Is it over?

You are free to move on just dont come back. I dont think we are over, but if thats how you feel so be it. I can't tolerate a controlling, obsessive person with a lack of direction and who is fucking aggresive. Who do I look like being abused becuase you cant get contol of your solar plexus? You are learning not to be a hater, but bro that envy is loud and wrong. I'm your partner not your competion. I'm looking to fall in loved damn near everyday with my ace. With you I feel like I'm growing and then stagnancy. I fear you might leave me though, but I am working on that its a me thing not a you thing my fear of abandonment is trauma. You have been the fulcrum to the next stage in my life. I want to be your butterfly. I want to go within and change for the better. I know your leaving me though. I never imagined it would go like this. I never prepared for this. I acted like a child with no home training. I deserve so much bad in my life especially from you. If you let me back in and then cheated on me I would accept it. You give me butterflies. I know you can't protect me from my own feelings, but this is my last attempt if it doesn't work then I will walk away. This road won't be easy. There is any promise of bliss but I want to try. Please let me try. Together i think we could be great. I know we can healthy together. I miss kissing you. I am so unbalanced. I am not taking care of myself either. Neither of us are willing to compromise so this is just toxic and ugly. We need to just walk away from each other.