was so trapped in my personal illusions that i couldnt feel sympathy for you. I even practice magic against you. I dont see you as a extension of me your alien. Did i ever tell you i hate it when you touch me? I mean i know you know, but I want to

All the things you said running thru my head has me feeling I am not enough. You deserve more than I can give emotionally, finanancially,mentally and even physically. I have been sexually unwise and I have a STD/STI( sexually transmitted demon or incubus). I am connected to too many people sexually and I do not how to release those bonds. I like having so many people wanting me. I feel loved having so many people fighting for my attention. I didn't regonize real love. I feel if you love me you will keep doing for me. When you stop you don't love me. I know you have to live your life and being up my ass isn't part of your whole day. I promise you I am not closed off. I am just scared of you seeing to much or figuring out I am a fraud. I ran away in November because its just to much emotions to handle. I thought kepping things sexual was going to protect my heart, but I just fell even harder for you. I feel if I come forward to fast you will lose sight of what you are

I've put in so much work and have nothing to show for it. At least with a job your 401k will pay out eventually. I 've been trying to stay low key but i want to play for keeps with you. Noone knows how I feel about you about us because i refuse to discuss you. I want to contact you but you have me blocked. I thought by now you would unblock me and be forgiving. I see you for who you really are when before i thought you was a totally different person. I thought walking away would make both our lives happier. I know time is up. I messed up a lot and you should've left me long ago. We were promised a lifetime ago that we werent to be togther. I want to dedicate my heart to you. I want a fufilling life you. I want to create a healthier legacay for both of our families. As frustrated I am i am so focused on you and making life what you always deserved. I want to see you soon. I want to protect you from getting hurt anymore. I know i want to dream with you and create a new