Heart Song The Hearts Truth

Don't be scared to be different. You are a delight and all that meet youate blessed.  You say so much and no one can say you talk to much it's actually not enough ever but who is going to tell you that?  Your childlike joy in sharing  information catches folks off guard. You haven't been meditating a d it's showing in your behavior. Go ground yourself. You aren't being watched and no one is copying you. So go live out loud for a bit it's safe you are being covered by your angels. You have spent so much of your life living in the shadow of others expectations and mistakes.  It is time you trusted your self and the gifts bestowed upon you and use them for your wtll being as well as for the world.

I used to let the way other people saw you color how I saw you. I made bad choices to please those people. I admit I tried to find you in other people.  I can't sleep. I miss you so much. These feelings won't go away and I've done to realize I don't want them to.  Folks sending you negt energy hating on how much I want you and not them. I should have been treating you right from the start.  When I come to you will you turn me away?  You knew it would come to this when we was children.  How did you have that insight?  Who taught you to see what is unseen and know what is unknown? 

Hey, You are on my mind at night. You haunt my dreams. This craving for another person is not what I am used to. I have been asking the universe for patience as I have been having some arguments with myself due to a unwillingness to face the man in the mirror.  I have this emptiness inside and I don't know how to fill it a f it makes me feel incomplete. I feel sluggish and unproductive.  Please don't let this connection slip away. You bring out the best in me.  This space we are in where we don't speak where we aren't connected feels so imbalanced.  I am leaving my person. I know that is the biggest issue. Not to say my behavior isn't one as well. I am just saying that I know that is the biggest issue between us.  I know I can't talk my way back into your heart and life. My actions need to line up with where you are and I can't plateau either I have to keep growing.  I know now I didn't do right by you. I am sorry I should've known better.  Sidebar:

Your light intrigues my shadow side. You make me feel powerful and "connected" even though we are just being us.  I am no longer conflicted about you and I. I know what I have to do for you. All I can do is walk away.  The fighting is done.  I quit.  I see you on this self love journey and I know I can't join you.  My boundaries are bad and I always fail to acknowledge yours.  I hide the parts of me that you want to see in favor of the parts of me that drive you further away. It's like there is a war going on within me and at this moment I don't know who is winning.  I even taking from work; so I'm just messing up every where. I went back to a ex or two.  I just want to be numb and not feel anything because I can't feel you.  I'm tired of using people to have what I need. I don't want to be addicted to things in my life or even people. Especially people who hated on you for just loving me.  Right now if I have to be alone so be it.  Ok,  I'm ly

You was created to be something great like the Powerpuff girls. You are so creative, but you focus on creating moments you forget to enjoy them. At least you have finally started letting your guard down and you have learned to work with your shadow instead of ignoring it or avoiding it.  I see you though and I wonder how well is it really going for you? Are you as balanced as you appear. I like what I see from a distance but, is it a facade?  I am scared to allow my heart to sing love songs about you. I don't want you to shatter me.  I want to tell you how wonderful you are that the stars are so jealous of you God sent them to adorn your lashes and hair, but the words get flipped and I tell you little to nothing sweet and nice. Give me the chance and I will show you all the that is sweet in my heart. 

I don't see a door to go thru. I don't want the world to see me. I am trying to disappear from off the world's radar. How can I be with you and you want the world? I'm holding you back. Being with me hurts you. We aren't in sync anymore. I'm jealous of you. I get defensive when you talk to me. I'm codependent and I hide from the world. I talk to much, I lie and gossip basically I have become everything I always claimed I wasn't even going to be around.  It's time you got some protecty jewelery  to keep me away from you. I am not ready to be around you and you have a destiny I cannot be permitted to stop.  I have my own healing journey I need to start and bring attached to you I couldn't never see the bad because you always forgave it.  People who know you never seem to know how lucky they are until your gone. I am glad I figured it out just pissed it took so long.  I can't believe I messed up so bad you're not in my life. You was a unexpe