so...

 So,

Have you been trying to make a web of lies stick together. Some lies about love because you feel abandoned? Whoever you was trying to keep trapped was your ideal mate, but you was busy playing games with others and you got tricked. 

So,

You trying to fix your web of lies to get your blueprint partner back. Spirit is saying there is no words, no actions that will convince and deep down you know it.

This person was your shea butter baby. They are receiving Justice because of your past deceptions. I'm sorry your just realizing how much they meant to you.

I'm sorry you feel empty.

You can't mark someone as yours especially if they are telling you NO.

Real love isn't forced, isn't supposed to be a negotiation either. You know they are a delight and you truly may be sorry and you might even be ready to risk it all, but you don't want to change even if you really want them in your life you cannot rewrite history and make them see things your way. You need to make the necessary changes and then be ok with them still not wanting anything to do with you. Due to the fact you changed for yourself... wait you did change for you right??