Have You Ever ... loved someone for years and still have to walk away??

Brandy~ Have You Ever

Brian Mcknight~ Back At One

Lauren Hill~ Ex Factor

Boys 2 Men~ End of The Road

Boys 2 Men~ I'll Make Love To You

En Vogue ~ What's it Gonna Be

Someone feels the pain that they have been causing you for years. They are serenading you thru the 5d. You are a dream come true after it seems like years of nightmares. They are trying to remember how they convinced you to fall in love the first time. They can't figure out why its so hard to get you to reconnect. They feel they lost you even if you are still speaking to them the energy is different and they NOTICE and internally they are seething because they feel like you are withholding the love they are used to on purpose because you are mad at them. They can't fathom you are reacting to their words and actions. 

You feel like like you can't prove your Love anymore than you have. They have spent years telling you this isn't what they wanted but they stayed in your energy and now that you are listening to their repeated admonishments of "its not gonna be that you end up with", " I need to work more on myself its not fair to you", "I'm not ready for a commitment". You know situationship energy so you had a fuck boy or a thottianna that you was dealing with and after repeatedly putting you on the back burner now they want to show you that they finally see you as a worthy partner. 

You have put a end to this flakey persons axcess to you. Whether you told them you was walking or you just ghosted them your gone and have no intention of looking back. 

 Some of you had someone who repeated shoved their colorism in your face and now its biting them in the butt because they didn't realize that you would feel ostracized by their very verbal relaying of their ideal preferences. Others spent all their time complimenting other women to you, but never complimented you making you feel insecure( this was intentional to make you want to prove yourself to them) and want to prove your appeal by being freakier or letting them cross boundaries you would've normally defended  tooth and nail. 

 You are growing  and the changes in your energy your spirit  are evident to those who know you and strangers just immediately since your good hearted energy. This person wouldn't have been able to transition with you anyhow they haven't accepted the journey because they don't want to help others let  alone the world even if it is one person at a time. Being compassionate without a return on their energy investment seems stupid to this person. I won't call them your person because slowly their mask has fell and  the monster they truly was has finally been revealed for the world to see. 

You haven't allowed yourself to feel the pain of this " final" betrayal. You have numbed yourself to this pain because its been occurring for years. Yet, I can feel your tears you are literally drowning in them. If you have to play sad music to induce crying or watch sad videos do it just to get this heaviness off your Spirit because you keep saying you done being sad, but mourning a lost or death of a relationship is not only healthy, but necessary for your leveling up. 

Please go spend some time with Spirit and yourself let go of your emotional burdens so you can move on to the next level.