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Olive Tree

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In astrology, the olive tree is  associated with the zodiac sign Aquarius . The olive tree is a symbol of peace, friendship, and forgiveness, which are values that Aquarians are said to hold dear.   The olive tree is a symbol of abundance, as it produces an abundance of fruit, oil, and leaves.   Olive trees can live for over a thousand years, making them some of the oldest botanical specimens in the world.   The olive tree is considered sacred in many cultures and traditions.   The olive tree is considered lucky in many cultures.    Hippocrates, the father of medicine, used olive oil to heal ailments.   Romans used olive oil to wash their hair and beautify their skin.   olive tree has a deep historical significance in Greek mythology and tradition. In Greek mythology, the goddess Athena created the olive tree after winning a contest with Poseidon to control Athens.  My heart is fragile.I have finally learned hw to...

Hawthorn the illusionist

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All cards on the table I am scared to take a chance. I don't have a strategy and I cant hide behind facades and games.Im so scared. I can't use sex, I cant use money. What do I do? I cheated or at least involved more people than you in our connection. I just want to get you back in my arms so I can love on you like you deserve. I didn't show my true self to you. I didn't give us a chance. I want to come towards you but someone else might get to you first and tell you all I did behind your back. You may never look at me th same. I am truly despicable and I have the nerve to want more with you. I know I can't and never will be able to give you all you need. I will always be spread thin and always putting you at the bottom of my list not because you are the least but because you will always be the last I have energy for. i owe so many people time and I just keep short changing you. If I was you I would run and never look back. All I am goi...

Leo

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You just wanted to be with someone who gave you balance. You wanted a Union that you was literally the other half of. Even if you was the polar opposite you still wanted symestry. You have a soft heart and you just knew you was going to have romance, flirting, and romantic dates. You was not prepared for verbal abuse, slurs, and the fighting. You was not prepared to feel like a 3rd party in your own home. You thought certan connections change things. You was unaware the leeles people will go to be connected to another. You thought you was heading towards expansion and the safe space to be innovative instead your dreams were crushed and your love thrown in your face, So you are leaving it alone. Why keep trying if betrayl and dimimishing of spirit is all that is offered?? Heartbreak and pain, seperation and loss, deception and lies were the only gifts from the repeated shocking attacks from your so called loved ones. Where is a place to hold faith for love to come when from the c...

How did you know that I hate you??

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Whats do you do that makes you do unique? How do you just know and keep on moving forward thru life 5 steps ahead.  How are you so grounded? Life sucks and you have the nerve to walk thru life like the Universe loves you.  You have nothing to your name no fame and yet you have the nerve to walk around the world like the Universe favors you. You act like the sun shines just to make your day better.  I want only rain and storms and disaster for you!! How dare you survive and thrive. You wake people up, you educate them you teach them to heal themselves. You are a menace.  God touched , reincarnated royalty whatever your excuse is for being you ... I don't like it. I know you have done nothing to make me feel this way but I feel like you will steal my family from me.  You have this can do attitude and this inner confidence that it's all gonna work out for you in the end. It's like you have some special  information no one else has. Peop...

Boom like a 808

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Boom like an 808" is a reference to a booming, low-frequency bass sound that's a staple in many music genres, including hip-hop, trap, and electronic dance music (EDM). The term "808" comes from the Roland TR-808 Rhythm Composer drum machine, which was released in 1980. The bass drum from the TR-808 is often called the "808 kick".  "808" has also become a slang term for a "beat" or "track". For example, the phrase "heart beating like an 808" is common in pop songs. Even people who aren't musicians or producers may understand the reference to the 808 as a drum sound because of its prevalence in lyrics.  The 808 is a versatile instrument that combines the elements of a kick drum and a bassline. It's a sought-after sound for music producers, who often use 808 kick samples or emulations to create impactful basslines. Someone got with a liar. This person pretended to be put together. To be kinder, more ...

Play games with your mama not me!

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You want to come in telling lies. You want to have sex. You would willingly be a whore for me to get what I have cuz you're too lazy to put in work in something real that would be lasting for you. You didn't appreciate that they don't make them like me no more. You were to focussed on what I had and what others saw as valueable in me instead of seeing me. I tried to heal the wounds in you that others caused and you kept hurting me. So I walked away and you have the nerve to be begging for me back. I gave you all the freedom in the world and you bound me. You attacked me and had others join in at blocking my life. You dont see me, but you see my financial worth. Fuck you and your emotional, physical, and finacial abuse. Noone has time for someone with so much self hate that they project it on others. Go on and be with people who dont value you or themselves. Misery loves company and this person was throwing the biggest pity party. Spiritually attacking...

Amon-Ra

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So you got someone who wants you to fight with them over someone. This fire sign energy wants you to prove you love them, but they have decided to protect you from this person willing to fight you over them. You did not expect them stand up for you. You did not need a protector but this energy wants to take on that role. Not because you need them, but because you deserve to have somone fight for you. You inspire them to be their best and who wouldnt fight for someone who encourages their best traits and celbrates them in every way. You bring abundance in every arena of your life. You slice away the crap and get to the grit of life. You fight for the underdog and like a dog with a bone you dont let go until you are sure something is ready to be buried. There is no magic spell or formula to what you do. You are just, you find your inner strength and jump. You strive to bring balance and justice in anyplace you are in others can feel that energy. You are not allowing ...

Sekhmet

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Someone wants axcess to whats on your mind, what your plans are and who you are planning to do things with. They want to make your connection permanent. They feel all the turmoil and drama you both have overcome is definitely making you stronger and bringing you both together. They feel you always come back tgether due to the Universe having a higher plan for you both. This person has been forced to face some big truths and how they manage is the last test for coming together with you. This maybe a childhood sweetheart, but they haven't grown up with you. Something kept them stagnant and now they are rushing to try and finally grow up. You are so smart. Thru that itelligence you are seeing that it was never about you it ws laways others projecting their behavior on you. Your love and friendship could not be measured. You operated in love and goood faith and others shitted on your kindness, When you pull that away from people they are lost and thirstying for any in...

4th house

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In astrology, the fourth house is associated with home, family, and heritage. It can also represent a person's relationship with their maternal figure and their outlook on domesticity. The fourth house is located at the base of the natal chart and is associated with the energy of Cancer. The Moon is the planet associated with the fourth house, but some say that Earth is a more logical choice because it represents our home. The fourth house can reveal a person's early home memories and experiences. The fourth house can represent a person's relationships with family, whether by blood or choice. The fourth house can rule over a person's overall domestic condition.The fourth house can represent the final outcome of a situation. Planets moving across the fourth house can encourage a person to invest in their infrastructure by creating more private spaces. Somethings arent changing no matter the new atmosphere because it is the people not the place. You want n...

North Node

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In astrology, the North Node is a celestial point in a person's birth chart that represents their destiny, growth, and evolution. It's also known as the north lunar node. The North Node indicates what a person is growing into, and the experiences they need to have for spiritual growth. It can also show what a person is trying to achieve, and what they can accomplish in a 1.5-year cycle. The North Node is a powerful astrological placement that can provide insight into a person's strengths, weaknesses, and potential. The North Node is one of the lunar nodes, along with the South Node. The South Node represents karma, past experiences, and familiar patterns. The North Node is considered to be where a person is going, while the South Node is where they came from. The North Node's zodiac sign, house, and aspects can indicate the experiences a person needs for spiritual growth. Sexual health is important to you. Get tested and show you proof is the only way...

Scorpio

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You have wakened up and being unaware to all that is happening has gotten you caught up. You do not see yourself surving this pit you have gotten dragged into. NO rebirth after everything burns down you just see death and destruction. You had hopes of partnership and growth, but you disrupted other peoples happinness in order for you to obtain it. Ok so you was hurting and lost does that give you the right to attack others? Seperation and devestation are now all that will be on your plate. The hurt and triangulation you participated in you will now suffer a similar trauma. Love was yours and now it will flee from you just as you chose to flee from it. Think love bombing and ghosting.. that will be your new bread and butter. You have played the rule of the other and have found you enjoy it. Once you have a connection you dislike it and that is not ok for others to experience they are not mice and you arent a cat. You kept trying to show other people who they were but...

Distance made my heart weep.. come back???

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I wanna tear dat ass up. I have grown... in a lot of ways. You bring light to my dark world. Without you I'd still be dead inside. I want to make this work. I know now what i have done to mess things up and I am going to change all of that. I got some ideas and I want try some taboo type things witchu. I see you moving on and I want to catch up. I don't want you being independant anymore I want you connected to me. I will protect you from my mother I know now she is your opp. I didn't understand why and now I get it doesnt matter I am just going to take care of you. I know you can handle yourself, but I see now you shouldn't have to. I didn't get that just you loving me wasn't going to blind you to my actions it just blinded your heart. You refused to accept me for me because you saw thru the facade. Thank you for seeing the real me. I see that im finally doing what you need. I didn't imagine that I wasn't paying attention before but n...

You are leading me towards eternal loneliness for the cost of love

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Sometimes you need to be careful what you wish for because felonious behaviour is on the rise. Someone wants that Romeo & Juliet love, but they seemed to forget Romeo was a fuck boy who literally was whining about Roslyn minutes before meeting Juliet. Fickle. No, I am not saying anything about love at first sight cuz I do believe in it but the whole point of the play was to teach about rushing into things and that is what you are being warned about. You wont be the Queen/King to a Karmic. This person is watching you.They know they have hurt you. You might be posting on a platform about it or maybe they just know. They are giving you the space to walk away or stay. Their throat chakra blocked jealousy, overly defensive, codependant, reclusive, you talk to much, tell lies, gossip, secretive, and shy. You need to get a amulet or ring or bracelet something you will never remove. Bless it and put it on. This person really wants to reconcile. They know that there is a ...

You say I'm crazy but you call me baby and i'm not the only one..can you say my name cuz you cant pay the bills???

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I have been under the influence at work. I can't focus because I keep going over what is missing in this connection. You was supposed to be my foundation instead you just became a wall I had to tear down.I am so very tired of crying over you. You was so insecure and hate filled. You really couldn't just be proud that I wasn't insecure like you. I lived out loud no secrets. You loved that about me until it stopped you from controlling me then you began to hate me. I stripped away my insecurities to be with you and you made me feel unloveable and disgusting because how bad must I be for you to do me like this. I know you say you want to stop my tears I just don't trust it. You so caught up on me thinking your broke when im more concerned about your mind and heart. You think sex is always going to solve it and quite frankly the more I come the more I resent you. I just want whats fair to be fair. I want to walk away because this is hurting m...

Oil and grime, acid rain....Slime beneath me oh slime up above...toxic love

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Gotta get away. Gotta run. I gave you a lot for the potential of who we could be. To many people involved in our connection. Tired of people being jealous becuase they dont want to see us together. I dont have time for any of that. I am working on my business and I cant afford to be distracted by games in love. You refuse to change fast enough anyhow. You know I am walking away and you are letting me. You may have gave up your ways but you wont communicate. I am busy being a parent. Shaping lives that will impact the future isnt easy. I am investing in theirs and my future getting spiritually aligned. Those trying to manouver around me will get the life they deserve. Bonous if I get to watch. I am moving up and away cuz I can see that Karma is coming good and bad. I was ready for us to be a we in all ways and have adventures. Instead I had to spend all my time figuring out why you refused to come to me. I couldnt wrap my head around it and I let it hold ...

kicked the habit that is you

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Normally I am the hunter prepared for any type of prey. Usually I come after people becuase of what they have. I set my eyes on them and i always hit my shot. Yet, lately I just want to make my own. I want to be able to say I did it myself. I want to know that you know that means my money will be slower. I want to evolve and in my present circumstances I don't see the possiblity of healing. I spent a lot of time chasing our connection. I was so codependant terrified that if I didnt fix our connection there would be no connection to have. I knew i couldnt turn to my friends to find solace. Living in the moment wasnt going to save me when i was drowning in our connection. I needed time to be my best self and i allowed societies pressures to dictate how i made that happened. Progress was more important than growth and refuse to embrace the idea that the paradigm of our connection was always wrong. The lack of healthy choices in our connection trickled to other conne...

A conversation with Granny

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Oh you will always be her baby. They have had your back even though they have been lonegr then you knew them. Its time to finish out your dreams. You do not need to cry anymore she says the tough times are almost over. If you need a sign look to the sky and the first thing you see that is white is from her. You may sat at night and talk to her looking towards the moon and she says she sees you. You have been rushing forward and she says enjoy the ride. Their will be those who can catch your vibe that is who you can lean on. Focus on your intrests. Stick to your standards. Make them come to uou she says. No text are enough effort needs to be present. If they really care they will make you aware. Do not allow them to turn you into their therapist to the point you need one as well. Every question you have you already know the asnwer from their sexuality to the thefts. Trust your instinct more moore often.

why is this happening?

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Your heart has been set free. Your abuser/s can no longer axcess you. They can try to apply their version of pressure but it aint gonna work. They have no idea the bloodline they fucking with. They been praying to God asking HIM to curse you like a whole ass weirdo. This/ese abuser/s has/ve the nerve to cry about the lost of this connection. They will say they have been abused and thats why they behave as they do. Anything they can do to get back in your good graces they will do. They are willing to let you attack them. They know they would have been safe with you. You gave them wings and made them feel special. They are a trickster/s don't believe them.They are going to come back saying the sweetest things. They will tell you they are fighting their demons. That they want to finally deleve into who you are. They will proclaim they want your happiness above all else while behind the scenes they are undermining you. You being in a happy relationship made them sick with jealousy....

I can find the beat in everything but my heart. Without you im dead.

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You are a miracle. You are so impressive. Can you just sit on my lap and never leave? If you dont want to be with me I totally get it I have spent to much time hurting you why would you believe i want to make it up to you? You make me so happy with your cheerful disposition. Your quirkiness is beautiful. . Even when changes occur and something just aint right you manage to keep educating folks. You are doing what you was called to do. I surrender my heart to you. Iknow its beat up and tarnished but its all yours. I dont have any strategy to bring you back excet open my heart and maybe you will step into it. My struggles will not keep me from coming back to you. I will even assist you with work drama. If they are coming against you they are coming against us i get that. The longer we are apart the more bleak life seems. I see you out there making moves though. You are totally #Wifeygoals #youaremyangel you are the reason i dont need a drink. I am looking at your social media c...

Taurus

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Let me save you this time you are saying to your person. The old you is dead and cremeated you are a new you and ready to be the person they want. You are codependant and they are going to have to deal with it. You don't care if their feelings aren't reciprocated you can feel enough for the both of you. Your person is creative, and intelligent. A go getter and a ideas person who never ceases to amaze you. They are tall to. You admire their intelllience and their ablitiy to make money. You like them being chaotic peaceful is boring. You like them needy for you. If they sit back and think about your actions they would cease giving but they lack clarity and wisdom when it comes to you. You wish you could keep them wearing rose colored glasses, but its not paying off anymore. When you arent with them you will call just to keep them bound. No options just smooth sailing right to hell becuaseyou dont stand your ground why should you when you can make them feel ...