Cancer - Vedic

You are still sitting on your throne, but you are weaponless to defend yourself. You are dressed for the part, but its who you are not what your trying to be. You spend to much time pouring out into others and not enough pouring into yourself. You are trying to get out of a contract that has you feeling less then royal. This contract has not brought the abundance and happiness you anticipated. You see others celebrating and you are trying to stack and it seems as if things are slipping between your fingers. You want to celebrate but dont feel its the right time. You aren't the karmic but you are not their soulmate either. You are always over sensitive and argumenative. You have been trying to stimulate a change and its not happening. You stink to someone. You are overly depressed. You have left a lot to be desired in your connections. Your looking for miracles and they are not coming. You are realizing you have no vibe and you have been hiding in others identies. You want genuine love but you cannot have that when you arent genuine. You are uncapable of being honest and its starting to come to bite your ass. You had your eyes on someone and thought it would be love, back rubs and forever and it never turned intothat. YOu was playing games you knew that you was heartless and still pursued connections for financial benefits and sex. You hurt people and now you feel alone and your chance for a great love is gone. You have not been paying attention to your intuition and all that God like energy wont get you worshipped when you are the devil. You feel like your drive to make things happen waning and it pisses you off. You know its because of your demons and you are trying to fight them. You see love on the otherside of the battles but you are tired of fighting and are seriously thinking about quitting. You dont want to play pretend anymore. You know what you want and you if it has to be till death that fine. You are the mastermind of your energy.