Heart Song The Hearts Truth

I have been under the influence at work. I can't focus because I keep going over what is missing in this connection. You was supposed to be my foundation instead you just became a wall I had to tear down.I am so very tired of crying over you. You was so insecure and hate filled. You really couldn't just be proud that I wasn't insecure like you. I lived out loud no secrets. You loved that about me until it stopped you from controlling me then you began to hate me. I stripped away my insecurities to be with you and you made me feel unloveable and disgusting because how bad must I be for you to do me like this. I know you say you want to stop my tears I just don't trust it. You so caught up on me thinking your broke when im more concerned about your mind and heart. You think sex is always going to solve it and quite frankly the more I come the more I resent you. I just want whats fair to be fair. I want to walk away because this is hurting m

Gotta get away. Gotta run. I gave you a lot for the potential of who we could be. To many people involved in our connection. Tired of people being jealous becuase they dont want to see us together. I dont have time for any of that. I am working on my business and I cant afford to be distracted by games in love. You refuse to change fast enough anyhow. You know I am walking away and you are letting me. You may have gave up your ways but you wont communicate. I am busy being a parent. Shaping lives that will impact the future isnt easy. I am investing in theirs and my future getting spiritually aligned. Those trying to manouver around me will get the life they deserve. Bonous if I get to watch. I am moving up and away cuz I can see that Karma is coming good and bad. I was ready for us to be a we in all ways and have adventures. Instead I had to spend all my time figuring out why you refused to come to me. I couldnt wrap my head around it and I let it hold

Someone is thinking of things in the past. Rewriting their memories to be happier. Trying to rewrite the story so it has a happier ending. All you desire is to go on adventures and to stop missing out on life. Possibly feeling like happy and you were just not meant to be together. Quick connections with no substance are no longer desired. Not knowing when to say no but claiming awaeness in connectiomns is your new self talk. Declaring to yourself there is a best friend, true love, adventure partner, sweetheart, partner in crime out there just waitung fir the first steps to be taken. This person might have numerous piercings. This person when you hug then you do not like to release them. When you are with them you feel fertile. You are freeing yourself from darkness and toxicness. Your throat chakra has been blocked preventing the truth from coming out but now your free and you can find a safe place embraced by harmony to thrive in. Learning to stand alone is ha

This person feels no worries when they are with you. This person may have been your enemy in the past, but now they want to prove themselves to you. They have recognized that with you they can find healing. They fear looking you in the eyes you might catch the lies still floating in there. This person is aware you may never fully trust them, but that doesnt change that they want to be apart of your life. This person is looking for signs and syncronicity to come and make your life better. This person chooses to redeem themselves by being a true friend to you. This person is ok with not being in your life if that is your choice. They will not persue you if honoring your boundaries is all they can do then that is how they will honor you. Your friendship would be the icing on the cake, but this person is truly turning over a new leaf. So the change up will be apparent in all aspects of their lives. They dont have 100 percent confidence just yet but they are growing. This friend wil

We lied on you. We told your lovers and friends any and all negative things possible. From calling you for the streets to accusing you of being on drugs or an alcholic. We wanted the world to see us as your Savior. We wanted everyone to disregard how awesome you are and blessed you make us. Your knowledge and gifts were for us to hoard. If you had a blessing it was ours as well. Leaving you out made you work harder for our attention and love. We need you to let us back in your life. Like a crack head feenin for his next hit we crave you. Who is going to educate us. Who is going to give us free everything? You didn't even to learn things you just decided that is what you wanted to do and then did it. We hated it when you was happy. You look prettier, your energy is addictive and you thrive. You have walked away and you are so powerful that we know better to come at you disrepectully anymore. Your intution protects you from us. We did a lot of thing beind your back and had no sh

You need to speak with your chest. If you want to propose you have to talk to the person you want to marry. Standing in the shadows just watching them solves what?? Stop trying to create situations and just pick up the phone and call. Someone is dealing with the law and that is one reason why they havent called. They are expereriencing Karma left and right. They dont want to bring that around you. Once all that is handled they want to come your way and ask you if they can play for keeps. This person can be in their late 30s or early 40s. They are very creative. They look innocent but can hwip some ass. They also are actually as nice as they come across. This person isn't coming to you in Ares/Athena energy this person is going to be your Hephaestus/Hestia some who knows the value of home, love, and loyalty. Its time for a romantic level up. I know that sounds kind of arogant, but it is the truth as you level up you need a partner who not only matches your fly but matches

God you are so smart! How are you so confident and, happy when all these bad things happen in your life? Then your love with Divine Masculine is beautiful. I have even seen the growth sense I've been more involved in his life. I want to see what really happens between ya'll cuz it cant really be so magical. I played him to the left. I didn't cocreate with him. I ruined our abundance. I played like I didnt see what I was doing was causing pain. If i could I would fix it now. How you handle all this is ridiculous who is that strong? If you let me I would love to talk to you. I did you wrong. I would love to be firends. Regardless we are family now. I think about putting some of the stuff you say on shirts. I can't hold him back much longer. I should have appreciated him. After all my spying I look up to you. All my secrets are coming out. I tried to copy you and I wasted money and time. I dont get how you do it. Due to all I have done now people are watching you bec

What are you doing with yourself? You got a lil bit of time to fix this mess. Your children need to see you being better. Be happy your feminine is connected to source. Not many are gifted that way. I messed up and made you feel unloved and it was wrong of me to not ever really fix it. I get why when I came to you the door of communication was shut. I gave you empty promises to stay connected not any effort and i apologize. You brought delight to my life i promise. You are my joy. I admit i was spying on yours and others connected ou you page like the grandkids and their mom(s) and your friends. Some of them blocked me but enough connected to give me more insight into your life. I still see you as a baby and that isnt fair. I really want a better relationship with you. I have proved fickle in the past but no longer. I was young when you was born and did not handle it well. I was scared I would hurt you and funny enough i managed to do just that. I want to fix this I just need you t

Your job feels like a illusion. It looks great on the outside but on the inside its chaos and back bititng. You are trying to do your lifes work and you keep getting blocked. Don't worry there is co-workers or even supervisors who see the merit of your work and will be supporting you as you continue to press on. You will be blessed due to your hard work and preserverance. Your energy makes people feel like they have always known you. Those who have known you and lost connection with you are willing to do anything to get back in your life. To have the privilige of looking you in the eyes and not being shunned from your presence again. You are a blessing to all who work with you. Your presence is minimal and that causes discontent. You take people from their comfort zone and they want you to meet them in their safe space instead of making them come to you. The days of people using you are over. You might be applying other places or looking for other avenues to make finances. T

I'm coming for you. I am upset because I was counting on you to come to me. I see you over there being happier. I will step back if you dont want me. I am hoping that you do not ask that, but instead ask me to join you.I can't tell which way the tide is going to go in this connection. I know the way I have behaved in the past has shown me to be untrue, but can I just say give me a chance to prove that isnt me anymore? I won't let you be hurt by my pain anymore. I underestimated your intelligence and your need for knowledge and your connection to the divine that superseceds it all. Right now I am gearing up to kiss your ass literally and figuritively to pay you back for my ill will and false behavior. I promise I wont be fake about what I want out of this connection. I am having faith that I can have trust in you. I know deep in my soul that I want you to be mine. I want to help you raise kids whether that is mine, yours or ours i just want t ablood line legacy with yo

'Are you a real freak', 'as the day goes by I'm always thinking of your face your my eve and Im your adam so lets settle down'. I'm always looking at your picture it calms my heart down. Every time the music plays I can hear your voice. 'I don't want to fall asleep cuz I miss you' and then I wake and your not there and it fucking hurts. 'I want to rock the boat wit you you make me float, you make me high.' When I get to you I expect you to back up everything you said. Can you really 'put that thang in motion' or are you just talking to entice me. I want to get you into a position where you finally let loose and show me all the hidden desires that you have buried down within. I am terrified you might just turn me away I have played so many games and I don't blame you for having animosity towards me I just hope you still have some spot in your heart for me. You are so untouchable right now and I am so angry at myself for wasting

 When I picture… when I picture  the future I’m not working towards a better tomorrow I’m enjoying a quiet moment with you. Softly discussing our days and laughing at I wish you was there moments.  When I picture the future I see joy in work for us both because there is joy at home. I see support of dreams and encouragement to explore aspiration.  When I picture the future I see hugs after arguments because at the end of the day it  isn’t me against you but we against it all.    When I picture the future I see hope realized those times that past me had no words to describe of love and support and legacy.  I don’t imagine we won’t be discussing how we can make a impact, but that won’t be the only reason why we call ourselves a match.  Helping others is our calling, but enjoying love with no pressure  in all areas of life is what we really want to do so when I imagine the future it’s always in the living room on a couch at the end of the day wrapped up in the arms of my Bebe.

  You are balancing the masculine and feminine in you finding balance and embracing your duality. You are finding that the more you utilize both sides of you in the right situations your gifts compliment each other.  You are finding that that feeling of not enough is gone. Your not perfect that doesn’t make you not enough and that realization has soothed your soul. No longer frustrated by feeling you don’t deserve connections, lacking confidence all that self sabotage and fear vs ego fights are in the past. You are not yet the butterfly you want to be but you aren’t the caterpillar you used to be. Right now your in your chrysalis stage you are fragile , but that’s because a lot is going on within.  A whole chemical change has begun. You changed your mind set and your body is reacting to those new demands on it. Little tiny changes that have had momental  effects on your whole life in a different better way. All that out dated thinking has been tossed to the wayside.  You are remixing t

  The Hija of Water consists of her feelings associated with the freedom of the child. She remembers the moments when she was given cups of chamomile tea every time she was sad. She knows the remedy she needs, although she may not be able to prepare it herself. Just as the sweet aroma of chamomile will calm anxiety and flourish the soul, the child calms his soul and allows himself to be comfortable with a joyful heart. She embraces her dreams and often lets herself down in her imagination. So, the message I'm getting is you went through a lot as a child. Moments when you wanted to cry and didn't feel safe enough to do it. You probably turned to snacks as a kid and drugs and alcohol as an adult to soothe the aches that never healed. People may have even tried to give you things to attach you to them as well as push you further into addiction. I feel like now you have learned how to heal yourself. You have been making better choices to handle your pain and frustration no longer b

  333 can be a sign of a loved one whose no longer here who is reminding you that they are with you or that the ancestors have a message and you are protected by angels. The numbers are meant to remind you to have the strength to keep going. Also the numbers are meant to remind you that all things are possible with perseverance. T he angels are telling you that you are overflowing with power and energy.There may be too much fear and hostility in the environment for you to be heard. It might be that your ideas are not ripe enough or that you are not ready to listen to feedback from others. If you spend more time in contemplation, you may successfully disregard the emotional occupations and biases of others. For now, closely observe inner events. The time for sharing will come later. Take action on your most burning and passionate convictions, no matter what the social consequences. Continue to articulate and define yourself in light of the torch you are carrying. This inspires other