Heart Song The Hearts Truth

Your pet wants to spend more time with you. They remeber you used to do more with them. You have been working with them to change their behaviors and with more attention they assure you they will finally get it. The more attention they receive the easier it is for lessons to stick in their minds. It may seem like their behavior is sabotage like but its actually in reaction whatever energy you are putting in the atmosphere. Youwant good behaior then you gotta be good to. You can't have a day where you are ignoring your pet. They don't understand the cold shoulder its either you love them or you hate them. For better or worst they are codependant on you so reward their obsession. When you push them away they are hurt. They feel as devestated as if you died . They are actively mourning every time you send them away angerily. Your pet loves you so very much don't forget that when life gets busy just like your human relationships you have to make a effort.

You are getting a taste of your own medicine. This is a lesson and once you learn it the happiness you sought will be just around the corner. Accepting your truth so it can no longer be weaponized against you. Do not let your past addictions keep you shackled to this situation. Go to where you can find peace and regroup if you need to, but its time to face this situation head on so you canfinally be happy. You have declared if they can't let you be happy they need to leave you alone. You know you cannot do the healing you need alone but you sure as hell can't do it in a unsafe enviroment. You need T.L.C. You want reasssurance that you are loed and wanted. Not lusted, not seen as a finacial advantaged just wanted. You want to be seen for the assest you truly are not as a burden. You want to learn your talents and you want the space to foster them to see if you can make something great and yours out of them. This isn't something you want in the future you want this now

Your heart has been set free. Your abuser/s can no longer axcess you. They can try to apply their version of pressure but it aint gonna work. They have no idea the bloodline they fucking with. They been praying to God asking HIM to curse you like a whole ass weirdo. This/ese abuser/s has/ve the nerve to cry about the lost of this connection. They will say they have been abused and thats why they behave as they do. Anything they can do to get back in your good graces they will do. They are willing to let you attack them. They know they would have been safe with you. You gave them wings and made them feel special. They are a trickster/s don't believe them.They are going to come back saying the sweetest things. They will tell you they are fighting their demons. That they want to finally deleve into who you are. They will proclaim they want your happiness above all else while behind the scenes they are undermining you. You being in a happy relationship made them sick with jealousy.

Someone is not feeling confident. They do not feel like you will allow them to getto know you. They are all in their feelings completely unsure how to come to you. They are begginning to have hope. The bad in their life is starting to dissapate. With this change in their emotional weather they are trying to not let their world go topsy turvey. In being more in tune with their emotions they are acknowledging they will always be Royal. If there is a masculine involved someone is upset with them. You had no more hope and then they came along and lifted you. ooooh. This masculine wants to know are you still down? They want to give you all their time. They have taken the time to get to know them selves so they will not lose themselves in you or anybody else. They see how much they are like you and they want to embrace you but at this moment they know there is no forward movement is the postion they are involved in. This masculine is striving to kearn to wear their heart on their slee

You are a miracle. You are so impressive. Can you just sit on my lap and never leave? If you dont want to be with me I totally get it I have spent to much time hurting you why would you believe i want to make it up to you? You make me so happy with your cheerful disposition. Your quirkiness is beautiful. . Even when changes occur and something just aint right you manage to keep educating folks. You are doing what you was called to do. I surrender my heart to you. Iknow its beat up and tarnished but its all yours. I dont have any strategy to bring you back excet open my heart and maybe you will step into it. My struggles will not keep me from coming back to you. I will even assist you with work drama. If they are coming against you they are coming against us i get that. The longer we are apart the more bleak life seems. I see you out there making moves though. You are totally #Wifeygoals #youaremyangel you are the reason i dont need a drink. I am looking at your social media c

You may feel like their is problems at work but secretly you are loved by many and they find you a delight. People love your carefree attiyude and that you like anime and cartoons. Some feel irritated that you are doing so much, but that just because they can't hang. You have the spirit of ambition and its not a bad thing. Your goal is to build community for your lineage. You want to build it on honesty and no cutting of corners. Utlizing every facet of your capablities to make things work is paramount to you. Your needed and if you left a big hole would definitely appear. Don't let the users finesse you out of your morals and home for some decent sex. Co workers don't need to become lovers. If they can't elevate you then they aren not the one who you have been waiting on your whole life. No lies is going heard. You have bossed up and noticed needs to be taken by all.

Whatever you are doing behind closed doors to make money is about to be exposed. You are in need of therapy playing in grave yard dirt thinking that was going to help you. You came against someones elses family and thought you was gong to win. You underestimated the spiritual hitters in their family. You are going to be more then breathless. You choose not to think foryourself and now you are caught up in some shit. Your health issues are fixable just go to the doctor and take your dang pills. Lots of people take medication for a variety of reasons. You don't have to lie about your health. I don't get why you are so determined to destroy someones wealth and abundance while undermining their wisdom and empathy. You could have took all ths energy you are using to study people to actually go to school. Your toxic habits will be the death of you. Instead of doing anything to get into folks business not even they actual lifes just their bidness is going to blow back on you.

You feel left behind. You wanted to feel like someones desert. You wanted to be devoured every night. You wanted intelligence in a partner, someone who worked hard, a homebody someone who understood you. If this individual was a freak that worked as well especially if they was willing to make a video. This person would taste delicious. While you are desiring all this you realized you needed to work in the inner you. The person you desire you aren't right for; realizing patience is a virtue and you need to work on yourself was such a level up. You have been just sitting waiting for change to come and it won't you need to grind. Wishing that this was a story that could be started over again. Emotions are overwhelming at the moment. You just want them to wait while you figure things out. You can be a sweet individual and their love will be the cherry on top of your life. The idea of being loved by this person is what is making you strive for better. Its ok to acknowledge

I hate when you raise your voice at me. I can't hear your words its just a rush of sounds my ears. On top of you being a ladies man I just didn't listen to myself and ended up somewhere that had me thinking I deserved this treatment. I felt I deserved to be left out. I thought I deserved to be depressed. I didn't realize my own self love would rescue me. I thought I loved me in the past, but I didn't I tolerated myself on occasion. I really hated myself. I felt I needed to put more work into myself becuase of what others told me. I didn't see the projections they was sending my way I took it all as heartfelt truths. I lived in the blackest of holes and gave anyone I precieved as being affected by me a wide berth to stay safe. I didn't realize people thought I was surpassing them I was just trying to survive. I spent so much time trying to avoid rejection I didn't force anyone to take accountablity for how they treated me. There was noone to turn to.

You have lodt faithin yourself. You fell for someone who used you. You thoughtthat you could fuck them out of being a hoe and a trick. They pretended to be a leader but was a predator. They cheated and flaunted it in your face. You have had to go on a self healing journey. You feel as if noone will really want you for you. Your wondering if if you pretned to be something else like its been done to you maybe yyou will finally get chosen for forever not just right now. You just want tohave that forever typ love that makes people glow whenthey talk about their person even when mad their energy just gets bigger thatkind of love can move mountains. That kind of love need no valadation it just is. You thought you finally had you happily ever after. You found out after a sti scare that wsnt the case. Instead you had some beaitifully toxic love. You thought you was toroughbut this person snuck a whole other relationship ( not a randome person ) under your nose. This person may even h

When all hope is gone the universe makes a way. You are a master manifestor and you come by it honestly. Both of your parents are spiriually inclined it was going to show up in your life some how. You are funny and people are surpised by that. Youalso have someone who regrets walking away from you. YOu was a bright light in their dark world. People around you gravitate to you just becuase you shine. Someone sees the neglectful situationyou are in and wants to come in and save you. This person loves everything about you from your head to your toes even your attutide and they know it seems premature but their feelings are real and they are deep. They are runing to you will you just stop mving for 5 secs so they can catch up? They gget you aen't ready to be lovers but they din't want to lie they want it all with you.

Pills and potions, overdosing, angry because who you love doesnt love you. Played to many games got caight in the same and now you can't stand your self. You aren't taking care of yourself and whatever you are doing is cutting yearss off your life. You might be a 80s baby. You just want this person to finally pick you. You haven't learned the lesson yet of dealing with this person and what ever you did I hope you have a lawyer because i see they are justified for whatever they are about to do.. You are like a dark cloud in this persons life. You may have thought you was being sneaky but they found out. Now that they know they want you to say it out loud and say it with your chest. You have been getting signs that have been telling you to stop for ages. YOu wasn't scared before but all the sounds and shadows have finally got you sppoked. Its tolate to blowout the candle. The universe heard your little baragins and has come to collect on what you owe and its comin

You walked away from a connection that you want but you know you shouldnt have. You watched someone love you and you constantly push them away. Until they stayed away. Now you feel that flutter and miss the sound of their voice. All of a sudden you feel the love they wanted you to feel for the longest. You still balme them for leaving but you know your heart never would have awakened if they hadn't. Their dissaperance from your life left a huge gapeing hole you had no idea their little frame could fit in let alone fill but there presence was huge. Now you are trying to get that heart chakra open fully You want to feel all the feels especially for them. You want to get back to them but lets be honest you havent changed and don't really plan on it now your just gonna take a break until it gets boring. Then spice up life a bit. You just need them to put up with all your shit your not asking for a lot. If they wont play the game though you have others who will. You

OK your own card came out first in reverse. DO you not want to know about yourself? Do you not want to hear about your beahviors and how they are a turnoff? Do you not want to here about the fruitless mission you have been on? You have invested a lot of money into something that is crumbling around your ears. You had a lot of people around taking from you on top of you pouring into dead end connections. You have even used magic to get to where you are in life. You have taken the energy from at least 3 individuals and have two more in your sight to take out becuaser you believe their lives will solidify your foundation. You made promises that you are not going to be able to keep. The wheel has turned in your favor, but the wheel hasn't stop moving and now its begining to turn away from you. You have ignored a lot of signs and easily accesible information that could have saved you from this path, but your determination to stay on this path is what will lead to your destruc

I played games. I took chances. I had options. I gambled and I've lost. I hurt myself. I hurt you. I didn't think a seperation was going to happen. I didn't think our love couldnt handle anything. I din't think it was me. I really believed all this timeit ws your fault cuz all the people around me hated you and agreed with me that it ws your fault. There was no way i was going to acknowledge loving you. Tolet people know i saw you in a different light then they did. To let them know i admired you and wanted to be just like you would have made me lose my place in there heartrs i figured. Making a healthy choice in connection wsn't as important as the right fancial choice one that would benefit the whole family. My choices were limited into who would empty their pockets and comlain the least. For a time it was you. Various reasons made you stop but while i had you you made it work out. Now you won't even talk to me. I think you have me blocked too. I don

Someone isn't as fragile as you first thought. You thought because they was beautiful/ handsome they would be easy to take down but its been years and they still are around. You have tarninshed their reputation and decalred to anyone who would listen that this person was for the streets in everyway you could imagine. You talked about them so badly Only Fans and prostitutes alike felt the right to judge them. All because this person had the IT factor from a young age. You even leaned on this person used their wisdom to better your life and you was never apprective nor gave them credit to others. Now it seems like you need this persons help but you have burned every bridge that might have gotten you to them. Your stank behaviour has been your undoing. Instead of seeing this person as a blessing in your life you viewed them as a destructive force then went out of your way to prove this accusation. ONly for it all to be rpven to be lies. From their hair, to their body to

Someone wants to be codependant on someone. You have addictions and an obsession and your hope is that this person can help you. Playing in spell work got you trapped in your own cage and you want out. You are miserable and your possessive , contolling nature has been unmasked and others can see the real you. You have been blocked from what ever or whomever you are obsessing over and Spirit is trying to tech you restraint. Your plans of seduction was laughable. Did you not realize you never had that kind of hold on this person? You may have saw marriage in the future, but that was never the deal. Im hearing that was never going to make it on the list. For some reason you thought that this person had blinders on when really they were just letting you dream big and didn't deflate those little balloons of happiness for you. Why are you angry at them for going along wit your delusions? You choose to ignore every word coming out of their mouth about someone else just

Something is coming and you arent expecting it. You are prepared like a Queen or King on a chessboard. You are dominating someone who thought they had a upper hand. Your love for self saved you from being dragged down to the level emed by your opps. Someone will use love to rebind you to their downfall. They will say all the right things. You know their games though. This is still a checker game to them. You have changed and therefore the rules no longer apply. If you are mirrors of each other they need to clean theirs because you refuse to reflect back the same image they want to project. What thry want to hide you show with pride because those wounds are scars now healed with hard work and tears. What is missing for them you cannot replace. You cannot use your tools they wont fit their pieces.Like inventors of old they must design tools inique to their need. You have learned to stand on your own. It is time for them as well. Your love is not enough to save anyone

Something came in a flash and is leaving just as fast. You thought you had the game sewed up and you came to learn there is way mor to it. You didn't gain what you sought. You have lost the will to continue the fight you began so eagerly. Now is time to sit back and reap what you sewed there is no changing it now. You are going to be tossed better then a italian salad in a Nona's kitchen. Spirit is going to take their time. All that moon magic has a price. You looked to the skies and tried to ignore the star. Their is no solace for your choice. You felt you was the better choice. You didnt know enough. You could have had a ally. You thought you was stronger. You got fycked. Drinking is not going to help. Can you over come the storm heading your way no... but you can pick up he pieces afterward if you choose to. You aren't hearing any messages because you stopped listening like Saul and let envy enter your heart. If you only wanted to make a difference the

No you are not being haunted. Yes your behavior is the problem. I understand you want to go back to the simpler times and doit all over but you can't. Suicide is no t the option to get out of the trouble you are in. If you need to talk to someone pick up the phone and reach out. Its ok to walk away from connecctions that do not serve you. Its also ok to not be able to reconnect with people as well. Sometimes it is part of the journey to just miss people. It is time to learn to be different. You cannot expect someone else to teach you to be the best you. If you need assistance ask for help but do not expect someone else to do the work for you Knowing when to relax into feminine energy vs stepping into masculine energy to work towards a goal. You keep courting death you just might meet them. That mask has to come off some how dont let that be how it occurs. Your internal conflict steams from what you withnessed as a child look at it thru a parents eye or a adu

Angel Number:145 When you see Angel Number 145 repeatedly, it indicates that you are on the right path towards fulfilling your life purpose. Your angels and spirit guides are supporting and guiding you towards success. This angel number also signifies that it is time for you to take action and make positive changes in your life. Its time to reflect. Its time to kiss some ass. Whatever you did in the fall is coming to bite you in the bottom. You have been pretending like you have it and you don't. You and a few other are about to get found out. You caused some to lose faith in you. The pormise of more is not going to be kept. This is as far as you go. Whatever you tried to hold on to that is slipping out of your fingers. No amount of meditation will fix this. Everytime you look at people you feel like they know your dirty secrets. You are not as healed as you pretend to be. You chose to team up against those better suited as your allies. You made up reasons to be a

You got a crush on a older person and you fear that may be the reason why they never give you a chance. You are all in your head reeplaying messgaes wondering if you messed up. You just want to make this connection work. You want to be there for them in their pain and pleasure. You see them as a soulmate. You even see a child with them. You know you need to build yourself up some more but you havent given up on this idea of connection. Right now you feel like you are in a blackhole but really you arent. Let that negative miindaet go. Give that negative energy a wide bearth. You are attuned no matter the circumstances. Give them time. Being to pushy is a turn off. While you arent connected work on your toxic ways and continueeducating yourself. Go take your blood tests and start on that cleansing journey. No matter if you gain this connection or not this start to your spiritual joruney is awesome!!!

You a go getter and you arent appreciated. You are tired of codependant connections. You are tired of being stepped on and its time to sartt applying the lessons you have learned. Learning to hold your tongue and not wast your enerhy has been such a big step in your heealing. You are no longer a liar, chedater, or theft but you are still connected to those in this energy. You cant move on till you let go. Its time to go back to school. You are thirsting for knowledge its there at your finger tips. You ar not in a mental prison unless you want to be. You hold the keys to your mental cell. Its ok to let go of false connnections and. embrace thereal. The only way for Karma to not kick your ass is to be working with karma. All your past behavior has to go. Either change or get left behind by time. You can have the connections where you will be safe. Once you become a safe person to be around. Stop being so materlistic YOU are the reason you arent married not anyone else.

Let me save you this time you are saying to your person. The old you is dead and cremeated you are a new you and ready to be the person they want. You are codependant and they are going to have to deal with it. You don't care if their feelings aren't reciprocated you can feel enough for the both of you. Your person is creative, and intelligent. A go getter and a ideas person who never ceases to amaze you. They are tall to. You admire their intelllience and their ablitiy to make money. You like them being chaotic peaceful is boring. You like them needy for you. If they sit back and think about your actions they would cease giving but they lack clarity and wisdom when it comes to you. You wish you could keep them wearing rose colored glasses, but its not paying off anymore. When you arent with them you will call just to keep them bound. No options just smooth sailing right to hell becuaseyou dont stand your ground why should you when you can make them feel

Someone is thinking of things in the past. Rewriting their memories to be happier. Trying to rewrite the story so it has a happier ending. All you desire is to go on adventures and to stop missing out on life. Possibly feeling like happy and you were just not meant to be together. Quick connections with no substance are no longer desired. Not knowing when to say no but claiming awaeness in connectiomns is your new self talk. Declaring to yourself there is a best friend, true love, adventure partner, sweetheart, partner in crime out there just waitung fir the first steps to be taken. This person might have numerous piercings. This person when you hug then you do not like to release them. When you are with them you feel fertile. You are freeing yourself from darkness and toxicness. Your throat chakra has been blocked preventing the truth from coming out but now your free and you can find a safe place embraced by harmony to thrive in. Learning to stand alone is ha

Your money is in a few pots but you are making it wor for you. Having many hats is why you make the big bucks. You are lonely and crave your soulmate. You have returned to sender all the low vibe energy trying to be sent your way. You are learning to bend when its needed. You want to closer to each other. They are sorry they keep hurting you. Noone else makes them feel so vulnerable. They are doing their best to be better for you by being better for themselves. No more lying. No more drama. They choose you thats why they are still around, but they have learned to choose themselves first. The past has taught lessons that have freed them where it used to shackle them. They miss looking into your eyes. Everytime you walk away they have to acknowledge they could just eat you up. They are trying to be slick and hold on to you. They like it when you dominate them. They like it you are a switch. They wish they could swoop you up. You are the reason for transformation in thei

You have someone coming who feels you take their breath away. As much as they are physically attaracted to you they feel there is to much drama in your connection. Thisb person is learning to keep your name out your mouth. You speak and the cosmos listens. Your light causes this person shadow side to rage and disturbs their spirit. Something you do makes them hot in the pants. Right now you may not be talking to this King energy. They are on your mind all day every day. They wish you would confess how you feel about them to them, but I feel like they just havent been listening. So for some of you they are throwing in the towel on fixing this connection. This person likes to put their all into love, but in the past they made promises to others and was dissapointed with the lack of reciprocity. Now its important you both have faith that this connection not onlly will happen but will flourish. No more misunderstandings no more smoke and mirrors. The person was in their Zeus/ Aproho

This person feels no worries when they are with you. This person may have been your enemy in the past, but now they want to prove themselves to you. They have recognized that with you they can find healing. They fear looking you in the eyes you might catch the lies still floating in there. This person is aware you may never fully trust them, but that doesnt change that they want to be apart of your life. This person is looking for signs and syncronicity to come and make your life better. This person chooses to redeem themselves by being a true friend to you. This person is ok with not being in your life if that is your choice. They will not persue you if honoring your boundaries is all they can do then that is how they will honor you. Your friendship would be the icing on the cake, but this person is truly turning over a new leaf. So the change up will be apparent in all aspects of their lives. They dont have 100 percent confidence just yet but they are growing. This friend wil

I am noble, pure and passionate. I am a Ruby. I amprotective, aligned and full of vitality. I will not sabotage myself. I will no longer live a life to just survive I will just thrive. I am not just a blck sheep I am Royalty. I am learning to please myself first. I am learning to not let my outside circumstances affec me. I am not a sum of spellwork. I am a overcomer. I am paying attention to my situations and learning where i should utlize my energy and where it will be wasted. I am learning to love myself. When i said i would never fallin love i didnt know thati was preventing myself from loving me as well. Now i welcome love in all forms. I desere love. I made a choice to be helpful in life i just want a partner as i go along my path. I am learning to love myself as a mother and counselor to others in the world and teach them that jealousy isn't beneficial especially when it comes to getting messages from spirit. I am learning hat even if i keep my word it wont matter i

This person used to kiss your ass so much they might as well have tossed ypur salad. They showed you all of them and you accepted them and they had the nerve to judge you because if they was you they wouldnt be there for them. Just backwards energy. You are so creative and gentle. This may have been a childhood sweetheart who refuse to communicate with you their true feelings and blames you becuase they can't speak up. If you was less intemidating, less sure of yourself, unsure of yourself when walking your path. The person recognized you on a soul level and instead of embracing you they turned against you. They kept their time from you which is what you craved the most. They wanted you to indefinitely be waiting for them. It fed their ego knowing that you wanted more with them. Now they are circling the block becuase they feel their hope is gone. Your love lifts them. Your level up is their come up as far as they are concerned. The more you gain the more you can give them.

I don't understand you anymore. I look back at old texts and videos and im aching. I used those pics and videos. I perfer them to the real stuff. You are so tantalizing. I love sitting back and thinking about the last time and my favortite time and that other time... I see you as a light bringer and i know we are connected. I have some sexual transmitted demons and a actual sexual transmitted illness. I can't relax I messed up so bad. I will kiss your ass to prove my devotion ... after I get healthy again. I want to undersand you better. I want to get to know you like its the first time again.I just want to chill and vibe with you. I am coming your way soon. I know I have lied in the past, but I am working on peoving my hnesty in allmy actions. I want get grounded and start practicing mindful relaxation.

The world is scary but I thought kowing you was in this world with me would always make me feel safe and sane, but your the one i feel danger coming from you are the one i feel like is driving me crazy. Your damaging behaviors causes me to have to pull back from you. I am at the point i am questioning if you are even meant to be in my life. So now I'm asking you to step up or step the fuck off. I will fight for love but nah I aint fighting nobody for a partner. Ialways knew that love was meant for me I just didn'tknow whenit was going to come. I am changing up the vibe. New friends, new boos, new life. No more being trapped in a unjust situations. You gonna have to damn near give me a reference letter now adays to be in my energy.Intelligence is a requirement I am not going to dumb myself down for the benefit of having friends. I am being kind to myself. I am embracing all my creativity. When I show you all of me I expect to be accepted like family anything less I'

Someone is waiting for money to come in. A promotion was supposed to be heading your way and there has been some interferance. You may be looking at job sites preparing for moving to a better oppurtunity. There was to much drama at your workplace and you are just trying to work. You are teachiing folks, showing them new ways and folks are reaching out to you and desiring more from you. You may be under attack having suicidal thouhgt out of nowhere. Do not fret they are not your thoughts and emotions it is projection from foks who do not want to see you win. You know that you aren't perfect and aren't trying to be anyhing more than who you are. The people upset with you for healing they wanted you to dry in your tears. You make history just showing up. Your life has been shaped by ptsd and yet your still loving and kind. You have severed ties that were attempting to blow up your spot. What you have going is so beautiful and you make people think of you. People want to be in

#EldertheSeeker #Sagittarius #Capricorn You are dealing with one of the above signs and they want you to know this lifetime they want to keep their promise. This is a parental angel you was their last child. They had a knack for making things with their hands that others others wanted to buy. You didn't wonder how you felt about them. The connection was healthy. NO fighting. They took you to church alot. They got saved from a life on the streets. They didnt go to college, but they made good money and wasn't weak with financial boundaries. This person was driven. Single parent so you didn't get alot of time together. They did suffer from addictions. They did pass with a sound mind. Another group its a lover whom passed who wants you to know you was the best. So good they didnt need porn. They just watched the videos yall made instead. You guys spent a lot of quality time together. You had great convos together. You talked about so many things under the sun. Yal

I don't need another lesson in love they hrut. I know I am becoming a faded memory. I miss you so much. I choose to not stand up for myself for a very long time and you walked away. I was allowing others to define my opinion of you and allowing you to suffer for their jealousy. No more online stalking and future faking. You don't need to be drunk in love to see how awesomely you are moving. I feel shitty because of the way I handled things. You were home to me and I need to boss up. I need to start telling you more how much you are appreciated. I want to elevate you and the only way I know how to do that is by loving you. I am a hobosexual and I give my body to have a home and status, //i don't see it as wrong though. Everyone is getting something out of it. I am trying to change your energy to bend to me. I just need your energy. You don't have to live with you just give me axcess. When you touch me I want to pull you close and not let go. Everything means nothin

Hey Love, Sit on my lap and let me hold you. I won't hold anything but my body against you. I don't have any plans but to have you. I surrender my heart to you. My only job is to show you repeatedly that I love you and make up for all I have done in the 3d. I know in the 3d I come at your mind and make you doubt our connection, but I am still not healed. I want to make excuses, I want to explain, but I am not stupid I know I am in the wrong. I didn't want to change and now you don't want to be around me. You told me to never talk to you... now I have to figure out how to come back to you. I ain't right and I now that. I am working on being a better version of myself. I want to be a miracle for you. I feel like i need to speed up, but I know that I have you right here with me I just want all me to have all of you. I study you to learn your quirks. I am failing the class that is you. I know if I had forever I still wouldn't know all there is to know about

We lied on you. We told your lovers and friends any and all negative things possible. From calling you for the streets to accusing you of being on drugs or an alcholic. We wanted the world to see us as your Savior. We wanted everyone to disregard how awesome you are and blessed you make us. Your knowledge and gifts were for us to hoard. If you had a blessing it was ours as well. Leaving you out made you work harder for our attention and love. We need you to let us back in your life. Like a crack head feenin for his next hit we crave you. Who is going to educate us. Who is going to give us free everything? You didn't even to learn things you just decided that is what you wanted to do and then did it. We hated it when you was happy. You look prettier, your energy is addictive and you thrive. You have walked away and you are so powerful that we know better to come at you disrepectully anymore. Your intution protects you from us. We did a lot of thing beind your back and had no sh

I deserve to punished. I fumbled and lost. I promised you this lifetime i would do right by you. Marry you and make you ridiculously happy. I messed up in one timeline looking at my doopleganger miserable because the woman he loved he mocked and betrayed and here i am literally doing the same thing. From the amount of kids to the relationship fumbles I'm mirroring them and I don't know how to stop. I hate the fucking matrix. I knew from the first moment i saw you i wanted you. I made you chase me and I intentionally kept my distance. I figured your crush on me would carry us til i got bored with you. I never got bored you kept changing and becoming more and more fascinating, You did right inleaving me alone and not chasing me. I was cheating. I know it sounds crazy but i wanted a little girl with you. I don't have daughters and i just knew we would have a goregous talented little girl. I never told you but you had my heart... you still do. I want to give you all

You are repeating a cycle. You are doubling down on trying to fuck someone over due to a family position. You are feeling delusional but you refuse to see it. You have no idea how your behavior is being percieved because you truly feel you are in the right about your behavior. You wake up everyday wondering how to make this one indiviual miserable. You try to keep them surrounded and at least one of them you expect to stab them in the back while the rest of you keep them distracted. All you have done has accumlulated into nothing. That person is still is a loving indiviual. That person still has the right to have a happy life just becuase you aren't is selfish as hell. In every walk of life you have tried to put poison in others ears about this indiviual and for every one person you turned aaginst them 5 more had their back. This battle will continue until you give up or die either choice is yours but your own ancestors are disgusted with you and don't under

I have been paying attention to some thingas and I'm realizing they are trying to kill you. I am scared to come forward and tell you because I fear you will think I am part of this. I know if they trust me enough to plan around me then I'm with them. I will be honest having your back in this situation was furthest from my mind. I was enjoying be chosen by this group. I lost out being attached to them. I am released from them but I don't feel its safe to come forward just yet. You honestly should blow me off. You are a God/goddess and they all knew it. The more people who could harrass you to keep you out of your Divinity the better. I see you now and my devotion to you wont waver again. I don't like being around numb people. I am ready to fix this friendship. In the next 2 weeks you will be experiencing the best of level ups and abundance. They are going to choke on your name and energy. All these people trying to fuck you over from behind your back. I have no ide

edit  Not everything has a happy ending but I hope that for us there is one. I would love to rekindle our connection and show you geniune affection. You and i don't even need friends we are each others favorite person and I want to talk to you and you alone for ever. I love to hang withyou. Fun never has to end when we are together. All the walls that need to come down in our connectin will becuase we will take them down together. Together we can see every side of a situation. We are great as indiviuals, but we are an awesome dynamic. Togther we find balance. I will admit I've been stalking and I used to gaslight you. I never made you a priority and left you feeling incomplete. I will come to you on a less lustful tone. No more 3rd parties I promise. The wreck my life is because of my wandering eye and lack of self preservation. I didnt value myself so when others didn't I just brushed it off. I also had addictions to fill the holes that was in my soul. I was code