Virgo

Fast life isn't the only speed. Taking your time is how you make history. Rushing it will only lead to disaster. When you are right in front of the things that matter you miss because you are looking too far ahead. You are missing alignment and that is why every thing feels dull. Sometimes it takes taking care of your outside to notice the inside needs work as well. That is not a bad thing. Work on healing. Do not look out ward for the ok. Its in you. When you mess up you ae given an oppurtunity to look back and make better choices. Regret is par for the course stop beaating yourself up and do something different. No one should have to protect themselves from your pain or insecurities. Yes, you owe people apologies and some connections you just need to release. You burnt the bridge and there is no going back. You are just going to have to watch them flourish from afar. Your fear of showing the real you maybe justified but shutting people out is how their perspective of you and your behavior changes. If you go fromopen to shut down in a short amount of time and then you ghost... I'm just saying from an outside perspective it looks a tad janky. You cannot borrow another person's personanlity and think they won't want to wear their own. Its is truly time to figure out who you are meant to be. Everything you figure out in life is not meant to be shared. Stop that!!! Intamicay is not just sex. Intimacy is found in the quiet moments in the arguements, the making up there is layers and you cannot build a house without that foundation. You need more then just lust. You need to step back maybe even talk to somone about why your perspective on relationships is skewed. If you are scared of cracking join the club. Part of healing is breaking apart so you can come together a new thing imperfect but unique still. Telling the world yppu are okay whenyou are shatterring is selfish of you and leaves those who depends on you more vunerable then you are. A lot of hopes and dreams depend on you to heal!!!! It won't be dainty it won't be easy or clean , it definitely won't be quick or pretty. You will have to trust your gut. Trust in yourself and it becomes a gift not a nagging voice that pressures you. Ignoring your intuition has gotten you into connections you had no business in totally out of jealousy. Grow up your very lineage is at stake!! Time is ticking and I get you feeeling unlucky, but you know that you walked this path sober and willingly. You made the beds you lay in and the you cannot leave the energy in the places you traveled to .. especially Chiago or somone you are dealing with was or is in Chicago.