Heart Song The Hearts Truth

You to them: NO matter where I am I feel you. I am trying to figure out what went wrong. You are protected fromme and Icant just pop upon you. I am jealous of you, defensive about my behavior , codependant on your good enery, I'm hiding stalking and plotting on you all cuz my throat chakra is closed. I want to force you to make a choice. I want you to choose me and I had no idea I had made it nearly impossible for you to do so. I hurt you because I was busy watching others hurt you. I hate sitting back knowing I'm just destined to watch you. I should have took youout more. I should have wined and dined you. I should have changed a long time ago. I should have kept my promises to you. I know there will be no more oppurtunities. I know you are tired of my games. You are going to have the decadant life you deserve I just know it. I am surprised that you hid so much in you. If I would have just taken the time instead of playing stupid games I would have gaine

Message from your person: I'm working on myself. I have stepped out of the crazy and away from the ledge. I have some things I need to focus on. I have nothing to lie to you about. I won the lottery dealing with you. My girth is made to plant seeds in your earth. This aint no Romeo & Juliet bull shit connection. I am trying to prove myself to both of us. I want everyone to know you're mine. I knew you could hurt me so I ran from you. I flirted with others, but refuse to play games with them. My thoughts and prays werent with any one i was just raw dogging life. I had no good examples to follow so I created my own. Since I made my own rules how can I be bothered by the nonsense of our haters. Its like why focus on people who arent living day to day with me?? I am focused on you because you are someone who will bless my life daily. I can't be a god without my goddess. I had you and lost you. I want you back. Let's have adventures. In the past I didnt figure yo

I have been under the influence at work. I can't focus because I keep going over what is missing in this connection. You was supposed to be my foundation instead you just became a wall I had to tear down.I am so very tired of crying over you. You was so insecure and hate filled. You really couldn't just be proud that I wasn't insecure like you. I lived out loud no secrets. You loved that about me until it stopped you from controlling me then you began to hate me. I stripped away my insecurities to be with you and you made me feel unloveable and disgusting because how bad must I be for you to do me like this. I know you say you want to stop my tears I just don't trust it. You so caught up on me thinking your broke when im more concerned about your mind and heart. You think sex is always going to solve it and quite frankly the more I come the more I resent you. I just want whats fair to be fair. I want to walk away because this is hurting m

No more fake hangouts. No more catering to those who abuse you. No longer will you stay feeling used and abused in connections. That karmic cycle of make up to break up is over. Abandonment and abuse are no longer dishes served at the party that is your life. Any patterns that lead you to destruction they are done. Using silent treatment to control is out the door. Any connections with self involved narcissit and love bombing are no longer a option. You are making changes in your life that will bring good out circumstances to the forefront. You are prepared for the surprises and you are enjoying the ephiapanies that come with the whiffs of inspriration heading your way. That self love is going to be the spice in life and so many people need it. Your unconventional ways are why you cant be strung alng. People think they have the keys to your secrets go ahead and show them they just got backstage passes to a real healing journey. No more empath vs narsissitic drama and

Remeber that one Country song Nelly did with the cowboy dude. They lyrics went somerhing like its all in my head i think about it over and over... Well whatever the lyrics that is what happening. The olden days and not so smart days are playing in memories as children are growing up in a world softer and toughter to navigate. The old rules dont apply and some of them shouldnt but a lot of them should. How to not be a hpocrite? How to change without it being obvious the change is happening? Why didn't no one explain doing this as a adult don't balance out and you have to make a choice and then you have to keep choosing that choice daily. They also dont tell you that you can make a different choice any day you want. They have you thinking your stuck and your not. That is the biggest secret they keep from you. Everyday is a choice but you can choose soemthing else. It will be hard but it is a choice as well. Its time to find out who

Someone wants to tell you, I can weather any storm with you. I just want to put a lil excitement in your life. The world is scary, but knowing your in it keeps them sane. You make them feel lucky and lovely. You don't trigger them. That makes them feel so good. They wish you would reconnect with them. You can take care of yourself and they cant. They will never admit they did you wrong. Get in touch with feminine energy your most powerful in this energy. You have the ability to see the potential in anything. This spring this person wants to attempt to see you. They want to have the right to call you theirs. This person or people wants to work with you. They see how cool you are with the universe. They want your nourishing energy. They broke their own heart hurting you. You gave some of them wings and they only can soar because of you. Folks are mad because they won't get to continue in your energy in this lifetime or the next. They abused your boundaries. You are lettin

Move toward your higher purpose. Your thoughts are manifesting quickly and thru reality you are seeing your 5d dreams come true. Reassurance that the Universe understands your fears and concerns. It's ok to let go and release it to your guides so you can heal. You have been paying attention to your relationships. 'Walking away should be hard, but your making it easier day by day," is your mindset when it comes to certain relationships. You are accepting you haven't always stood up for yourself for a long time and didn't always walk away from circumstances that didn't serve you. You may have gotten swept up by the vibe back in the day, but now you are not letting anyone redirect your flow. Your learning to laugh as you walk away from relationships that no longer serve you. You are not giving out retries. You are ready for love and the Universe hears. The Universe is aware you haven't been smiling down to your soul for a while and that won't do. You a

Someone is not feeling confident. They do not feel like you will allow them to getto know you. They are all in their feelings completely unsure how to come to you. They are begginning to have hope. The bad in their life is starting to dissapate. With this change in their emotional weather they are trying to not let their world go topsy turvey. In being more in tune with their emotions they are acknowledging they will always be Royal. If there is a masculine involved someone is upset with them. You had no more hope and then they came along and lifted you. ooooh. This masculine wants to know are you still down? They want to give you all their time. They have taken the time to get to know them selves so they will not lose themselves in you or anybody else. They see how much they are like you and they want to embrace you but at this moment they know there is no forward movement is the postion they are involved in. This masculine is striving to kearn to wear their heart on their slee

I don't need another lesson in love they hrut. I know I am becoming a faded memory. I miss you so much. I choose to not stand up for myself for a very long time and you walked away. I was allowing others to define my opinion of you and allowing you to suffer for their jealousy. No more online stalking and future faking. You don't need to be drunk in love to see how awesomely you are moving. I feel shitty because of the way I handled things. You were home to me and I need to boss up. I need to start telling you more how much you are appreciated. I want to elevate you and the only way I know how to do that is by loving you. I am a hobosexual and I give my body to have a home and status, //i don't see it as wrong though. Everyone is getting something out of it. I am trying to change your energy to bend to me. I just need your energy. You don't have to live with you just give me axcess. When you touch me I want to pull you close and not let go. Everything means nothin

You are repeating a cycle. You are doubling down on trying to fuck someone over due to a family position. You are feeling delusional but you refuse to see it. You have no idea how your behavior is being percieved because you truly feel you are in the right about your behavior. You wake up everyday wondering how to make this one indiviual miserable. You try to keep them surrounded and at least one of them you expect to stab them in the back while the rest of you keep them distracted. All you have done has accumlulated into nothing. That person is still is a loving indiviual. That person still has the right to have a happy life just becuase you aren't is selfish as hell. In every walk of life you have tried to put poison in others ears about this indiviual and for every one person you turned aaginst them 5 more had their back. This battle will continue until you give up or die either choice is yours but your own ancestors are disgusted with you and don't under

edit  Know when to celebrate and kow when you are celebrating with enemies. Not all victories are meant to be shared. Someone is wishing illness on you because that is literally the only way they can see to stop you from winning. Everyday you can't post, record, speak is a day they think they have it in the bag. You might have stopped posting for a week or two had someone congraulating themselves thinking they had you beat. Inreality you was fixing something or starting a new endeavour but what ever it was when you popped back up and started daring them to attack you they doubled their efforts but they ar seeing even less awards from these attacks then they recieved when doing half the work. Your elevating and they cant stop you. Sabotage is all i hear. Cyber attacks towards your every electronic to prevent your work. Nothing stuck. if your wifi acted up you found a work around. If you couldnt type you wrote, if you couldnt write a poem you wote a essay instead. Just polis

edit  Someone wants to take you out on a date. They want to get to know you on a different level. This person really wants to savor the moment with you because they feel every moment withyou is to fleeting. This person may hate sudden changes and the way you are moving now seems very sudden to them. You may have been a very people pleasing partner in the past and you no longer are doing that and your unconditional love feels very conditional. Your selflove has pushed your desire to be loved by certain individuals away. Being one with yourself has finnaly superceeded the need to hear about the so called love others had for you. You may have been heartbroken recent ly because of a connection. You had to not only seperate from the person but also from ypur emotions for a while becuse you felt you might drown. You went thru all the stages of loss and yet you still feel chained to those emotions. Until yu release and really go heal you cannot complete this transformation yoou are

I could have been more honest. I promise I'm gonna kiss your ass. I will make it up to you. I know that there was lessons to learn I am just tired of this shit. I want my partner. I want you. We gotta get out of the fuck outta doge to many eyes in our sauce. I can't get the time I need with you if there is so much seperation. I always saw you i just turned my eye from this energy. I turned my nose up at you so often and now I just want to tell you I want to be deep with you in all ways. I don't want to cause you have to heal because of me. Has anyone ever told you that your wisdom should be on shirts. If you did it it would definitely be smooth selling. I know not to take our connection for granted. I want people to see us. No more fakeness. I want the world to see the temple I worship with. I know God has blessed our connection. Nothing is funny and nobody is going to fumble this Divine connection. We will BossUp together. You are home to me I want to be able to s

I love the love you give me. I have a habit of overthinking when it comes to you. I dont want any beef with you I just kinda want to push you into making a choice any choice but honestly your silience is a answer too. I question on if we can even have a future its like we get 2wks amx and then shit goes wonky. I'm tired of putting on a brave face I miss you. My soul feels weak without you . I want to curl up in your arms feel your kisses and warm embrace. I dont like being stressed. I want forever and i want it with you . Why wont you actually listen to me insteads everyone around you telling you what I want? Are they in the relationship with me? Do i even talk to them about real stuff? Like how can surface level people understand something soul deep without being jealous and hating? They was never on your side or understood what you was talking bout, but the look in your eyes was enough to be like "oh word?? You arent allowed to have what i never experienced" and its n

Shits been rough. You need to change how you are looking at life. If you do not want to be stuck in depression then you need to be active about it. Pay attention to the mess around you . Stop walking blindly into situations. Someone wishes they could be with you tonight ( this is timeless dont worry). The man reason is healing from a STI but they still got you in the forefront of their mind. When they heal they want to come forward and apologize. They also want to know what makes your heart so big. This masculine/feminine knows someone is using magic on you. Theu know it might take therapy to heal from these betrayls and they hope you are willing to heal with them. They see that together especially healed yall can make mountains dance. You might feel that your the source of entertainment for your family, but they know they are the butt of many jokes. They never wanted to grow up. So anything that resembled responsiblity was a no. They know that their healing is their own responsib

I am sorry. I put to much attention towards making a profit and failed to put any effort towards you. I chose to go towards other things instead of chasing you. I neglected to see the fabulous person you was and instead chose to see the persona others projected on you. I chose to be in the streets in others sheets when i had you at home waiting to make me happy. I thought i was glorius . I didn't realize it was your shine reflecting off me. Once you left my life just was up and down it was like consistancy abandoned me. I left a stable person and introduced chaos into their life and judged when i had no room to judge. I started arguements to cover my behavior. I felt that making you feel small would boost me and keep me feeling like a god/ddess instead of like the unworthy bug you revealed me to be. I didn't want to face my darkness then you came in and lit every fake part up. I hadn't realized how much was fraudulant about the life I was leading. Being with you made m

I love you more and more each day. I love you in a very special way. I know you have no ill will towards me. I know you even ignored your intuion a time or two when it came to dealing with me. I know you didnt have to so I thank you because not many would give me that grace. You was such a blessing when all I did was tear your world upside down. I took your blessings and claimed them as my own. I repeatedly stopped your forwad progress to aid my attacks on your personality and reputation wanting nothing more to prove I was the only reason you survived. If people knew any blessing you had I took a portion, every step toward progress i ridiculed or tried to lace with imposter identity. I battled you on so many fronts and laid all my burdens at your feet. I loved to see you battle worn and sick from trying to survive my attacks. I enjoy you begging me for scraps it shows the world YOU need me. I even disrupted your relationships. You having support meant you didnt lean on me as much.

I don't enjoy the way I feel. My fucking soul hurts. I don't feel unique in this situation. I feel like I have always been like this and there is no changing, but come to find out it was spell work. I have learned to protect myself. No longer will I accept interferace in my connections. There is one person I want to talk to and it hurts its been so long I almost forget what its like to kiss them. I want to be the shoulder they lean on and that's a issue when others are relentless with their watered down evil eye. I have been working on my soloar plexus chakra. I am no longer controlling, obsessive, and lacking in direction. I had to walk away from things that didn't sit well in my heart. Thats why I can't walk away from you. You are the best thing for me. You are my ideal mate. If you hadn't noticed I've been flirting with you. I suck at it but I want you to know i'm interested. I'm sorry I ghosted. I am coming back. I want to make a movie wi

I miss us being close. There are opps are spying on rotation trying to see why I want you to be mine. I have avoided you to avoid being rejected, but I am ready to be accountable. I may have over thought things but that is because I felt unlucky. Now I feel like the path is clearer and you have the nerve to be healing and dont want me around. I want to be surrounded by you. You make the past more real and the future more clear. All the trauma in my life shaped me into the person who I am, but time waits for noone and my time has been running out. The joy I get from being with you, around you keeps reminding me how beautiful life is. I want to rush in, but I have to closeout some things so there are no issues in our future. You have this steel in you that allows you to own your own shit and you heal. You have healed from your traumas and fought your demons. I hate that I fucked around and I have found out I am not happy without you. What do you want to from me because i am willi

I'm to fine too be alone the masculine screams as they tear your relationship to sunder in this Metro grade cycle. This person was having a awakening and they rushed in before they was completely healed.  You was supposed to just sit back and watch their choices, but they decided to bring you back into their purview instead of leaving the connection dead while they finished working on themselves .  Whatever they have been speaking has come into existence and I think it wasnt the things they said with their heart,  but the universe heard never the less.  The blessings they were seeking are being withheld until that solar plexus chakra gets aligned. No more will their gifts work until their hearts are soothed with the balm of contrition and self forgiveness.