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I gotta get you outta my system

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 Man Fuck Sex!!! Sex is easy to come by. Connection. Intimacy. That is what i craved. When I couldn't get what I wanted I tried to enjoy what you offered cuz I wanted YOU like I wanted nothing else in the world. I just wanted to sit in your lap and cuddle forever. I wanted to believe I was safe in having feelings for you. Now I feel like I dodged a bullet.  I do my best to not think of good times cuz then memories of bad times come flooding in and I'm overwhelmed in confusion.  Thinking of you is never just one emotion its a gambit( chess move) and I hate it and I want to hate you. So what if I love you? That does not mean I want you. Twin flame sure, but burn that contract.  I don't want you to heal me with your toxic love. You can't teach me what you don't know. I gave you my heart and you had no idea what to do with it. My root chakra was blocked.  My friends all would disown me if I went back to you and I wouldn't blame them you bring sickness and lack ever

I need you like I need my next fix

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XXX~ Hot Gyal Nikki Minaj~ Anaconda There's no growth without you. When you was with me I felt like I could do anything. I could soar because you gave me wings, but like Icarus I took that gift and got cocky and flew too close to the sun of my own ego. You just always seemed to know the right way to go. Everyone can see how special you are. Will you take another risk with me and let me have you again? You get me in a way no one else does. I want you now and no-one else can touch you again. Without your love I'll drown. I know your not using your intuition about us and that makes me happy. As long as you don't see my hidden motives and bad intentions I can keep you. If you get back in alignment I'm in trouble, but regardless I have to try. You're mine did you forget?

Balance makes the world go round

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 J. Howell ~ Something about you  India Arie~ Part of my life Do I want you? Is the question on a lot of partner's hearts. Is the person I've invested so much into worth it? Guess what the indecision is mutual they are unsure what to do with your connection. Indecision is causing both of you to want to abandon the connection.  The masculine energy is focused on providing. They have neglected the relationship. Instead of balancing a deficit occurred.  The feminine energy is not prepared to defend their self when explaining their feelings. The masculine doesn't feel as though it matters they want the scales to tip in their direction while the feminine just wants balance. Even if that means getting her own scale.  If balance can be achieved bounty can be had, but if not the feminine energy will find a way to flourish without the masculine. A roller coaster of having and losing will occur for the masculine for failing to lead this discussion which would bring the healing they b

We need to talk...

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 Divine Masculine is in love they just want reassurance that the feminine energy returns the feelings. They ( the masculine ) are shedding their old ways slowly, but you (feminine) are their sun. The people they surround themselves it aren't doing it for them anymore. They feel like people are picking over their abundance and leaving them scraps. After running their path for so long they thought they would be getting celebrated more. They know they are suppose to be be teaching , but this solo path is more comfortable to them, but then there is you Divine Feminine.... They don't know what to do about you. You represent a different type of abundance that they want but don't know how to pursue you and their financial dreams. Divine Feminine is loving the masculine, but she is also moving away from the bonds that bind them both. She needs him to come to her to prove he wants to be on this journey with her. No more fighting with life. She is feeling healed and free. She is look