Heart Song The Hearts Truth

You to them: NO matter where I am I feel you. I am trying to figure out what went wrong. You are protected fromme and Icant just pop upon you. I am jealous of you, defensive about my behavior , codependant on your good enery, I'm hiding stalking and plotting on you all cuz my throat chakra is closed. I want to force you to make a choice. I want you to choose me and I had no idea I had made it nearly impossible for you to do so. I hurt you because I was busy watching others hurt you. I hate sitting back knowing I'm just destined to watch you. I should have took youout more. I should have wined and dined you. I should have changed a long time ago. I should have kept my promises to you. I know there will be no more oppurtunities. I know you are tired of my games. You are going to have the decadant life you deserve I just know it. I am surprised that you hid so much in you. If I would have just taken the time instead of playing stupid games I would have gaine

I keep hearing one, two, three, the devils after me... You already know how to defend yourself so your not worried about attacks from behind. You are so much more focused on the future and enjoying life. So much lost has already occured. Not just the things you cherished, but it seems to all just fall to the wayside. You are avoiding connections that lead you into compromising yourself. You have a path you want to be on and noone is going to discourage you. You have some connections coming your way that will be your suppoort and your encouragement. Do not think that these connetions aren't protected. These people have been sent towards you as gifts from the divine. All the obstacles that used to be barriers to your movement are falling to the wayside. Money, career, family, friends, whatever the hump you have to get over is literally dissappering like its never been a issue. Money is comijng in , family is healing, friends are supporting your world is changing f

Someone is in a connection with a abusive woman and this person won't admit to themselves they are a victiom. They think fighting back solidifies their man hood. This person is coming after you for teaching others to fight back because now they are battling everyone not just this woman. This man feels like you are blowing off his concerns because you are seemingly indifferent to them and the chaos they are drowning in. You pulling awah has them thinking you acting funny. They just want to wake up to you everymorning and yet they want to fight. The confliction is real. You always are surrounded by their entourage of false friends and now they are realzing you getting attacked is a ttack on them and that is what stirred them up. This man has found out that nothing in their life means much without you conected to it. Its like God gave you a hand book on them and noone else can comprehend it no matter how he trys to translate it for them this masculine can't ge

Someone is not feeling confident. They do not feel like you will allow them to getto know you. They are all in their feelings completely unsure how to come to you. They are begginning to have hope. The bad in their life is starting to dissapate. With this change in their emotional weather they are trying to not let their world go topsy turvey. In being more in tune with their emotions they are acknowledging they will always be Royal. If there is a masculine involved someone is upset with them. You had no more hope and then they came along and lifted you. ooooh. This masculine wants to know are you still down? They want to give you all their time. They have taken the time to get to know them selves so they will not lose themselves in you or anybody else. They see how much they are like you and they want to embrace you but at this moment they know there is no forward movement is the postion they are involved in. This masculine is striving to kearn to wear their heart on their slee

I hate when you raise your voice at me. I can't hear your words its just a rush of sounds my ears. On top of you being a ladies man I just didn't listen to myself and ended up somewhere that had me thinking I deserved this treatment. I felt I deserved to be left out. I thought I deserved to be depressed. I didn't realize my own self love would rescue me. I thought I loved me in the past, but I didn't I tolerated myself on occasion. I really hated myself. I felt I needed to put more work into myself becuase of what others told me. I didn't see the projections they was sending my way I took it all as heartfelt truths. I lived in the blackest of holes and gave anyone I precieved as being affected by me a wide berth to stay safe. I didn't realize people thought I was surpassing them I was just trying to survive. I spent so much time trying to avoid rejection I didn't force anyone to take accountablity for how they treated me. There was noone to turn to.

Someone wants to be codependant on someone. You have addictions and an obsession and your hope is that this person can help you. Playing in spell work got you trapped in your own cage and you want out. You are miserable and your possessive , contolling nature has been unmasked and others can see the real you. You have been blocked from what ever or whomever you are obsessing over and Spirit is trying to tech you restraint. Your plans of seduction was laughable. Did you not realize you never had that kind of hold on this person? You may have saw marriage in the future, but that was never the deal. Im hearing that was never going to make it on the list. For some reason you thought that this person had blinders on when really they were just letting you dream big and didn't deflate those little balloons of happiness for you. Why are you angry at them for going along wit your delusions? You choose to ignore every word coming out of their mouth about someone else just

You need to speak with your chest. If you want to propose you have to talk to the person you want to marry. Standing in the shadows just watching them solves what?? Stop trying to create situations and just pick up the phone and call. Someone is dealing with the law and that is one reason why they havent called. They are expereriencing Karma left and right. They dont want to bring that around you. Once all that is handled they want to come your way and ask you if they can play for keeps. This person can be in their late 30s or early 40s. They are very creative. They look innocent but can hwip some ass. They also are actually as nice as they come across. This person isn't coming to you in Ares/Athena energy this person is going to be your Hephaestus/Hestia some who knows the value of home, love, and loyalty. Its time for a romantic level up. I know that sounds kind of arogant, but it is the truth as you level up you need a partner who not only matches your fly but matches

You are so smart. Whatever was blocking you is gone. Your connection with the divine feminiine is a beautiful story. I want to see the ending. I want a love like yours. I want a masculine like you. I am upset that this growth is taking you away from me. I am so sad I feel like I am losing you. I have nothing to fill my void becuase i don't have a healthy attachment to you. I am not sleeping well since we sepearted but I know it was for your spiritual health. I want to go on adventures with you around the world. I have to be honest I am not the only spy in your life. I thought i was doing what was best for you. I am so mad at you right now! I need to get some help. I have some unhealthy thinking. I just know im willing to do anything to gain your forgiveness. I will kiss your ass to get your forgivenes. If you find out all the truth will you still love me? I caused so many problems! I have seen the error of my ways. Well i understand the consequences of my actions. I want

I'm coming for you. I am upset because I was counting on you to come to me. I see you over there being happier. I will step back if you dont want me. I am hoping that you do not ask that, but instead ask me to join you.I can't tell which way the tide is going to go in this connection. I know the way I have behaved in the past has shown me to be untrue, but can I just say give me a chance to prove that isnt me anymore? I won't let you be hurt by my pain anymore. I underestimated your intelligence and your need for knowledge and your connection to the divine that superseceds it all. Right now I am gearing up to kiss your ass literally and figuritively to pay you back for my ill will and false behavior. I promise I wont be fake about what I want out of this connection. I am having faith that I can have trust in you. I know deep in my soul that I want you to be mine. I want to help you raise kids whether that is mine, yours or ours i just want t ablood line legacy with yo

I lied. I'm sorry. How do you keep loving me? I tried to use dark magic on you. I will get therapy for us. I can help you make money. I can help build your legacy. My family keeps making fun me when it comes to love. I did't know I needed to grow up not for me not for you not for anyone.  I thought being a kid at heart meant being childlike ya know? No responsiblities or serious connections because that was for settling down and I wasnt ready for that. I am trying to be perfect for you although i know you dont need me to be.  I'm not going to lie I have been suicidal due to my overwhelming karma. I keep asking God how to make this stop but He is silent. I guess I have to do what I was supposed to do in the first plaace and dig deep to figure out why I am the way I am then figure out how to fix it. What if I cant what if I am meant to be a monster. You dont want a monster and noone else matters to me now but you so what do I do?   I promise you I truly am trying to be a bett

I'm not scared anymore. I am heading your way and I'm walking upright instead of sneaking.  I don't want to fight you anymore.  I have been putting in work, but I allowed my lust to interfere with my heart. I turned you into this warrior and I am in awe, but I am also ashamed because you shouldn't have to be so hard. I used to let anything and everything get in between us.  You are of a royal priesthood. You deserve to be with only another royal. I am taking this time to learn myself. I kept losing myself in my connections and I held on tight to my facade. I don't want to do that anymore. I won't lose myself to you or anyone else again.  My family influenced me heavily in my interactions with you. I played games with you when I should have taken you seriously. I thought with you I would lose out on growing. I thought others would lead me to my ambitions I didn't know you could teach me to reach them on my own.  I didn'

Constantly you are on my mind. Like a repeating line a melody, you just can't get out your ear. I want so much and I want to say..I don't know I just know I need YOU. My life is in shambles and I feel like all I can do is ramble about what I desire. It doesn't imply you are any less it's just my heart might burst if I were to invest all I feel because it's all of me. My heart aches that I hurt you like this. Your defenses are up so high. You let me in only so much and then you pull back with fear in your eyes and though I feel surprised I know I caused those triggers. I want to make you my Janet in a Busta Rhymes Video. I want to make you soaking wet as soon as I get you in that bed. I wanna make you back up all those things you said then make you climb in ecstasy force you to gasp and then you go and spread your legs to cradle me letting me be the lead going fast then slow giving you the speed you need. I have to show you because I don't know how to tell you as