Heart Song The Hearts Truth

I spent so much money! I did some weird and nasty shit! I just wanteed to beat you. I joined a group that promised me so much if I gave them you and I couldn't. I thought I was going to beat you with these new gifts I discovered. I thought you wasn't as informed and wise as I thought you was " pretending to be". I held you to standards I could never meet and I even encouraged others to ostrasize you or I refused to shield you. I see you are stronger, wiser and more powerful then I could even believe. All I have done has continually backfired on me. I wanted to be so needed by you that everyone could see I was the strong one but yor need never exeded my need to be seen. I couldn't ever be happy for you. I see the rain and think about you feeling cleansed by it, refreshed by it and yet your the sun the sunrise the promise of safety after the storm. I wanted to take your forever love. I wanted to be loved just as deeply as you are. I wanted someone to make...

Right now you are not getting what you need in life, a job, a connection, a situation. You feel as if things are stagnated like life is passing you by. You feel as if your light has faded and any umph there was to youhas been sucked out by day to day living. You feellike you don't know how to dream for more but you know there has to be more to life then this. You know it can be right in fron of your face but purpose seems to literally be escaping you. Right now you are seeking clarity. Truth and revelation are the goal. You know the truth will set you free, but is it worth getting out of this particular cage you wonder. You know in order for things to change it starts with you, but you feel like their is no inner path for them its a circle. Going over past events in your mind they were unavoidable, but really you chose to seek no further information and intentionally walked blindly into events expecting others to stand guard in your tomfoolery. You know that cannot cont...

The passage of time seems bleak. Where did all the years ago? What do I have now? I didn't hold my boundaries I wanted all the wrong things. Now I'm crying and I can't think straight. Right now all I can depend on is divine timing. I have been stalking trying to see if my manifestations have hit your life and caused trouble. I am even calling over and over trying to make someone spazz. I thought I had more time to put my plans into place. I feel so empty. I wanted to show someone who didnt want me; my all and it was rebuffed. I risked a lot for that want. I refused to accept that what I wanted was wrong for my chosen love. I thought my love would heal any rough parts in them yet, I neglected the rough parts in me. I refused to acknowledge the boundaries I saw before me becuase I deserve to have one thing I want. I tried to be the perfect partner. I tried to be who they wanted even if I got lost in the personnas. Now I am sitting back and trying to see wh...

You are walking away from this toxic family memeber, maybe even the whole family. Who needs enemies with fake ass fam like these folks? You gave them so many chances to prove they truly was as loving and as supportive as they protrayed to insignifcant people instead of to those who loved them. So if they couldn't speak life into you before it was even needed then why should you resurrect theirs becuase without YOUR energy theirs was bound to falter anyhow and you knew it. Yes there was many who tried to make you feel as if you was behaving like them, but that never was a consistent energy. You struggled to find the energy to fight becuase it was always a group against you and yet you failed to see it took many of them to overcome you. People made deals and gambled on tking you to the brink and you offing your self. For some reason they really thought you was that weak when you have held them up in deeper circumstnaces and did not fallow. I guess they have selec...

In astrology, the Midheaven, or Medium Coeli (MC), is the highest point in a birth chart that represents a person's public persona, career, and reputation: The Midheaven is the zodiac sign at the top of a birth chart, where the cusp of the tenth house is located. It's also the southernmost high point in the sky at the time of birth. The Midheaven sign indicates how others see you, your career goals, and your public achievements. It can also reveal how you show up when taking on new responsibilities or leading a major project. The Midheaven is different from the rising sign, or ascendant, which represents how others first perceive you. The Midheaven is more directly related to your career, public life, and reputation. You can use an app like TimePassages or a website like Cafe Astrology to find your Midheaven if you know your exact birth time, date, and place.The Imum Coeli (IC) is the point in space that's exactly opposite the Midheaven. Someone is no longer...

Ok I see you seeress, witch, bruja, shaman, spiritualist, high priestess... You see that which many want hidden. You get to pick and chose what you want to divulge thatthe Universe pulls the Viel back for you to see or hear. You hear and see the always and yet walk the path of the now and though like doctor who you fixing things in the past to heal the present and you have seen what a illusion time can be and yet what is meant to happen occurs. You have people gawking at you trying to see what you ave to say. Each day you teach, entertain and support and that energy is desired in the world. You are meant to be doing whatever you find yourself doing. You are meant to heal and in every facet of your being you are that person. Be mindful of the things you say people are stealing your ideas. You are a fount of creativity and people are trying to soak up as much of you as possible before you notice. You have stepped off the roller coaster of shame and you are your own exci...

Shit just ain't fair. You wasn't looking for danger just fun. Are you going crazy? You have been hearing things... You did something and a whole lotta money is coming your way. No, you arent being punished you are ascending and your gifts are awakening as your twin awakens more. You have been seperating froom unhealthy connections and doing this had opened you up to heaing what your soirit team and intution really have to say. There is someone you want to talk to about all these changes. Someone you day dream about kissing. Wouldnt you be shocked to know they think of you too? Just reachout tell them about the karmic lessons you have learned in your seperation. Tell them about how you realized you had to come back to them. Tell them some of the ways you went about protecting your connection to reassure them. Show them you have a real plan for the future not just a dream. Be the leader in this connection that you want to be from the start honesty and willing ...

You make me weak. You and I will drip with finesse cuz we are gods. You'are my island baby and i will sacrifice for you. You maybe older than me but you make me feel young. Your path was hard and I thought you was stupid for walking it but now I see it was others putting the blocks in your way. You have unlimited retries because the Universe knows you are earnest in your endeavours. We didn't understand that noone we knew loved their partner like that . I just ask that as I take this leap of faith that you don't let me fall. I'm terrified. I turn to you in a crisis I might as well roll over instead of calling or texting. You are anything but childish. I see you and I love all that i see. I always have. I am as bad as you imagine actually probably worse but I have beeen doing my best to keep that from you. I dont know how to merge the two so I am not someone you fear. I cant believe you fear me now and don't trust me. It hurts to know when once...

Somebody's mama wants to fight you. Do you have steps to protect yourself from this person? This woman doesn't even have the morals of a child so any kind of drama is acceptable to them. When you was around this woman ypu was probably drained and I know they definietly drained you trying to protect your back. This woman came for your crown chakra trying to block your insight into their behavior. You just so happen to be the ideal of what a feminine means to this mother. Your caring heat, your inteligence, your cooking skills and especially your looks. They miss treated you every chance they got under the guise of mentoring you. Any kindness shown to you was a distraction for their need to find out what was happening in yor life. This woman is trying to stop their child from coming your way. They fear you having a child and cementing a connection they have been trying to destroy. If they could stab you and get away with it they would. Even the idea of hiring a hi...

Someone is thinking of you. They kept you in the dark to their true nature. The lies they told you and about you only exposed their own brokenness. This person got off on hurting you. Dimming your light was their favorite past time. They loved to talk about you to others. Your willingness to be vulnerable with them gave them all the ammunition they needed to destroy you repeatedly for years. You had a talent for doing things that should not have came natural but they did and you excelled at them. You was intelligent and good looking as weell. You brighten the life of those you came in contact with. This person was determined to prevent you from reaching your destiny. If you hadf a person they played a hand in your seperation. You may have had a connection from adolesence that this person was jealous of. Your person probably did unique things to spoil you and this person knew and was so hateful about it. Somehow your person has found out about the back door drama ...

Somone refuses to admit they intentionally lead their family member down a path of destruction. That they triangulated the whole family to gaslight and enable this family member into maintaing their bad behavior becuase the goal was noble( in their eyes). If this family member had died finally their family would have nice things to tell others about them. The level of barely disguised hate however cleverly hidden stood out to the ones who want to protect this poor (well they had a hand in their own destruction so maybe nieve?) soul. You was one of those protectors due to you wanting to just be there for them. You want to talk to this person about what their family has been involved in. The problem is you can't force them to discuss, but you can be there for them. You don't have to have words you just have to be kind. Your person is waking up to the deception and games being played in their name by family in hopes o...

You are still sitting on your throne, but you are weaponless to defend yourself. You are dressed for the part, but its who you are not what your trying to be. You spend to much time pouring out into others and not enough pouring into yourself. You are trying to get out of a contract that has you feeling less then royal. This contract has not brought the abundance and happiness you anticipated. You see others celebrating and you are trying to stack and it seems as if things are slipping between your fingers. You want to celebrate but dont feel its the right time. You aren't the karmic but you are not their soulmate either. You are always over sensitive and argumenative. You have been trying to stimulate a change and its not happening. You stink to someone. You are overly depressed. You have left a lot to be desired in your connections. Your looking for miracles and they are not coming. You are realizing you have no vibe and you have been hiding in others identie...

You have decided that taking better care of yourself is paramount in your life. You feel that being in your late 30s early 40s its time to make it a more of a priority. You have someone who wants to know if there is a chance for you to become more than you currently have together. They have decided to not keep you a secret. Also they feel that mone wont be as hard to get to with you by their side. They are wondering if they have lost their sanity because only a crazy peson would not choose what you have to offer. Rght now conversation is sparse or nonexistant. They want this deeper connection. They wish they didnt push your boundaries, but they couldn't help it. They are working on being more loving. They have been crying over this connection. They feel like their spark is gone. They don't feel abundant without you. Talking to you helps them overlook their issues for a while. Right now they are struggling to trust the process. They have learned the truth in t...

Move toward your higher purpose. Your thoughts are manifesting quickly and thru reality you are seeing your 5d dreams come true. Reassurance that the Universe understands your fears and concerns. It's ok to let go and release it to your guides so you can heal. You have been paying attention to your relationships. 'Walking away should be hard, but your making it easier day by day," is your mindset when it comes to certain relationships. You are accepting you haven't always stood up for yourself for a long time and didn't always walk away from circumstances that didn't serve you. You may have gotten swept up by the vibe back in the day, but now you are not letting anyone redirect your flow. Your learning to laugh as you walk away from relationships that no longer serve you. You are not giving out retries. You are ready for love and the Universe hears. The Universe is aware you haven't been smiling down to your soul for a while and that won't do. You a...

Someone isn't as fragile as you first thought. You thought because they was beautiful/ handsome they would be easy to take down but its been years and they still are around. You have tarninshed their reputation and decalred to anyone who would listen that this person was for the streets in everyway you could imagine. You talked about them so badly Only Fans and prostitutes alike felt the right to judge them. All because this person had the IT factor from a young age. You even leaned on this person used their wisdom to better your life and you was never apprective nor gave them credit to others. Now it seems like you need this persons help but you have burned every bridge that might have gotten you to them. Your stank behaviour has been your undoing. Instead of seeing this person as a blessing in your life you viewed them as a destructive force then went out of your way to prove this accusation. ONly for it all to be rpven to be lies. From their hair, to their body to ...

We lied on you. We told your lovers and friends any and all negative things possible. From calling you for the streets to accusing you of being on drugs or an alcholic. We wanted the world to see us as your Savior. We wanted everyone to disregard how awesome you are and blessed you make us. Your knowledge and gifts were for us to hoard. If you had a blessing it was ours as well. Leaving you out made you work harder for our attention and love. We need you to let us back in your life. Like a crack head feenin for his next hit we crave you. Who is going to educate us. Who is going to give us free everything? You didn't even to learn things you just decided that is what you wanted to do and then did it. We hated it when you was happy. You look prettier, your energy is addictive and you thrive. You have walked away and you are so powerful that we know better to come at you disrepectully anymore. Your intution protects you from us. We did a lot of thing beind your back and had no sh...

Fuck It! Your tired of feeling a certain type of way? Well we are tired of you lording over us. You aren't the Queen. This is what we think about. You wont meet us where we are we won't fight you. We have nothing in common and maybe that is for the best. In a few weeks your going to see how we really feel. Who cares if you love us. You still aren't giving enough. You want a love story well we know your going to get it no matter how we interfer. Somehow you keep over coming no matter the obstacle. You are so creative. We chose to ignore those gifts and make you feel shame for enjoying what you loved because we didnt love anything but materlisim. We didnt want you to overcome. You have no idea who any of us really are except we are your oops. We can't go back and fix whats been so severly damaged and i dont think its possible to start brand new. WE would love to wipe the slate clean now that we see you arent so bad after all. You are so unique we should have celeb...

I love you more and more each day. I love you in a very special way. I know you have no ill will towards me. I know you even ignored your intuion a time or two when it came to dealing with me. I know you didnt have to so I thank you because not many would give me that grace. You was such a blessing when all I did was tear your world upside down. I took your blessings and claimed them as my own. I repeatedly stopped your forwad progress to aid my attacks on your personality and reputation wanting nothing more to prove I was the only reason you survived. If people knew any blessing you had I took a portion, every step toward progress i ridiculed or tried to lace with imposter identity. I battled you on so many fronts and laid all my burdens at your feet. I loved to see you battle worn and sick from trying to survive my attacks. I enjoy you begging me for scraps it shows the world YOU need me. I even disrupted your relationships. You having support meant you didnt lean on me as much. ...

I stopped watching you though its so very hard. I really need to know what your doing, who you are giving your energy to all of it. I miss your text updates so I could imagine you throughout the day. I miss you. I am willing to drink my self to obliviion so i can see your face in my dreams. You make me feel so strong and confident in my actions and thoughts. I admit for the most part I move thru life terrified. I have pretended for so long to be strong and wise and now everyone is going to know I stole my swag. I pretended to be you so that others would love me as they love you. You make my heart smile and that is why I want to be like you. You are a divine femenine/maasculine and i am karmic. I really thought I would get it right this time but I just made it even worse. I acted in Dark Fae energy and came acrss as a alien. I also fucked around and found out when I got a STD. I didn't think they was the promiscuious one I thought it was you. I hate that i have health issues ...

I can't seem to make anything happen. I have been seeking peace and its hiding from me. I can't text you because I won't find the answers I require. I need to see you in person. I need to have physical connection with you. I am aware there are others out there who crave your energy as well. I know I could have had you but i wasn't authentic in my desires and actions. I moved to soon and assumed you would beg to make me happy. I didn't realize I was ugly in my actions and persona. The Gods above see my behavior and cursed me for it. Your ancestors has razed my mind and heart all that left is guilt. I have been able to dream and talk to you but the convo never goes how I want. Even in my dreams you are cursing me out. I'm thinking of calling you and asking you to pull my cards. Trust me I'm prepared to kiss your ass to get some help. I know full well that I can't wear a mask around you. I just don't know who the real me is so there might not be a...