Heart Song The Hearts Truth

I don't feel abundant. I dont have the words to save myself. I cheated in life to get thngs moving quicker. I wish i had told the truth. I shouldnt have tried to set you up. What I had with you wasnt worth it. I stopped playing on your phone. Yes, i want to sleep with you but that isnt the point I just want to see why everyone falls for you. My jealousy over you made me keep walking away. I wish you would call me my sexual health isnt the best and i know you could help me. Did my bad friendship push you away? Did my attacking your business keep you away? Why did you walk away how or what did you find out that turned you away? I apologized. I didn't change a thing but i said sorry. I thought you liked me for me??? I stopped spying i swear. I stopped lying about you. I just miss your love and support. I miss listening to muisc and singing with you. The 90s were lit for us remember? I have to confess i never showed you all of me. Its to late to fix ths connection isnt it.

You are safe first and foremost. Anyone who is triggered by your peace and happiness cant have axcess to you.They cant piss on your dreams. Start speaking your truth. The syncrincites is speaking to you. The hurdles are almost all gone. You have one person whose loyalty is divided and will try to stop you. They will try to introduce negativities ( negative activities) into your life to distract you but you have survived all these karmic lessons you won't fall in the trap. You might need a lawyer for whatever decisions your making. Its ok o talk to those you truat about your situation. Whomever is trying to cause destruction in your life is about to recieve their just desserts. They're actually watching you hoping all goes bad. Their spiritual protection is gone and folks is wanting to know why you arent around. This person or people they can't understand how you got out of all the traps they set for you. This person has projected so much negativity to

You have lodt faithin yourself. You fell for someone who used you. You thoughtthat you could fuck them out of being a hoe and a trick. They pretended to be a leader but was a predator. They cheated and flaunted it in your face. You have had to go on a self healing journey. You feel as if noone will really want you for you. Your wondering if if you pretned to be something else like its been done to you maybe yyou will finally get chosen for forever not just right now. You just want tohave that forever typ love that makes people glow whenthey talk about their person even when mad their energy just gets bigger thatkind of love can move mountains. That kind of love need no valadation it just is. You thought you finally had you happily ever after. You found out after a sti scare that wsnt the case. Instead you had some beaitifully toxic love. You thought you was toroughbut this person snuck a whole other relationship ( not a randome person ) under your nose. This person may even h

I played games. I took chances. I had options. I gambled and I've lost. I hurt myself. I hurt you. I didn't think a seperation was going to happen. I didn't think our love couldnt handle anything. I din't think it was me. I really believed all this timeit ws your fault cuz all the people around me hated you and agreed with me that it ws your fault. There was no way i was going to acknowledge loving you. Tolet people know i saw you in a different light then they did. To let them know i admired you and wanted to be just like you would have made me lose my place in there heartrs i figured. Making a healthy choice in connection wsn't as important as the right fancial choice one that would benefit the whole family. My choices were limited into who would empty their pockets and comlain the least. For a time it was you. Various reasons made you stop but while i had you you made it work out. Now you won't even talk to me. I think you have me blocked too. I don

You a go getter and you arent appreciated. You are tired of codependant connections. You are tired of being stepped on and its time to sartt applying the lessons you have learned. Learning to hold your tongue and not wast your enerhy has been such a big step in your heealing. You are no longer a liar, chedater, or theft but you are still connected to those in this energy. You cant move on till you let go. Its time to go back to school. You are thirsting for knowledge its there at your finger tips. You ar not in a mental prison unless you want to be. You hold the keys to your mental cell. Its ok to let go of false connnections and. embrace thereal. The only way for Karma to not kick your ass is to be working with karma. All your past behavior has to go. Either change or get left behind by time. You can have the connections where you will be safe. Once you become a safe person to be around. Stop being so materlistic YOU are the reason you arent married not anyone else.

You have some one or somebodies watching you. These folks or this person doesn't want to face rejection from you. They aren't being accountable for things they have done to you in the past. These people maybe upset with how you are making money and how intelligent you are. You was someones back up plan and they are seeing that their plan for youis falling to pieces you are to intelligent to repeatedly falling for their trickery. These peoplle refuse to learn from their mistakes. Instead of admitting defeat they shift the blame to you saying your just to dumb to even fall into the trap rather then giving you credit for being too smart and avoiding it. You are intelligent and they refuse to acknowledge that in their plans they focus on your emotions and attack. These people want to beat you at a game they are the only ones playing. You dont want to know what the rules are because you honestly just don't care. Congratulations you have given up drinking. You also have

I dont want to tell you this but I look up to you. I eny you. She really loves ypu like die for you loves you. I have secrets I don't want the Divine Feminine to know, but you tell her all your secrets. I'm trying to copy your energy so I can get her back before you manage to step to the plate. I made a lot of mistakes. I thought how she felt about me was funny. Nobody saw how i broke her down but i did what no one but you could before. Why can't I have her? You can find others who are close to her I can't attract similiar energies. I stumbled upon the gift she is. I thought she was like me. Shes better. I want personal connections that feel like what I had with her. I wish you would just leave her so I can come in and pick up the pieces. I lied so much so I figured if i dropped all my truths on her now she will be so happy she will forgive me but she wont even glance at me if you are coming. I won't even blame you I will praise you to her tell her how lu

He got cheated on are you a cheater? He got lied to are you going to lie to him too? You make me nevous. You build people up and I fear if I get under your spell i will fall. I didn't appreciate my sibling. i took advantage of them. I used their big heart against them. Why is it even when you did stuff it never turned you dark like it did me? Why didn't you sink? I want to stop this war, but if you want it to continue I dont have the strength. I don't want to rush but i am coming your way in order to heal this for my siblings sake. I am going to start working on healing. I have been blaming my pain for my actions. I want to learn from you how to heal my pain like you have seem to. I challanged your boundaries and found them to be stronger than i had faith before i ran smack dab into them. Very soon i will reach out and apologize. I didn't completely understand that my actions and those of others you was finally going to step onto the path you was always been dest

You loving me is what has gotten me thru a lot a of things. I didn't believe you was able to love someone like I realize you love me. I had no idea you was so sweet. I want to cherish you now. i understand that the way things look make you feel unsafe but that is fair from the truth. You are safe because i will make it so. I will stand up for you. I may have walked away but i am coming back to be you anchor in the storms that are about to hit you due to others and their jealousy. I will admit to omine because I know ou could sense it. others knew you could see thru them as well. That is why they kept dismissing you . You saw to much. You read emotions before you learned any other divination techniques. You are glistening now that this new level up has occured. I want to let you knowthe next time i see your family I like you and want to date. I have noticed the few functions they have had recent were missing something. I dont understand why everone is trying to rush you when th

I never let up on you. There was no safe happy place for you with me. I did everything but put my hands on you. I pretended to work harder than I was to carry on my relationships. I want to take credit for how you turned out although I am not fully sure if i have anything to do with who you are. I can't stand to be around you. You maybe blood, but I'd switch you for someone else. You may have walked away, but noone knows that so I will tell them I walked away due to disrespect. How can you prove what I let few witness and fewer understood what was actually occuring. I act like a masculine being emaculated instead of just a sad jealous woman. I should have appreciated the gift of having you in my life instead I resentated you. I was so trapped in my personal illusions that i couldnt feel sympathy for you. I even practice magic against you. I dont see you as a extension of me your alien. Did i ever tell you i hate it when you touch me? I mean i know you know, but I want to

Seasons change and so do connections. I want to change our connection before the next season. I wnat to go to the next stage in our lives together. I know we can heal together. Together we can overcome more obstacles vs the life we are living independantly. I feel we need to connect in a forever type of way. I see your options and I know you have choices to make. I dont want to be strung along while you figure out if you welcome me back into your life. Right now life sucks and I know it would be better if you was with me, but our seperation is necessary I need to heal. I cannot come back to you and continue to hurt you. I hate hurting you but i just keep doing it which means i need to deal with some issues. I know if i came to you that you would gladly assist because thats just how you are, but I really want to do this on my own. I need to show you I am able to handle my issues like a adult. When i come back I dont wnat to leave again. I want to heal enought I dont want t

 You may feel like you are ill prepared to handle the tools you have been given in this battle call life. You have the strength to shape new tools if you feel that is what you need to do just remember what you create will be the first of their kind so you must train others to use those tools as well. It will be hard because your making up as you go.  You  should be wary of contracts presented to you at this time. Not all finance is good even when you need it coming in selling your soul for a few pesos is not fair to you. You have a knack to survive in situations others would buckle in. You have found healing in the midst of your spiritual famine.  You have spent much time surround by others trying to see how you do what you do. You have even tried to teach them and they still sat there acting like you didn’t teach them anything, but are using the skills they have learned from you to attack you.  You may have pulled back your energy to gain insight from your ancestors and guides. Seekin