Capricorn

I have found so many people who value my happiness. They may not be close friends but they want to see the best for me. I may be unbalanced. My sacral chakra is blocked right now but I am still going to move forward. I know I need to restore my confidence, joy, enthusiasim for life, creativity, passion, harmony, and emotional expresssion. I treated so many people like my least favorite vegetable. I treated them like shit. I basically took their spiritual booty with no lube al because i was hurting. I was soulless and heartless and refused to be there for anyone. I even sought out deities to assist me in hurting folks to move on in life. i felt the get back ws justified unfourtunately it was just my jealousy and insecurities and its all blowing up in my face. I cheated, I told others it wasn't me being loose and crazy, but I just kept my actions secret while others crashed out because of me. If i knew where Daniel Webster met the devil I might have made a appointment. I should have used more magic I might not have got caught. I was just trying to be as unique as the one everyone paid attention to. I get it noone wants to keep up with the drama. Do they not think that maybe I am tired too? I wish others would think about themselves instead of watching to see if i implode. Ok so my life sucks right now. it can turn around!!! I mean so what I see now my friends where my opps, my family just waiting for my life to implode and my lovers just utlizing my desire to be loved. Knowing there are people out there thinking I owe them my body and emotions. I admit my intentions with a lot of people were fraudulant, but never was abusing them intentionally my goal. I just wasn't tauggt i needed to have my own personal balance. I have released my need to control though. Even if people think you are playing on their top just keep going and finally truly embrace yourself is the lesson I learned.