Heart Song The Hearts Truth

Whatever is hidden is about to come to the light.  Things you needed to be made aware of finally reaching your ear. While the lack of knowledge left you out of the loop it also shined a light on those with alterior motives against you.  You had people in your life fully willing to sabotage you to stop any chance at growth.  As long as you stayed stagnant you had their support, but any attempt at movement upward and forward. Immediately blockages both physically and spiritually.   Right now you got a feminine energy all in your mix wishing you nothing, but the worse in life. Your desire to lead a life separate from her and her manipulation has left her floundering for a new lackey and Noone is as good as you. She got your assistance,love, and protection and you swallowed the abuse and made it look pretty. She won't stop til she is dead. To the outside it will look she's just trying connect but you and I both know its to be involved in your life to undermine it....

If I could just get them to hold me down. Kiss ass? Tell me how...  My head game is phenomenal. My communication though... not so good. I could be the best lover given the chance. We are so different I think that might rip us apart.  If i got them and then lost them...I'd crash the fuck out. I pushed them away to get my ego stroked by strangers. I don't want to go thru another season without them. I am on my way to them. I just want a chance. I have no idea if thats a good idea, but I have to try. I know they are trying to heal from me but.. fuck all that I need them.  I can show them I am sincere. I want to go home. Home is in their arms. I will confess everything to get a chance. I love them so, but I think what I have done has made it impossible to fix things.  It was my job to show in every interaction and moment that my love was real and there for them.  I was in my negative masculine energy and was so very toxic. I look for signs and answers and i'm ...