I gotta get you outta my system
Man Fuck Sex!!! Sex is easy to come by. Connection. Intimacy. That is what i craved. When I couldn't get what I wanted I tried to enjoy what you offered cuz I wanted YOU like I wanted nothing else in the world. I just wanted to sit in your lap and cuddle forever. I wanted to believe I was safe in having feelings for you. Now I feel like I dodged a bullet. I do my best to not think of good times cuz then memories of bad times come flooding in and I'm overwhelmed in confusion. Thinking of you is never just one emotion its a gambit( chess move) and I hate it and I want to hate you. So what if I love you? That does not mean I want you. Twin flame sure, but burn that contract. I don't want you to heal me with your toxic love. You can't teach me what you don't know. I gave you my heart and you had no idea what to do with it. My root chakra was blocked. My friends all would disown me if I went back to you and I wouldn't blame them you bring sickness and lack ever