They thought they could trigger you

Several someones called themselves coming back to you to see where your head was. Do you still not trust them? Do you know what their plans are for you? Do you know what they did behind your back? Do you know how much they hate you? They will come back in groups and as individuals trying all kinds of ways to tempt you back into connections withthem. Why wouldn't you want to be around them they just mad you fucking miserable for years of course you want to rekindle those connections. They lied to you constantly and made you feel less them but hey they are sory. Who cares about your years of therapy trying to figure out what was wrong with you. You walked around feeling incomplete and they rejoiced that you wasnt as perfect as you were. Whatever you did better then them your one or two " bad sides" had them chortling with joy believing you deserved to deal with what ever occured. Someone is going to ask if they can take you out to eat and talk. Your ablitiy to keep creating is desired. You see the world like a child full of wonder and potential.

You see everyone as a potential friend or ally and even if they come across as a enemy they still push you to be better and towards your goals. Someone wants to talk about how they didnt get picked even though they chose up and left you.

Due to all the mental, emotional and physical crimes against you many know there is no possiblity of coming to darken your door let alone call you. For those bold enough to come back they feel they belong in your life and because of that you wont push them away. The fear of never seeing you again actual is causing some of them pain. They feel you are a pain in the ass because seriously you arent famous why are you being so stubborn just let them in your life. Let them judge, comment and undermine you. Let them take all your ideas and personality and just shut up!

How dare you want to enjoy the gift the universe cultivated in you. How dare you choose to be unique and not try to be like people who are trying not to be themselves??

Some have came back several times and fumbled the ball. They insulted you by trying to behave as if no time had passed and that they hadn't done anthing to garner such a break between you. When you tell them honestly and loudly why you arent engaging the sputters and stammers could reboot Run D.M.C's rap careers because I'm sure they need a new beatboxer.

Keep on searching for your answers because thats how you avoid these soulless vampires who refuse to invest in their own selves beyond their creature comforts. You are going to continue to be a example to your past aquaintences. The Universe has put you on a pedastal non of them can shake. Let them try. You are the storm.