Heart Song The Hearts Truth

I have a lot of things I need to hide. Like i don't think your adorable. Spirit is mad at me and I am facing Karma. I was the fuck up in my connections...all of them. I never tried really hard. I tend to stalk becuse I am insecure and have some childhood trauma I can't heal from becuase my abuser is still in my life. I want to mark you as mine, but right now I can't. I realize I have been waiting my whole life for you and you was right here. I spent more time tearing you down and undermining your growth. I couldn't see how magic you were. You was the smooth whiskey in the dark night of the soul on the rocks my life has been. I haven't done nearly a quarter of the inner work that you have cuz I never started. I want to say you are spying on me, but I know you aren't that way. I just have to keep hoping you will show me some toxicness to feel more safe around you. Your kindness rung false, but that is because i didn't know any real kindness. You are my li

Sometimes you need to be careful what you wish for because felonious behaviour is on the rise. Someone wants that Romeo & Juliet love, but they seemed to forget Romeo was a fuck boy who literally was whining about Roslyn minutes before meeting Juliet. Fickle. No, I am not saying anything about love at first sight cuz I do believe in it but the whole point of the play was to teach about rushing into things and that is what you are being warned about. You wont be the Queen/King to a Karmic. This person is watching you.They know they have hurt you. You might be posting on a platform about it or maybe they just know. They are giving you the space to walk away or stay. Their throat chakra blocked jealousy, overly defensive, codependant, reclusive, you talk to much, tell lies, gossip, secretive, and shy. You need to get a amulet or ring or bracelet something you will never remove. Bless it and put it on. This person really wants to reconcile. They know that there is a

No more fake hangouts. No more catering to those who abuse you. No longer will you stay feeling used and abused in connections. That karmic cycle of make up to break up is over. Abandonment and abuse are no longer dishes served at the party that is your life. Any patterns that lead you to destruction they are done. Using silent treatment to control is out the door. Any connections with self involved narcissit and love bombing are no longer a option. You are making changes in your life that will bring good out circumstances to the forefront. You are prepared for the surprises and you are enjoying the ephiapanies that come with the whiffs of inspriration heading your way. That self love is going to be the spice in life and so many people need it. Your unconventional ways are why you cant be strung alng. People think they have the keys to your secrets go ahead and show them they just got backstage passes to a real healing journey. No more empath vs narsissitic drama and

You don't realize God's making moves on your behalf. He is waking up those what dared to dream your destruction. There were so many times abundance was stripped from your hand. You was chased instead of welcomed. You sat there thinking hard before you made your moves.You knew that if others knew where you intended to be they would have tried to sacrifice your goal before you even reached your first step towards it. They would have distorted your path even more than they already have. You would have been feeling like #buttonbright on the #RoadtoOz which reminds me you would have been better off getting a #lovemagnet like the #ShaggyMans so they would stop hating becuase they do not want to stop. They can't see the point in coming to you when the road is so treacherous. If they just turn away from you there is material wealth. You feel like a ghost in their life anyway and they need to stack their pentacles. They feel like people are just waiting to pick

You are awakening. You will achieve enlightenment and thus you should focus on personal development now. You will soon reach your higher status and consciousness.~1010 Take a step back and think about what your opportunities are and how you can move forward.~1100 Your guardian angels ask you to have faith and take the necessary steps to have a settled life. Surrender your worries to the Divine. ~3377 Achievement, progress, abundance, and success. Karma and Universal laws of cause and effort. ~88 Embrace life and open your eyes to signs. ~1111 You have the wisdom to make the right decisions. You are being called to rely on your inner wisdom and intuition whenever you feel lost and confused. Exhibit rational behavior.~850

We lied on you. We told your lovers and friends any and all negative things possible. From calling you for the streets to accusing you of being on drugs or an alcholic. We wanted the world to see us as your Savior. We wanted everyone to disregard how awesome you are and blessed you make us. Your knowledge and gifts were for us to hoard. If you had a blessing it was ours as well. Leaving you out made you work harder for our attention and love. We need you to let us back in your life. Like a crack head feenin for his next hit we crave you. Who is going to educate us. Who is going to give us free everything? You didn't even to learn things you just decided that is what you wanted to do and then did it. We hated it when you was happy. You look prettier, your energy is addictive and you thrive. You have walked away and you are so powerful that we know better to come at you disrepectully anymore. Your intution protects you from us. We did a lot of thing beind your back and had no sh

I need a partner not a liablity. I think you are perfect for me please. I have abandonment issues and I know that can be irritating in the long term of dealing with someone but its not all crying internally I promise. In the next little while you will see some changes and I hope that you aill accept the change. I know that I will have to kiss your ass but I'm not overthinking it. I see the innocence in your heart and i want to protect that at all costs. I want to pray more about us but I don't know what to say or who to even talk to. Do you pray for us? Do you pray that our love changes from the toxic pit that it is right now? I want you to feel safe and i know that i actually make youfeellike there is pie on your face. I apologize that i keep acting up. I dont want a superficial life with you and right now thats all we could have because I am scared to dig deep. I want to be with you so bad. I don't want nor need more lessons in love they hurt especially the ones I

Your nothing like him. You are to plain. You are slim. You have gone thru to much to sacrifice it be a soft female.He is going to keep you from making the big money. He is asking you to step up and do thankless probono type work. Take it easy and think this thru. What if he is worst then the rest? What if what he was what you refused to believe he was? I know i have given you no oppurtunity to know our family. I felt it was his job. I choose to saty far away but i have been watching... well until you blocked me. You are in the middle of buildng a legacy. Is a relationship a good idea right now? Why tie yourself to one person? So what if your alone when you are older. Its all subjective anyways. He is in no shape to be your partner. There have been so many people doing magic on him that hes buried in karmic debt. I keep a eye out because you are family even if noone is treating you that way. I am so proud of you. I have watched you grow and your chahracter hasnt changed. I would be

All the things you said running thru my head has me feeling I am not enough. You deserve more than I can give emotionally, finanancially,mentally and even physically. I have been sexually unwise and I have a STD/STI( sexually transmitted demon or incubus). I am connected to too many people sexually and I do not how to release those bonds. I like having so many people wanting me. I feel loved having so many people fighting for my attention. I didn't regonize real love. I feel if you love me you will keep doing for me. When you stop you don't love me. I know you have to live your life and being up my ass isn't part of your whole day. I promise you I am not closed off. I am just scared of you seeing to much or figuring out I am a fraud. I ran away in November because its just to much emotions to handle. I thought kepping things sexual was going to protect my heart, but I just fell even harder for you. I feel if I come forward to fast you will lose sight of what you are

I have no idea which way to go. I can't sleep. When I do see you I always feel like it's spring. Your spirit is so beautiful you had to have been here before.  I was scared to lose you and had magic used on you. I now know that from my dreams I didn't have to do that we are meant to be and I should have trusted our connection.  I know the Gods are blessing you. I am not like you. I am wicked like a Dark Fae. I know I made you feel like you had to hide parts of yourself from me. I'm so sorry love. I want to ask you what our song should be.  I know I'm trying to brush all the bad away, but it's because I am broken and I feel like I have to hide from you. I love you and I can't say it.  I'm losing you.  I don't care what anyone thinks or says I have to fight for this. Why won't you just let me love you? Why won't I let me just love you?  You are  Wonderful, empathic, intuitive, righteous, and determined. 

I'm not scared anymore. I am heading your way and I'm walking upright instead of sneaking.  I don't want to fight you anymore.  I have been putting in work, but I allowed my lust to interfere with my heart. I turned you into this warrior and I am in awe, but I am also ashamed because you shouldn't have to be so hard. I used to let anything and everything get in between us.  You are of a royal priesthood. You deserve to be with only another royal. I am taking this time to learn myself. I kept losing myself in my connections and I held on tight to my facade. I don't want to do that anymore. I won't lose myself to you or anyone else again.  My family influenced me heavily in my interactions with you. I played games with you when I should have taken you seriously. I thought with you I would lose out on growing. I thought others would lead me to my ambitions I didn't know you could teach me to reach them on my own.  I didn'

Your light intrigues my shadow side. You make me feel powerful and "connected" even though we are just being us.  I am no longer conflicted about you and I. I know what I have to do for you. All I can do is walk away.  The fighting is done.  I quit.  I see you on this self love journey and I know I can't join you.  My boundaries are bad and I always fail to acknowledge yours.  I hide the parts of me that you want to see in favor of the parts of me that drive you further away. It's like there is a war going on within me and at this moment I don't know who is winning.  I even taking from work; so I'm just messing up every where. I went back to a ex or two.  I just want to be numb and not feel anything because I can't feel you.  I'm tired of using people to have what I need. I don't want to be addicted to things in my life or even people. Especially people who hated on you for just loving me.  Right now if I have to be alone so be it.  Ok,  I'm ly

 You have been working hard to gain abundance. You have put in effort as one would do to grow food.  Researching, to build your legacy the right way. No longer do you feel burdened by who is going to understand your path. You feel free like a an adventurer you are making inroads into places that no one has gone and no one expects you to go to.   The ground isn’t unstable to you anymore. You have created paths where there was none. Others now will be able to see you and follow you not because you are a idol, but because you have shown them they can overcome just like you have.  Your hard work has came with battles against foes that seemed as big as a elephant. You have fought for and found abundance in areas you wasn’t meant to find it. You have flourished where noone thought you was able to and now you are surrounded by so much you will be able to share. 

  There is a ending occurring and you didn’t think this path would get you to this place, but it’s time to be here it’s time to get to the end of the road.  You have fought hard to get to this juncture in life. You maybe battle weary, but there is no more people to fight no more is there need to be defensive. You will receive all you need once you get pass this last hurdle.  Your creative endeavors are paying off it’s been hard to stay dedicated, but you knew that you had to keep pushing. There was a need to fight alone to know exactly where you stand now you fight battles without even lifting a hand.  You are not double minded on this gift you share it is feeding you as you feed others. 

  You might be on pause. Spirit has you at a stand still due to you needing to learn to use calm and gentle tactics. You have been in the king of swords energy.  You haven’t been thinking with emotion. It’s been just cold logic for awhile. You are being asked to look within yourself. When you react in any way, but peaceful you cause turbulence in your life. Open your heart then your mouth people are waiting to hear you. 

  So, check this out I got two singers in my head and it's like they are vying for the mike to give a message. Adele: ...someone like you, I wish nothing but the best for you Drake: ...you used to call me on my cell phone Now I hear Joe... let's make a love scene... for an audience of two... So first off, it's too early for ya'll to be in your feelings its 3:30 my time but a message is a message lol... Anyway, Some feminine energy (not sex specific) is sending her dear john letter to the sky. They don't know how to say goodbye but she knows it's time to separate. So, they could be sending a text or email maybe evening actually writing it but by the time whomever they are writing gets the message they intend to be gone. Sadly, the person they are walking away from is on their way towards them: they had some plans to ... well, you saw what joe said. Anyways i don't know why you are leaving but I know your person is coming I guess the question is will you wa

  I hear Pharell in my head...Beautiful I just want you to know you're my favorite girl.. Someone wants you to know they are jealous of you (regardless of energy). Your Spirit is so bright few appreciate it without slightly hating and this person knows that and they feel bad for you but also happy when you fade due to depression. Your light shines on their perceived weaknesses and while they want to cling to you they also want to bury you. As you turn over a new leaf do not let folks take you out of your rhythm. Go ahead and walk away from people and this person especially who want you to dim your light. Its not your responsibility to make others feel ok just because you are happy with yourself nor is it your job to actively teach them. Part of the journey is looking for what works for YOU to be happy not what is the next person doing. Spirit is giving you your flowers in the 5d and 3d. Spirit and your ancestors are so proud of you. You have walked away from 3rd party situations

  You are destined for different and you refuse to be trapped in the illusion of the past. You seeing through the illusion and it's beautiful. You got folks counting your pockets trying to see how you keep moving forward when they are trying to stop your money and happiness. You might be experiencing a Kundalini awakening. Have you been going outside to look at the stars because you should you might get a revelation. Any evil eye sent your way has been returned to sender. You know what they don't that their validation is no longer required. Angel Numbers: 284, 790, 771, 222, 33

 How are you gonna glow up this person? They was happy knowing you was they happy lil secret. They knew you was amazing they just couldn't see past your size to be with you in public. Now you have changed in a way that makes them totally see you; all of you. They excused it by telling themselves they didn't want you when the whole time they did they was just to superficial and admitting hat to you would make you turn away and stop giving them the awesome love you had.  Now they see how valuable you are and that you really are desired just for being you and now they want to prove to you that they always have loved you always was just blind to it.  

 Overflow it's  coming that abundance you want is coming. That extra umph you need is here. Stop getting frustrated you have been putting in the work. You have let go of alot of connections that no longer serve you. You are seeking healing for yourself. No, longer trying to please others. You are taking care of yourself  mind, body, and soul. You aren't letting no-one sabotage this self love affair. Now if someone wants to be in your presence that they have to show you by action. Its all about timing. When the time is right Spirit will send you to your final first time Love. You got this!!! Its only solo for a little while longer. You are definitely showing the world what being a BLACK sheep means and your partner will be about that same energy. They won't try to hold you back or sabotage you. They will be your warrior. They won't take chances without discussing it. They will show you a love that goes back to the first moment of the very first love.   They won't put