Gang Gang where are we now??? Kswiss, Addias, Reebook, British Knights, Nike Cortez, Puma

Remeber that one Country song Nelly did with the cowboy dude. They lyrics went somerhing like its all in my head i think about it over and over... Well whatever the lyrics that is what happening. The olden days and not so smart days are playing in memories as children are growing up in a world softer and toughter to navigate. The old rules dont apply and some of them shouldnt but a lot of them should. How to not be a hpocrite? How to change without it being obvious the change is happening? Why didn't no one explain doing this as a adult don't balance out and you have to make a choice and then you have to keep choosing that choice daily. They also dont tell you that you can make a different choice any day you want. They have you thinking your stuck and your not. That is the biggest secret they keep from you. Everyday is a choice but you can choose soemthing else. It will be hard but it is a choice as well. Its time to find out who I amo ut side of this persona you have said to yourself. Can i be this me as devotedly as i did the facade you wonder. You would perfer to figure it out alone then spring it on everyone but you know it dont work that way. Its going to hurt because for a long time people willl feel as if we are lying and that will make us want to deter. Walking away from old connections not taking the same path as you hurts but is necessary for you and them. You dont want to force connections that dont fit anymore. It will take a minute to know where you fit in this skewed world you are embarking into and everything feels topsy turvy and you just want to cry out but yiu dont. You aren't looking for a cookie just to find your place in this world. You thought it would be gang gang till you died but you found you have more to live for. The future isn't bleak like it was when you was younger. This new change is just a shift in perspective none is trying to change you I promise. You don't realize but a lot of you are someones angel. You saved them with your story, or your body but you changed people out there and you can keep doing so. You don't need chemicals to brace your spirit the joy you have brought toothers by being your most geniune suthentic self is so healing for all involved. YOu know life is beyond the images protrayed on social media so you are learning to stand firm on your personal beliefs not those parroted to you by others. You are grown and part of being grown is seeking your own moral foundations. Is it confusing figuring out how to unstructure your world? Heck yeah it is! Your choices do not have to be bricks around your ankles is the most important thing to always consider. Context is what promotes healthy choices s seek out as much as possible. Anyone who is to busy pointing out your struggles instead of looking for ways to surmount them neds to not be in your cirlce they will cause you nothing but frustration and trigger your desire to " go back to the old me for a minute" and ruin all the forwaed motion you nay have made up to that point. Do not let anyone paint illusions for you that you can't do more their is always resources or if not maybe that is your incentive to create it as a source for others in the future. Your love for your fellow man can be a bridge to a better future. Even if the world has it painted so you dont fitin the picture look back a few thousand years and you will see your ancestors moved in groups to protect their village within the villages dynamics they were the youth and disenfranchised yet they served a purpouse and in their elder years they reshaped the next generation each in its way but within the structure of their culture and kinfolk. Gangs aren't new just their traditonsa and vaulues were ursurpped and a new day begins with you the new elders. You want to see change you have to plant the first seds and pull the first weeds. You have to nurture the change it cannot survive if it was a overnight thing. Pride in having the part in growth goes a long way towards healing a community. After taking so much its time to give back. Even with addictions you could always learn something life sustaining from someone on the streets. Knowledge like that came through turmoil and their ablity to see the glimpse of hamnaity burst though like rays of the son on their situations. Your skill set works anywhere you jst have to find the correct new niche. Do not be afraid to ask those around you what you are good at. Kids are the best for this they will boost your ego or tare you to shreds beware lol. You can create a safre enviroment by first being a safe enviroment for others to be around. Be the reason someone smiles deep within. Take that first step after that it gets easier becuase you have made a agreement with your heart and mind that you want it. Steady work at bettering yourrself and one day you will look up and be shocked how in love witth the you that you see you are. You will have such a new found self worth and i love it for you. The new love energy emenating from you will surprise even you. You will hear it even in your tone of voice. Peace is its own kind of attractiveness beware. Don't intentional misuse this vibe it can easily be lost. You will be wondering why you took that chance when things was going so good and remeber there are those who want jusr rhat to happen just to say you was being fake. It sucks one wrong move can set you back furthter than others but it also shows how much eaxh step means to you to even takit and alot of people recognize that as well. You soon will be a refugee and safe harbor when once youwas the dark alley to be avoided at all cost. You have severed toxic connections in every sahpe and form. bo more triggers nor more drama that leads to trama that leads to turmoil and grief.