i'm taking my time

No matter how good my facade you manage to see past it to the mischeious me or the sad me. I hate that you get past my armour. How do I get you into as equal a vulnerable postion. Due to your spiritual gifts I can't make any plans to make a move towards you. I have no support on how to reconnect but it is my biggest heart desire. I have been bracing myself for the blowback from spirit. I have to be honest I dont trust you yet. I am ready accept my gifts as well. You have inspired me to embrace then rather than run from them. I need a little time to get my shit together, but by Spring I feel like I will be ready for a healthy version of our connection. I will be honest i am not sleeping well I just want to rush in and go on adventures with you but its not the time. You have noo idea how funny you are to me and you know what they say " the one who makes you laugh will do anything to see you smile" and i want that to be us for eachother. Did I ever tell you that you give me confidence? I stand taller and my swag is unmatched all because I know YOU love me. The world could fall around my ears and it wouldnt amtter because YOU love me. You finding out how I feel is my very last secret. When i pray I ask God what you would do. My love, my darling, my heart whatever I call you won't matter your still home. I have fucked up in the past but no more. No longer. I see how we are a match and I want to see what we can accomplish. I admit I am fearful that I will drop the ball and hurt you. You are about to be so much bigger than you are now because of all the hard work you have put in. Remeber to take care of yourself though my love. Those who wish you ill will send attacks to your body so you cant perform to your best ability.

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Divine feminines male elder (father, uncle, brother, grandfather ) got something to say to Divine Masculine

Image
Man stop messing with her and wife her. Stop partying your getting to old for that mess anyways. We grown and grown folks choose up or die alone. I never had what yall got but if I did i would fight for it. Divine feminie is a special person. She would make anyone proud to be with.She not the type to cheat so why are you being so stupid? I want to fall in love over and over again with the same person. I want to get that first date jittters for the same person over and your just throwing it away. Do you see what living in your shadow has done? I hope you are hearing me. This can be fixed. If you love her show her. Tell her she makes you weak, but she makes you strong and able to stand in the world. Hurry up and get to her. Steal her heart before she notices. Be the man she belives you to be. Stop stalking and walk up to her door with some flowers and a gift and beg your ass off. Do not disappear again. Take her out on dates. Get her shit she likes. Stay away from friends who encora
Read more

Leo

Image
I see them in your pockets. Waiting to see what they can take from you. I know your meant to be men. I don't have to ask any questions I see you. Head to toe I want you. You are friendly. You aren't karmic and you aren't a soulmate either you must be that twin flame delay i keep hearing about. I want to delve into the most intimate ways of connecting. I want to make moves that leave you breathless. The universe will help me please you. I can't tell if you are wearing a mask. I am scared i am all in and you are just waiting to drop kick my heart. I want you morning, noon and night. I need you in my life. You are so sweet. This love i have for you rocked my world. I didn't know how much i loved you. Your love lifts me when everything else has me depressed and suicidal. I am grateful you are my lover. I want to see the world like you do. Its all butterflies and dragon flies for you and all i see demons and fire and brimstone. I appreciate i dint have to
Read more

changes are all around us

Image
 Right now you are making healthy choices in love and life. Practicing self-love, self- care, being happier is paramount  to you for you and those you care for. You are avoiding self-absorbed, narcissist, one sided relationships. You are avoiding love damaged people who react badly to receiving genuine love.  You have walked away from addictions or people who seemed addicting to be around. No more obsessions or being treated like a possession. You are releasing any urge to be controlling as things are slowly coming to fruition for you. As you hang out in this energy of freedom o not forget that sometimes you need to put your feet on solid ground. Write out your blueprints plan your foundation then soar. You have been getting downloads where change is becoming a consistent subject matter. You are going to have to make the changes Spirit is asking of you, but you  got this. 
Read more