Aries

No you are not being haunted. Yes your behavior is the problem. I understand you want to go back to the simpler times and doit all over but you can't. Suicide is no t the option to get out of the trouble you are in. If you need to talk to someone pick up the phone and reach out. Its ok to walk away from connecctions that do not serve you. Its also ok to not be able to reconnect with people as well. Sometimes it is part of the journey to just miss people. It is time to learn to be different. You cannot expect someone else to teach you to be the best you. If you need assistance ask for help but do not expect someone else to do the work for you Knowing when to relax into feminine energy vs stepping into masculine energy to work towards a goal. You keep courting death you just might meet them. That mask has to come off some how dont let that be how it occurs. Your internal conflict steams from what you withnessed as a child look at it thru a parents eye or a adults anything to change your perspective. I know the answers you are learning arent picture perfect but they can get you where you need to ge. Unfourtunately that means dealing with your demons not attacking others. End the war. You are not as dangerous a you believe yourself to be. The only person who is judging you for being you is you. Noone is calling you out. If the shoe didn't fit you could step right out of it with no problem.