My love is toxic

I love you more and more each day. I love you in a very special way. I know you have no ill will towards me. I know you even ignored your intuion a time or two when it came to dealing with me. I know you didnt have to so I thank you because not many would give me that grace. You was such a blessing when all I did was tear your world upside down. I took your blessings and claimed them as my own. I repeatedly stopped your forwad progress to aid my attacks on your personality and reputation wanting nothing more to prove I was the only reason you survived. If people knew any blessing you had I took a portion, every step toward progress i ridiculed or tried to lace with imposter identity. I battled you on so many fronts and laid all my burdens at your feet. I loved to see you battle worn and sick from trying to survive my attacks. I enjoy you begging me for scraps it shows the world YOU need me. I even disrupted your relationships. You having support meant you didnt lean on me as much. Your ability to create bonds baffled me as my bonds were never as deep very superficial even if they were lasting. I hate that you have endeavours now that I can't be a apart of. I hate that all i can do is hate on the sidelines. Having you take care of me was my end goal. I was going to keep you tethered to me and as miserable as possible and noone was going to know your pathetic life was because i was to scared to live mine.