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You feel like someone is your whole world. You would give anything for them. You see no wrong in them. You was willing to pour out everything for them. This person gave you butterflies. They made you feel safe and lucky. They kept saving you. You hoped they wanted what you wanted or was at least willing to keep up a facade with you. Anything they wanted no matter how degading you was willing to do to keep them attached. You just was empty and you couldnt figure out how not to feel that way but at least they helped you forget for a while. You have no back up plan for all they gave youand did for you. NO one you know can fill that void. If only you stopped playing games. You just wanted them to make it official. You wanted them to save you, to mark you as theirs (marriage) to want to be affectionate with you. Its time to let go. No one is happy. NOthing is saving this. You could read every rlationship book and sex book and it still wouldnt matter. At the end of th

7th house

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You are finally going to recieve what you need. No longer will you live in want. You are moving up in finace and learning when to have closure. You are finally looking out for your intrests. You are not looking at options you have your nose to the grindstone. Jut minding your business is helping you to elevate in a way being nosey was never going to. You might be about to run into a soulmate. Not necessalriy a love connect but definitely a heat connect. You will have a partnership of sometype that will put you in that King or Queen of Pentacles energy. This new energy you will be operating in will not leave you lacking affection. You have discrenment now and you an tell the real from the fake. No more facades in this piece. Either they show who they are from the beggining or they can kick rocks. You have no time , space or energy for stagated energies encased in a felsh suit. You have learned from many a situation that love is not all that matters. Love being unco

1st house

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The first house in astrology is the most personal part of a birth chart, and is associated with the self. It's also known as the house of self. Here are some things to know about the first house: Rising sign: Your rising sign, or ascendant, is always in the first house. Ruling planet: Mars, the planet of action, energy, and anger, rules the first house. Associated sign: Aries, the first sign of the zodiac, is associated with the first house. What it represents: The first house represents your physical appearance, general temperament, and the body you were born with. It can also provide insight into your personality, including your outlook, traits, and characteristics. Planets in the first house: Planets in the first house can have a strong influence on your life. For example, Mercury in the first house may indicate that you're a chatterbox, while the moon in the first house may indicate that you wear your emotions on your sleeve. Planets transiting the first

Should I move ???

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You are safe first and foremost. Anyone who is triggered by your peace and happiness cant have axcess to you.They cant piss on your dreams. Start speaking your truth. The syncrincites is speaking to you. The hurdles are almost all gone. You have one person whose loyalty is divided and will try to stop you. They will try to introduce negativities ( negative activities) into your life to distract you but you have survived all these karmic lessons you won't fall in the trap. You might need a lawyer for whatever decisions your making. Its ok o talk to those you truat about your situation. Whomever is trying to cause destruction in your life is about to recieve their just desserts. They're actually watching you hoping all goes bad. Their spiritual protection is gone and folks is wanting to know why you arent around. This person or people they can't understand how you got out of all the traps they set for you. This person has projected so much negativity to

kicked the habit that is you

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Normally I am the hunter prepared for any type of prey. Usually I come after people becuase of what they have. I set my eyes on them and i always hit my shot. Yet, lately I just want to make my own. I want to be able to say I did it myself. I want to know that you know that means my money will be slower. I want to evolve and in my present circumstances I don't see the possiblity of healing. I spent a lot of time chasing our connection. I was so codependant terrified that if I didnt fix our connection there would be no connection to have. I knew i couldnt turn to my friends to find solace. Living in the moment wasnt going to save me when i was drowning in our connection. I needed time to be my best self and i allowed societies pressures to dictate how i made that happened. Progress was more important than growth and refuse to embrace the idea that the paradigm of our connection was always wrong. The lack of healthy choices in our connection trickled to other conne

Virgo

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You have lodt faithin yourself. You fell for someone who used you. You thoughtthat you could fuck them out of being a hoe and a trick. They pretended to be a leader but was a predator. They cheated and flaunted it in your face. You have had to go on a self healing journey. You feel as if noone will really want you for you. Your wondering if if you pretned to be something else like its been done to you maybe yyou will finally get chosen for forever not just right now. You just want tohave that forever typ love that makes people glow whenthey talk about their person even when mad their energy just gets bigger thatkind of love can move mountains. That kind of love need no valadation it just is. You thought you finally had you happily ever after. You found out after a sti scare that wsnt the case. Instead you had some beaitifully toxic love. You thought you was toroughbut this person snuck a whole other relationship ( not a randome person ) under your nose. This person may even h

What sign am I really dealing with???

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#EldertheSeeker #Sagittarius #Capricorn You are dealing with one of the above signs and they want you to know this lifetime they want to keep their promise. This is a parental angel you was their last child. They had a knack for making things with their hands that others others wanted to buy. You didn't wonder how you felt about them. The connection was healthy. NO fighting. They took you to church alot. They got saved from a life on the streets. They didnt go to college, but they made good money and wasn't weak with financial boundaries. This person was driven. Single parent so you didn't get alot of time together. They did suffer from addictions. They did pass with a sound mind. Another group its a lover whom passed who wants you to know you was the best. So good they didnt need porn. They just watched the videos yall made instead. You guys spent a lot of quality time together. You had great convos together. You talked about so many things under the sun. Yal

Divine Masculine younger sibling message to Divine Masculine

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You are so smart. Whatever was blocking you is gone. Your connection with the divine feminiine is a beautiful story. I want to see the ending. I want a love like yours. I want a masculine like you. I am upset that this growth is taking you away from me. I am so sad I feel like I am losing you. I have nothing to fill my void becuase i don't have a healthy attachment to you. I am not sleeping well since we sepearted but I know it was for your spiritual health. I want to go on adventures with you around the world. I have to be honest I am not the only spy in your life. I thought i was doing what was best for you. I am so mad at you right now! I need to get some help. I have some unhealthy thinking. I just know im willing to do anything to gain your forgiveness. I will kiss your ass to get your forgivenes. If you find out all the truth will you still love me? I caused so many problems! I have seen the error of my ways. Well i understand the consequences of my actions. I want

i'm taking my time

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No matter how good my facade you manage to see past it to the mischeious me or the sad me. I hate that you get past my armour. How do I get you into as equal a vulnerable postion. Due to your spiritual gifts I can't make any plans to make a move towards you. I have no support on how to reconnect but it is my biggest heart desire. I have been bracing myself for the blowback from spirit. I have to be honest I dont trust you yet. I am ready accept my gifts as well. You have inspired me to embrace then rather than run from them. I need a little time to get my shit together, but by Spring I feel like I will be ready for a healthy version of our connection. I will be honest i am not sleeping well I just want to rush in and go on adventures with you but its not the time. You have noo idea how funny you are to me and you know what they say " the one who makes you laugh will do anything to see you smile" and i want that to be us for eachother. Did I ever tell you that you g

Your my unspoken dream made real

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Tell me how am I supposed to breath with no air? You are the air I breath. You are my soulmate my heart. You are a boss in your own arena. You created a lane and I want to get into it with you. Everything is always fresh and new with you. You inspire me to change on the outside and inside. You are my sunrise and sunset. Right now nothing feels real without you.You look like a god/goddess and I in awe of you. You are my sun and moon and everything between. If none of that existed you would still be my king/queen. I pray for you daily though. I want you to be happy even if its not with me. IN the past I was definitely a toxic lover and things were never smooth sailing for us. I want to change your perspective so that you will give us another chance. Right now I'm trying to get my health right mentally and physically. I owe myself that before anything else but ypu are never far from my mind. I want you to think of my words and believe in me I do not want to cause pai

it's time for new way of seeing and doing things

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You have been struggling with stability and feeling secure where you are at this moment in life. You may have felt you had to lie about your connections in order to have any sense of permanence in life.  The need to be flexible has been a constant and it has caused you to be the runner in relationships. You haven't felt safe enough in your connections to truly be intimate and let ego go.  The issue with that is it keeps you in a self absorbed type relationships because you can't care for others if your well being is first and foremost in your every move.  You intentionally pushed away people or only let them close enough to benefit from the connection but to not grow. The time for that is over. You need to let people in. It's time to make some smarter connections those that are reciprocal rather than one sided. This will benefit you and those who connect with the new you.  Don't be scared to shed the old way of observing the world and try on a new perspective I bet you

You are making it happen

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 You are are carrying ideas that you are about to birth and the world better watch out. You been getting some downloads in the dream state. You have let go of your burdens and no longer are you allowing others to place their burdens on you and cause towers in your life. You have found that thing in your life that draws you. You wake up thinking of it go to sleep thinking of it too. No more will your cups be overturned. Because you have put your enthusiasm to your work it’s beginning to gain traction. You aren’t fighting no more you have surrendered to the divine. You have released relationships that no longer serve you. You have walked away from all that would make you feel low. You was scared to leave before because you thought you was supposed to be cautious, but instead your about to just dive in and trust the universe. 

If you don’t start doing what your told so you can get to where you need to be…

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 Right now you have the warmth in you that feels like spring inside. It’s so sweet it braces you when moments of indecision and almost physical weakness. You could be experiencing headaches or feel pressure in your third eye, have insomnia and maybe eating sporadically. You have been getting a lot of downloads, but have you been paying attention or are you unsure you want to know the answers to the questions you have been shouting out to the universe for a while now for about a decade or within the last decade. You also might be struggling with religion right now asking what is going to give you the answers you need?  You are being be called to write and you are ignoring it. You have a story that needs to be told so others can heal. You have been thru a lot and your experiences are what got you to where you are right now.  Go to your altar spend some time there. Light some white candles and tell them what’s been going on. Be honest with yourself and them let the hurt go. You are unwind

Stand tall

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You have been feeling defeated like you was stuck in a battle and you was surrounded; down to your last weapon and no one near to have your back. You have started praying looking for a answer because you don’t want to keep wrestling with the monster holding you back from your cups.  You will look up and see that the answers are coming your way. You have worked hard strived to get to this point and the abundance you seeked is flowing towards you. Your cups are going to be over flowing just keep being patient. You are strongly getting repaid for what you have put into the world. Brace your self abundance is on the way. 

Flex

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  You are smart, have good energy, and you present it in a willful way but you are also impulsive. Your sincerity is apparent to all after talking to you because when you walk into a room folks feel like you are flexing on them. Tchue/Tlaciache(hero who brought fire to mankind) risked his life to bring a tool of change to man and I feel you are very much like him in you see a need and you want to figure out how to fulfill it. So keep on doing whatever you are doing in the world to be a part of the light and keep on passing out tools I feel that is your calling.

Family Hate

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 You don’t believe in unconditional love, you think people use emotions as weapons. Passion is all good, but without wisdom it only leads to destruction and you avoid any calamity like the plague.  You have so many people claiming to like you , but they really are energy vampires only wanting to be around you when your happy, but they all scatter when you need to build yourself up.  You spent a lot of time trying to figure out what you was doing wrong to lose so many friends.  It affected your confidence the way you felt about yourself. You held back your gifts second guessed all support leaving yourself feeling stuck and stagnant.  You have been so hurt by everyone you are guarded against everything even love.  That’s how they want it to be. You closed off from the world would satisfy all of them. Unfortunately for them you will be growing gaining momentum.  Your going to get a surprise that love you thought was impossible is coming.

YOu=love

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 How are you gonna glow up this person? They was happy knowing you was they happy lil secret. They knew you was amazing they just couldn't see past your size to be with you in public. Now you have changed in a way that makes them totally see you; all of you. They excused it by telling themselves they didn't want you when the whole time they did they was just to superficial and admitting hat to you would make you turn away and stop giving them the awesome love you had.  Now they see how valuable you are and that you really are desired just for being you and now they want to prove to you that they always have loved you always was just blind to it.  

Nextlifetime???

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You to them:  Dude, I have no secrets. I just am tired of waiting around. Love just isn't enough. I'm not perfect, but I am trying to be spiritual and pray about this situation. I am trying to be objective in this situation. I know I need to let go of the past and heal. I know you don't want to change you are happy with how things are going.  I am in a battle within trying to heal myself I don't have the energy to fight you. You had me and lost me and now you want me back, but I can't be your black sheep anymore.  When I was with you there was so many worries, but I couldn't be my best around you. I felt insecure instead. Let's not lie I was insecure, and our connection made it worse. I didn't know how to be happy with you and I don't want to mess up now. I just wish you wasn't so unique. I have a habit of comparing and that holds me back. I can't be around someone I want to beat. I 'm trying to teach myself to dance like no one is watchi

from you to them

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You to them: Dude!!! I have no secrets. I'm just tired of waiting around. Love just isn't enough. I'm not perfect but I am trying to be spiritual. I pray about this situation. I'm trying to be objective.  I now know I need to let go of the past and heal. I know you don't want to change. You are happy with how things are going. I am in a battle within trying to heal myself. I don't have the energy to fight you. You had me and lost me and now you want me back, but I can't be your black sheep anymore. When I was with you there was no worries, but I couldn't be my best around you I felt insecure instead. I didn't now how to be happy with you and I don't want to mess up your happiness now. I just wish you wasn't so unique. I can't help but compare and that holds me back. I cant be around someone I want to beat.  I'm trying to teach myself to dance like no one is watching. I know that my time I change is now and it has to be personal. I can

Keep lovin on you

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  Your energy is so upbeat go ahead get dressed up for the day. You are leaving people in the dust not just trying to pacify them.  The world is scary, and they wish you would stay within their reach even though they can't be stable for you. They know you keep it 100. Keep on working on your sacral chakra. Be confident, joyful, balance, passion, sexuality, emotional expression. You are finding real happiness this lifetime and its beautiful. You are the leader in your life. If you don't feel like you're at home, you are creating a home within yourself. It doesn't have to be historic moves to be the right moves for you.  Trust folks don't realize until your gone that you were the answer to fixing a lot of their problems. There are even some who will come back to you because they need you to need them, but they want to trick you with this reconnection. You are like everyone's favorite dessert, and you aren't letting them devour you. I guess it's a good they