My momma don't like you and she is able to be fake with everyone..

My mom saw how much you loved me and how pure and devoted that love was and she hated you because of that.

You always put me before you and your needs she used me to gain popularity and materialism. You gave me comfort, understanding, wisdom and love. She made me a trophy and a target. I am truly grateful for you. I kept trying to gain her love not her adoration and it always was tarnished and pushed me away. I didn't fight back I kept trying to find new ways to get the love I craved. I didn't know what I was doing with you and she kept telling me you was the worse of the worse for me, but she kept you around she wanted you for herself. She saw abundance in you and wanted it for her self. She is good at seeing peoples gifts and trying to steal them. You are such a loving person that you couldn't help but give and try to heal the dysfunction in our family, but there is so many family secrets. You inspired me to change to find the real me in all of the facades I had to wear to survive as her child. I see you have gotten out from the shadow of your family. You are healing and working toward having a happier existence. You are creating a new legacy I want that too! I see we were always meant to be and maybe even in past lifetimes we came together and people got in the way. Well not this time. I coming back... do you feel me? Do you know how sorry I am I chose wrong over and over and chose to hurt you instead of standing up for myself, for you, for us. I am your worse enemy. I smiled in your face and stabbed you in the back and dragged your name thru the mud. I betrayed you over and over to push you away because I just couldn't walk away from you. I needed you to leave me because I wasnt going anywhere no matter how toxic I was. I should have left you alone. I know that you are walking away and I deserve it. I have so much I need to fix with my family. I want to come to you and tell you everything but you are so sensitive I know you will be hurt, but I want to make it to the end so you can think rationally before you walk away forever. If I can just come see you one more time and we talk. I want you to see me like you used to. You see me as a monster and that was never the plan. I feel like Dr. Strange in the #Whatifseries and I did all this evil and now I can't have you. How the hell is that fair. You are mine. My happiness, my joy, my friend, my lover do not let her take this thing we have away. You being distant is agony but you gone forever will be the death of me.