Not my first but definitely my last

I let them go. It wsn't pretty or easy but I stopped that connection. I will get rid of all signs of the connectio if that will reassure you. I don't want any reminders either. Divorice, break up whatever I will make sure its crystal clear I mean this. I dont really want to talk about my next steps but I know its necessary. I want to talk to you. I am waiting to hear from you. I miss you so very much. My soul hurts and I can't help, but cry at the pain that misssing you is causing me right now. I will admit I have messed up so bad I feel like will never get back to you healthy and a addition to your life not a burden. You don't just see your worth in this individual you see where you lack as well, but instead of shame you feel a rush to get to work. No hiding your flaws its gonna be about embracing and reshapeing. That pain I caused I am gong to do my damndest to heal, that grief to abate. I should have never allowed myself to get to a point of hurting you and yet that is all I seem to do. I caused you to question your self worth and made you feel as if you deserved my callous behavior. I am so sorry please let me spend the rest of my life making it up to you????